Deer In The Headlights

Jack's p.o.v.

"Seeya, Rian!" I yelled a goodbye to Rian as I got in my mum's car. I kept telling my mum that I could walk to therapy, but she thought I would ditch. So much for trust, mum.

"Hey," My mum smiled towards me. It was Wednesday so I had therapy. Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I had therapy. If Alex wasn't my therapist, I would be complaining and never wanting to go back. But for some odd reason, I've been craving to see Alex again; maybe because of what happened the other day;that happened in my room.

"Hey." I happily said to my mum. She grinned, dimples showing. She started the car and back out of the school's parking lot. I sighed, really not wanting to go through this ride. I leaned my head against the door and hummed, feeling the car rut against the road. I closed my eyes, my hair flopping in front of my eyes. Sleep, please take me.

A couple of minutes later, I still couldn't get to sleep. I was mentally begging my brain to just let me sleep. I wasn't even asking for much. I felt my body shake and I looked up. We're here. I was bouncing a little in my seat, mentally shouting at my mum to hurry up. Once my mum did stop the car and took the keys out, I didn't hesitate to get out the car. I closed the door quickly, shaking and cringing. My mum frowned at me, but let it fly by. I rushed up to the double doors, my mum following behind. I opened the doors, sweepin into the warm, weird smelling building. Safe at last.

"Bye, Jack. Have fun." My mum said once I had finally been called to. We were waiting in the waiting room for Alex to be ready.

"Seeya, mum. B-be safe." I smiled weakly, feeling all funny. I don't know if it was because I was being nice to my mum, or the fact I was seeing Alex. I think it's both of them.

"I will." She reassured before walking away. I bit my lip, rising up from the blue seats and start walking to the room I memorized.

I was about to knock until the door scared me, making me jump a little. Alex opened the door. I breathed out calmly, relaxing from my almost heart attack.

"Oh," Alex jumped as he saw me. I laughed, looking down a little on Alex, seeing as I'm taller. He looked up and smiled, his dimples showing.

"I was about to get you." He looked at my chest-that was leaping up and down from nearly shitting myself- for a bit before at me in the eyes. I starred in his eyes, getting lost a little. No, that's a bit awkward.

"You nearly made me piss my pants." I shrugged, saying it in the most casual voice I could muster. Alex looked at me, confusion drew on his perfect little face. Okay, so his face right now was really cute.

"You opened the door when I was about to knock." I sighed, rolling my eyes. He seemed to click on and he ducked his head, smiling a little. I smiled to myself, loving the look of Alex's.

"Well, um, lessons. Come on." Alex said turning around and opening the door all the way- he was leaning on it. I followed Alex into the small-ish room and sat down at the seat I had last time. Alex collected something-his clipboard, and wondered to me. I like it how Alex still has a clipboard.

"So, Jack, how have things been since the last time I saw you?" Alex asked, sitting down in his seat and making himself comfortable. I hated these kind of questions. I didn't want to lie, yet, my brain was telling me to do so. Like, one half of my body wanted to, the other didn't; protested about spilling the truth and prevented me from getting descent help. I smiled lowly, it obviously being fake.

"Pretty good." I said, not realising my voice sounded so un-convincing until Alex cocked his eyebrows at me.

"Mmm, are you sure, Mr Barakat?" Alex asked, reading my body like a book with no letters, nor numbers. I bit my lip, feeling some strange feeling start to sting my eyes. God dammit, no, please. Not now, I'm begging you.

"Hey, Jack. Don't worry about it. I'm here to help you." Alex said smoothly, his hand touching mine. I looked down at our hands. Alex was rubbing his thumb over my knuckles. I blushed and brought my hand away. Fuck, why did I do that?

We were sat in silence. I felt kind of awkward. I was trying to not think about situations that made me want to cry, but too much bad things came flowing through. Tears. They just wouldn't stop. Here we go again. I thought. I ducked my head down in my arms again like last time. I didn't really like people watching me cry, or hearing. I didn't like crying at all. When you cry in front of people, they feel bad. They feel bad and then comfort you. But they don't really feel bad, they don't care; they're doing it for the sake of nothing.

I felt an embrace of warmth intertwined with my body. I bit my lip, trying to keep the upcoming sobs from escaping from my useless mouth. I felt someone's chin hook over my neck and they rubbed my back.

"Come on,Jack. Please don't make me be a whale-pup again." Alex begged. I choked a laugh. This man never fails to make me feel at least the little bit of happiness at shitty times.

"If you don't stop, I'll meow like a lion," Alex warned. Meow like a lion? Lions can't even-

"Wait," Alex sounded puzzled, "Lions can't meow. Or can they? Fuck." Alex mumbled. He needs to stop before I lift my head up and kiss that silly fucking mouth of his off. I smiled a little, chuckling.

"What's that I hear?" Alex asked. I felt his body move downwards a bit. I felt his skin against my ear. God, that tickled.

"A-Alex, stop. That t-tickles." I giggled, moving my ear so it was covered by my arm. I moved my head to the side, looking clearly at the wall. The wall was a bit blurry from my tears though.

"Me-roar." Alex suddenly jumped in my view. I jumped back a hella lot. My heart was beating quick once again. Alex scared me, again. He kept his face their, his teeth showing a bit as a huge, dimpled smile came across his face. I starred into his eyes, this time letting myself getting lost. No matter how much I hated him for doing that, I still wanted to kiss him.

Alex was starring straight back at me, closing the space a little. I smirked and leaned in too. Was it too early for this? No, well, okay. Alex's lips came closer and closer to my lips. I smiled looking down at them. I swear he was going to kiss me, but he quickly proved me wrong.

"Nice to see you smiling again, Jack." Alex said, pulling away from near my face. I felt disappointment cover me as his body warmth left me. I pouted a little, but I made sure I was hiding my face a little. Alex walked away somewhere. I shouldn't be doing this and thinking about my therapist, should I? I don't know. Cliche, but he makes me feel right. He makes me feel like nothing can get in the way of us, not even the Law. I sighed quietly, lifting my head.

Alex had his back to me. He was sorting some stuff out on the counter. I didn't hesitate to look at his butt. Come on, I won't get the chance to see it again. Maybe.

Alex turned around, catching me just in time. Shit

Notes

Oh snap. Thanks for reading! :3 It should be in Alex's p.o.v next...maybe. I like writing in Jack's p.o.v though.