Deer In The Headlights

Jack's p.o.v

"Jaccck!" I turned around sharply to see Rian running up to me. It has been weeks since I've been at school, and I know I hate it, but I love seeing my friends. Rian tacked me with a hug. I half choked, half chuckled by his excitement.

"Jack, Jack, Jack, Jack, Jack. I missed you sooo, so, so, much!" Rian shouted, his jaw moving up and down my shoulder. I started to laugh at him. I missed him too, but he seemed to of missed me more.

"Rian, Rian, Rian, Rian, Rian. Get the fuck off, off, off, me." I mocked, giggling to myself. I could feel the frown on Rian's face as he left my shoulder. He starred at me and then slapped my shoulder. Once again, I laughed. Me and Rian have been friends since the start of high school to now- nearly the end. The chubby-ish guy that had been my first friend, looking happy, well,apart from the frown. I smiled warmly at him.

"I missed you too, Ri." I smiled again, watching as a smile formed his lips. He then sent a death glare.

"Where the fuck was you, man? I tried ringing you, but you wasn't available. Your mum told me not to come over because you wouldn't be there. What the hell, man?" Rian shouted. Luckily, we were stood in the hallways, and everyone had gone home. I bit my lip, not really wanting the images of what happened going through my head. I looked around the hallways, anywhere but Rian. But I knew I had to tell him sooner or later. I sighed, turning my head back to Rian.

"I kinda got hit by a bus," I cringed at the name of the transport. Images filled through my brain. I imagined it looking like one of them films where it goes painfully slow when something tragic has happened. I decided not to tell Rian about me arguing with my mum.

"And was uh, in hospital." You see, the good part was the hospital because of Alex. God, I miss him. I know I shouldn't, but I do.

"Wow, man. It's good you're fine now though." Rian exclaimed. I'm not fine Rian. I'm far from it. Every night that nightmare of that event haunts me. Every single night, and when it's not that event, it's something to do with Alex and I end up dying anyway. I wake up to beads of horrifying sweat drilling down my forehead. I wake up to my heart beating extremely fast and my breath hitching. But it doesn't matter,because I'm 'fine'.

"I guess. Hey, do you wanna go get some pizza?" I asked, trying to brighten myself up. I was also hungry, so yeah. Rian nodded enthusiastically, and started to walk down the hallway. I chuckled, shaking my head before catching up with him.

We entered the nice little pizza shop and walked to the counter. A tall man walked up to us seconds later.

"May I help you sir?" The dark haired man questioned, looking down at his order-computer-thing. I smiled over to Rian and asked for what pizza he wanted.

"Ooo, Pineapple and- no, no. Just a cheese and tomato,please." Rian said quickly. My face went red. Rian was so embarrassing! I swear I can't take him out for five seconds before he makes me regret it. But hey, that's what best friends are for- to painfully embrace their inner selves and just talk like they don't give a damn.

"That's two cheese pizzas then." I smiled nervously to the half confused man. I handed him the money and he wondered off. Luckily, there was seats to eat at, and so I gestured Rian to go over to one of the tables.

"So, Rian, how has it been without your lovely best friend?" I smirked at Rian.

"Oh, man, it's been the best time of my life!" He smirked back. I scoffed at that, and folded my arms over my chest. It feels so good to finally move my arm about.

"Whatever, dude." I smiled.

Minutes later, the man called us at the front. I love it how we have to get up and go get our pizzas in this place. I was going to get up and collect our pizzas, but Rian got up first. I relaxed a little into the sliver chair and just starred at the table, waiting for Rian. I could smell all sorts of delicious food in this place. Well, yeah, it is a take away-in shop, Jack. I laughed to myself and saw that Rian had appeared.

"God, I'm starving!" I said, mouth open and pretending to drool. As on cure, my belly rumbled. I chuckled a little and Rian shook his head. Rian handed me my box (they're both the same) and I opened it up. It looked like the pizza was still nice and warm. And boy, did it look good. I could feel my mouth drool a little, and so I picked up the pizza and eat it.

"God dammit, I forgot to buy a drink. Do you want a drink, Rian?" I asked after my third pizza. Rian looked like he wasn't paying attention to me- he loved his pizza too much. I sighed and got up anyway.

I came back with two cans of Pepsi, and placed them down on the table. I didn't hesitate to open mine first, I was too thirsty to wait. After drinking the lovely liquid, I continued on my pizza.

"What did it feel like to get hit by a bus?" Rian asked out off nowhere. I instantly choked on my pizza, finding it difficult to breathe. What the fuck, Rian? I swallowed the pizza and coughed a billion of times. So much for helping me, Rian! I grabbed my drink, letting it roll down my throat, smoothing it. I noticed the person at the counter gave me a funny look, but I shrugged.

"Are you alright, dude?" Rian asked after a moment. By the time he asked that, I would of been dead by pizza. But I luckily escaped death, again. I nodded very slowly and placed the drink down. I had drank half of it. I decided I wasn't hungry anymore, and closed the pizza box with about four remaining pizzas left.

"M'tired." I randomly rambled. Rian looked at me with a cocked eyebrow. I sighed and rested my head in my hands and looked out the giant window. It kind of scared me how I had a full view of a road with quite a lot of vehicles. I noticed the street lamps were starting to come on, and I realised I didn't message my mum where I was. I turned my head back to the table and pulled out my phone. I noticed she hadn't messaged me. I frowned and wrote out a quick text.

To Mum
Eating pizza with Rian, I'll be home shortly.

I put my phone back into my pocket and watched as Rian wiped his mouth. Rian closed his pizza box and grabbed mine. He walked over to the bin and put them in it. He came back and sat down.

"What was it like then? Was it painful?" Rian asked. I really wish he'd just drop it. It makes me all shaky and scared. I shrugged, not trusting my voice. Rian looked at me confused.

"Oh." Was all Rian said. I frowned looking down at the table. Rian has become more less talkative than the last time I saw him.

"Anything exciting happened w-while I was gone?" I asked, it coming out just above whisper. My voice was all cranky and sounded odd. I placed my head on my knuckles again.

"Not really. Mr Quinn came out as gay, though. There's your chance, Barakat." Rian chuckled. Rian knew I was gay since the beginning. He was the first person I told, and then my mum shortly. My mum didn't seem all that bothered, but I could tell she changed a tiny bit after I told her. She's always been shouting at me, but when I came out, she seemed more terrifying.

"Mr Quinn is quite hot if you ask me." I smirked.

"You only think that because he's got good music taste."

"That's true, but seriously, oof. 100 percent, would bang!" I said truly, smirking as I said them words. Rian just shook his head at my stupidness.

"Hey, I think we should head off home." I said after a while, becoming vertically tired. Rian shook his head, agreeing.

"Yes. Thank you, Jack for the pizza." Rian thanked, standing up along with me, and tucking his chair in. He grabbed his not-even-opened Pepsi.

"Thank the pizza for pizza." I laughed at my joke that didn't make sense. Dammit, I laugh at everything I say? I chuckled again, and we said thank you to the person at the counter before heading off.

I walked Rian home first, seen as he lived before my house. I said goodbye and headed to my house. I walked nervously down the street as the sun started to go down. If I'm honest, I was terrified. I kept glancing back and forth for any signs of 'it'. Luckily, there wasn't any in sight. Well that was until I got to the other side of the road. I was walking down the path and turned the corner to see a bus just start to head my way. I bit my lip nervously as I eyed it. It kept coming closer and closer, and I shut my eyes tightly, not wanting for see it. I hissed as the noise of the bus started getting louder. My body shook in fear and my brain drowned in images. I bit my lip harder and harder, and scratched my arms deeper and deeper. Go away. The noise got louder, louder, louder, quieter, quieter, quieter. It had gone.

My eyes were still shut after there was no sound of the bus. I felt a tear shoot down my cheek. I opened my eyes slowly. I looked around to confirm that it has gone. I breathed deeply out in relief. I felt something sting my lips and arms to see I was bleeding. I winced as I saw my arm was covered in nail marks and blood.

"Fuck." I mumbled. I brought my finger to my lip. And yep, it had blood on it. I sighed and ran home quickly, not wanting it to happen again.

Notes

Rian!! Hey guys, sorry this chapter is a bit boring, it's kind of a filler. Jalex will be here soon :D Yay!

I wanna thank everyone for reading this story, it feels amazing to know people are reading my crappy stories. I also wanna thank the people who comment as well! Oh, and also the subscribers and voters. I love everyone reading this story, seriously, I'm.not just saying that. You're all beautiful people.