Alex and Jack were laying on the bed in Jack's room. The sheets were soft and the two were still wet from the shower. Alex had cried until he felt like he could cry no more. He opened the shower got out closed the curtin behind him, and crawled to the kind sized bed in the middle of the bedroom.

Jack washed the shampoo from his eyes and went by Alex. He didn't bother grabbing his towel. He wanted to know why Alex was so sad, what happened that made him like this today.

"Lexy." Jack said moving his hands from behind his head and sitting up. "What's wrong?"

Alex pushed away from Jack, "Nothings wrong Jack. I feel just fine." Alex spat out the last word with empisis.

"Alexander William, that's bullshit and you know it. You're being an ass. What's wrong?"

"I went to see Dr. Cryst like you said and he told me that hearing my brother talk to me is normal. That it's just part of the grieving process. That I'm normal. I-I don't know what to think. How do you think that it is normal? I don't understand. Then when I came home and I couldn't find you and I thought you were dead. I saw you in the tub when I opnened the curtin. Except that you wern't standing in front of me, you were in the bottom of the tub, bleeding. Jack my brain changed everything I saw. I didn't even know where I was in that moment, I just saw you dead in a bathtub. Jack it's like my brain is trying to make me crazy."

"Alex I really don't know what to say except that I would never ever ever do that to you. I love you too much to leave you. I know somewhere probably deep down underneath all the hate that Daniel felt from everyone, he loved you. You were the only one that never gave up on him Alex."

"Jack, I did give up on him. The day he killed himself we fought and then he left and then he must've done it while I was in my room trying to calm myself down, and then when I went to go appologize to him, he was dead. I found him, I caused it. I was the straw that broke the camels back. I pushed him off the edge. I was the reason he died, it was my fault J-Jack.. I don't want to talk about it anymore... I can't stop myself from thinking about what I said to him once. That I can't sleep when I know he's not there. It's true, I haven't been able to sleep since he died. The only time I rememeber sleeping is when I would pretend that Mum slaming the door downstairs on her way to the closest hotel, I would just tell myself that it's Daniel coming home and he's just going to sleep on the couch because he's to hammered to move anymore."

"Alex, why didn't you tell Dr. Cryst any of this?"

"Jack he wouldn't listen to me. I told him that I wanted to fucking kill myself and he just said it was normal for one who's lost someone close to want to end their life as well."

"Alex, come on baby. Let's forget about today and just sleep. We'll start brand new tomorrow. Okay baby? I love you."