Deer In The Headlights

Jack's p.o.v.

I found my phone downstairs on the table next to the sofa. I texted my mum saying I was out at a friends. I placed my phone back down on the table. Don't worry, I know someone won't steal it. I started heading upstairs. As I got to Alex's room, an instant smile played at my lips. He was there when I had a nightmare. He hugged me straight away, and that's all I need when I wake up.

I opened the door and gasped. Alex was putting his t-shirt on and his belly was displayed. As I looked closer, I gasped again.

"A-Alex?" I whispered. No, I'm just seeing things. Alex looked at me while his t-shirt was halfway on. I looked back to his hips. No.

Alex quickly pulled his t-shirt down all the way. I bit my lip, slowly walking in his room, shutting the door behind me; it's a habit I have. I moved over to Alex, the images in my head. I sat next to where Alex was zoned out. I looked down at his hand at then up to his face.

"Alex..." I whispered. Almost instantly, Alex looked at me. I wasn't sure if he saw me looking at them or not.

"Show me your hip.." I whispered again, looking him right in the eye. He shook his head, looking down.

"Alex, please." I mumbled, grabbing his hand. Alex mumbled something I couldn't hear and I frowned.

"Show me them, Alex. I want to make sure that my eyes saw wrong." I said quietly, rubbing his hand. He looked up to me, but ducking under his hair a little. He looked like he was going to cry any second now. He looked away from me, breathing out deeply. He sneaked his hand to his t-shirt, lifting it up. I could see scars all over his belly and curves. I stared at them thinking why such a perfect person would do this to himself. Luckily, they were all scars. But he must of cut quite deeply for them to show so clearly. I felt like crying. I think I was crying. I looked up to Alex who's lip was trembling from trying to not cry.

"Is this what you mean by...it'll get better? That-that you stopped and it got better for you? So-So it will for me?" I asked, my heart pounding, tears now in my eyes. I wiped them with the back of my hands. Alex looked at me, a tear dropping down his face. He stared at me a little longer before getting up, running out the bedroom wiping his tears. Go get him, now! I got up, running out Alex's room. I looked both ways. No. This reminds me of when I found that boy in therapy. When I was looking down the corridors. Go away images, I don't need you now! My vision became clearer and I went straight to the bathroom. I tried to open the door but it was locked.

"Aleeex." I called, knocking on the door.

"Jack says open the door right now." I firmly said. Shit, maybe it was a little too firmly? He might think I'm going to make fun of him now. But I wouldn't. Fuck, I have scars and cuts myself.

"Jack wants hugs." I smiled a little at how stupid that sounded. Before I knew it, the door was opening and an Alex was standing there. His cheeks were soaked in tears. I moved forward, my hands wrapped around his waist. I rested my chin over his shoulder.

"I like you, no matter what." I whispered, holding Alex just a bit tighter. Alex ducked his head into my neck and I smiled at the butterflies.

"I-I'm sorry," Alex whispered. "If I could get rid of them, I-I woul-"

"No, Alex. You're perfect with them." I pulled back from the hug, leaning in again to catch Alex's lips. He seemed a tiny bit surprised at first, but he soon started moving his lips with mine. I bit his lip and pulled away.

"Let's go watch movies downstairs." I smiled, pecking him on the lips. He nodded. I swear I could see a blush on them tear covered cheeks. I grabbed his hand, locking our fingers together. As we got to the stairs I laughed. I walked down the first stairs, my fingers still locked with Alex's. Alex started finally following me down the stairs carefully. As I got to the second stair before the bottom, I jumped, not thinking twice. I felt my hand pull Alex as I jumped like a five year old. Alex let out some kind of short yell as he bumped into me, sending me on the floor. And well, Alex ended up falling on me.

"Fuck." I whispered. I felt something on my...lower half and looked to the side. Alex. Alex's hand was on...my crouch. Fuck.

Alex lifted his head up, oblivious to where his hand was placed. I gulped, hoping he'll realise soon. Soon didn't come, so I stared at Alex who was looking at me and I blushed.

"A-Alex, your hand." I blushed deeper. Then I felt Alex squeeze my crouch. I moaned, placing my hand over my mouth instantly.

"W-What?" Alex asked, squeezing again. And yet again, I let out a moan. Was he doing this on purpose?

"Alex, your hand is on my cr-" I moaned, "-ouch." I looked up to Alex who's eyes were wide in shock.

"Oh my god. I'm so sorry. Oh my- was I just...Oh damn, I was. I'm sorry." Alex said, taking his hand off. His hand touch it again while he was moving his hand which made me bit my lip, closing my eyes. I could feel myself getting hard. Shit, no.

I pushed Alex off me. Literally. I didn't dare to look down at myself.

"Ow." Alex moaned, rubbing his head. Oh shit.

"Oh Fuck, sorry. I-I had to push you off or I would've got..." I didn't finish the sentence. Instead, I offered Alex my hand. He chuckled, placing his hand in mine and let me pull him up. Damn, I feel awkward.

"Come on, let's watch movies." Alex laughed, dragging me to the sofa. I chuckled nervously, hoping I don't get a boner.

Alex and I sat down on the sofa. Alex grabbed his controller from the table, instantly pressing the ps3 button on the controller that turns on the ps3.

"Are you alright?" Alex asked as the ps3 turned on. Just a little.

"Yeah." I smiled, leaning into Alex's neck.

"Wanna sit on my lap?" Alex asked. Woah, what? I'm five now? Yeah, yeah I am. Maybe I can get him back for nearly giving me a boner? I know he probably didn't mean to...squeeze, but I'm still going to.

"Sure." I smiled, trying to hide the smirk that wanted to be on my face. I got up, looking down at Alex's lap. I made sure he could see my ass as I sat right on his crouch. He tried to move me a little, but I stayed put. Alex moved his arms so they went under my arms and placed his hands on my lap. Dammit.

"You get to pick the movie." Alex whispered into my ear.

"Thanks." I smirked as I moved my butt a little. I wanted to be careful and sly though, so I did it lightly. I grabbed the controller from Alex's hand. I typed in 'Home Alone'. I looked for the first one. I finally found it, pressing the button for it to play. I smirked again, lifted my butt up a little to lean over to put the controller on the table. I then placed my ass slowly down on Alex's crouch. I heard a short breath come from behind me and I smirked again. I turned my body slightly to the right, adding pressure near my butt area. I heard Alex's breath hitch.

"Are you alright?" I smiled, placing my hands on Alex's. Alex nodded slowly.

"Good." I smiled, turning my body back to the front. I heard a tiny noise come from Alex and I knew that my plan was going great. Somewhere In My Memory stopped playing on the TV and the movie just basically began. I laid my head into Alex's neck, my back pressed against his chest.

Halfway through the movie, I had took my eyes off Home Alone( which is defiantly strange for me) and brought my attention to Alex. I smirked for the millionth time today as I licked under his ear. And yeah, I didn't find it wrong or creepy at all.

"Jack, did you just- oh." I began nibbling Alex's earlobe. I could feel the heartbeat of Alex against my chest, making me smile as I licked his earlobe.

"Mmm, Jack." Alex mumbled, tipping his head back so I could have better excess to his neck. I bit hard on his neck.

"Fuck." Alex hissed. I smirked, bringing my mouth away from Alex's neck and resting my head in the crook of his neck.

"What was that for?" Alex chuckled, leaning his head on top of me.

"Dunno." I mumbled. I don't think my mission was complete, but at least got something out of Alex. I moved my eyes to the TV and continued to watch my favorite film.

Notes

O-O This chapter was all over the place. I'm sorry it's really crap, but I was tired xD I love you all >:O