"Hello?" Jack yawned into his phone, it being a Saturday morning he wasn't happy to be awake right now. Especially when he still felt like complete shit, his throat still raw and his nose stuffy to the point where it hurt.

"Morning Jacky."

"Mom...why are you calling so early?"

"I just wanted to check on you. We have a really busy day planned so I probably won't have another chance to call today. Anyways how are you, you sound sick."

"I am sick."

"Oh, honey. Are you all alone or is someone taking care of you?"

"Zack said he'd come over later today to take care of me later today." He bluffed, looking over to Alex who was still asleep.

"Oh, honey. Well get back to sleep and I'll call you tomorrow."

"Alright, bye mom. Love you."

"I love you too sweetie."

With that their conversation ended and Jack chucked his cell phone to the end of the bed after hanging up. He snuggled back into Alex's chest and let his eyes flutter shut. A couple more hours of sleep didn't sound too bad right about now.
-

Jack woke up again to someone, no Alex,shaking him lightly. He mumbled something incoherent and nuzzled into his pillow ignoring his boyfriend.

"Jay I made breakfast, come on get up."

"Don't wanna."

"But I made waffles."

"Bring them to me?" Jack finally said clearly and opening his eyes.

"Only cause I love you."

"Yay." He said mumbling again. Jack smiled at Alex shaking his head, he could practically feel the elder rolling his eyes.
-

Jack shuffled into the living room where he found his boyfriend grading papers.

"Hey you." Alex said with a chuckle looking up at Jack. "Feel any better?"

"No." Jack pouted though it was a bit of a lie, he felt considerably better than he had the night before. "I wanna cuddle."

"Too bad, I've got to grade ten more of these. You got a B by the way." Alex looked back to the paper he'd been going over, ignoring Jack who was now sitting on the couch.

"Its a rough draft though."

"I know, which is why I'm hoping to give you an A by the final draft."

"You're a dick."

"Yeah, yeah. I made you some tea, it may be cold now but you can just turn the kettle on again."

"Thanks babe, but you're still a dick."

"And you love it. Now go so I can get some work done and we'll actually have time to watch a movie later."

Jack simply shrugged and got up from the couch. He would honestly much rather be back in bed but it was nice to simply be around Alex. Especially when the older boy was so into what he was doing, Jack rather liked watching him. The way his hand always found it's way back to curl a lock of hair around his finger, his tongue slightly poking out of his mouth each time he didn't know exactly what to write...yeah Jack had the world's cutest boy all to himself. And that was enough to make him smile despite just how shitty he felt.
-
Eventually the pair were nestled into bed watching movies on Alex's laptop. Jack sniffling every few minutes and Alex handing him the box of tissues that rested on his thigh.

"Jay why don't we call it a night? You don't sound too good."

"I know, I don't wanna sleep yet."

"But you need to." Alex paused and planted a kiss on the younger's forehead. "Sleep."

"Fine." Jack mumbled. "I love you."

"I love you too."
...

That Sunday Jack woke up feeling much different...but something else did too. His sinuses were finally clear and he could breathe without wishing he could just sleep. But that something different well that took his miseries place. Something was just very much off.

He just couldn't place it, Alex was asleep with his arm draped over Jack's waist just as it had been the night before. He still woke up in that sleepy morning haze that he loved on Sunday mornings. Everything seemed perfectly in place...yet still like a shattered window who's broken shards just hadn't fallen yet. And that was enough to make Jack feel a bit paranoid. So instead of waking Alex up like he normally would he shut his eyes and snuggle himself closer into Alex's chest.

By the time Jack woke up again he was alone in bed, a sense of panic automatically overcoming him. Not necessarily for Alex but them in general which was strange considering the fact that they were in a very good place together. They were in love and just as happy as when they first got together. So nothing really explained why Jack was feeling so paranoid today.

The teen crawled out of bed and headed to the kitchen where he found Alex. The teacher was sitting on the counter top his cell phone pressed to his ear. He looked over to Jack and mouthed a 'goodmorning babe' before focusing himself back onto his conversation. Jack smiled lightly and walked over to where Alex was sitting and craned his neck upward to peck the elder on his lips.

Alex kissed back but barely paid any attention to the younger boy once he'd pulled away.

When Alex finally hung up his phone Jack was rummaging through the refrigerator looking for something to cook.

"Babe I was gonna make some French toast. Why don't you go lay down?" Alex said as he walked over towards the teen.

"No, I feel better now. I wanna help."

"Alright, could you get the eggs out then?"

Jack smiled and simply pulled the eggs out of the fridge. "Who were you on the phone with?"

"Oli."

"Yeah, what did he want?"

"Nothing, just to talk I guess."

Jack frowned as he reached for a bowl to put the eggs in. "Doesn't he have friends here by now?"

"Not really. He wants to come over for dinner tonight."

"Did you tell him yes?"

"No, I told him I'd ask if you were okay with...so are you?"

"I guess..." Jack paused for a few moments before blurting out his thoughts, momentarily losing his filter from his brain and to his mouth. "Do you ever think this is wrong? Us...like being together even though it feels right, could we be making a mistake?"

"No, of course not. What's got you talking like that?"

"I dunno...Just this morning I woke up and something just felt weird...I don't want it to feel weird, I don't want to doubt us but I guess for some reason I am." Jack admitted as he turned to face Alex who was now standing next to him.

"I can't tell you not to...I mean if you're doubting us there's nothing we can really do about it." Alex sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "You know I love you right, more than anything?"

"Yeah. I love you too, I trust that. I guess I'm just paranoid I just don't know of what."

"Well...maybe we need some space."

"I don't want space though, I like this. I like waking up to you, no I love waking up to you, I love playing with your hair, I love having you hold me, I love that you get on my nerves. I love having the most perfect person in the world tell me to get my beauty sleep and kiss me before bed...I just feel weird and I don't know why."

Alex didn't say anything for a long while, he just bit his lip and kept a sullen facade. "Is this about Oli?"

"I don't know. I like him, he's nice and I know he wouldn't do anything to hurt you which means he wouldn't hurt us...I may still be a little wary of him though, I don't know."

"Well you don't have to be. It's you and only you right now, I wouldn't dream of it being any other way."

"I know that too...why don't you feel this too? Don't you just feel the slightest bit off?"

"No...maybe we haven't been as in sync as we usually are this week but it happens that's normal."

"Yeah, but not for us. That's not normal."

"Jay...you're not giving me anything here...what do you want to do about it?"

"I don't know...maybe we need to take a break...I don't want to but maybe we do...maybe this isn't right."

"Baby what are you saying?"

"I don't know...just...maybe we should break up...just until graduation maybe?" Jack paused and turned away from his boyfriend."I don't know what to do Lex...I love you and breaking up would be dumb but what if we stay together and that's an even dumber suggestion."

"I can't believe you're saying this right now...you think we can't work through a weird feeling when just last week we thought I was getting arrested?!" Alex asked nearly shouting. But Jack couldn't respond, he'd seen Alex angry, heard him he, heard him upset...but this was different. This wasn't the kind of yelling he was used to, not this full of anger or discontent. "Answer me!"

"I don't know, okay! I don't know what we can make it through or not. I know I love you but what if that's not enough what if it's like my parents and love just isn't fucking enough?" Jack spewed, tears welling in his eyes.

"But what if it is?" He said, his tone softening realizing that he'd made Jack cry. "It was always enough with my parents. She had cancer and they fought through it until the end. It was hard, a hell of a lot harder than what we're in right now. But they made it and even though she's not here he still loves her like she is."

"But we're not them Alex!" Jack shouted through his tears.

"We're not your parents either! So what do you want me to say, tell you to just leave and not come back until you're ready? Cause I can't do that. I can't just let you go when I love you so much it genuinely hurts sometimes. I can't just let you walk out that door and not know what the hell is going on."

"I'm not saying I want to leave you though..."

"You just said you wanted a break, that's the same as leaving Jack! What the hell do you want?!"

"I don't know, okay? I don't know, but what I do know is that it's too early to think about this."

"Fine, you don't have to think about it then." Alex said coldly and stormed out of the kitchen.

Of course Jack followed behind, confused as ever not entirely sure what to do. They made it to the bedroom where Alex began shoving various items of clothing into a back pack.

"Lex, what're you doing?"

"I'm leaving."

"This is your place though."

"No, it felt like it was ours but I guess I was wrong. And I don't want to be somewhere when all I think about is you."

"Lex..." The younger sighed and reached out to put a hand on Alex's shoulder but he was shrugged off.

"Don't touch me."

"I...babe, please don't...I ju-"

"Stop it Jack. I'm going okay. I don't know where but if you don't think you love me enough to get through this then I don't need to be here."

"I-"

"Bye Jack." Alex muttered as he grabbed his bag and pushed past the younger before disappearing out of the door.

Notes

I wrote the beginning of this when I was happy and all mushy over a boy and all of the not so happy parts after he put a dent in my heart. I'm not sure how the formatting will be here since I'm posting from my phone but I hope it's okay and that you guys don't hate me over this chapter. (I posted this on mibba last night but for some reason my phone would only let me paste there and not here. So now I'm on a computer and my life is much easier lol.)