It's just a dare. How bad can it be?

Alex's P.O.V.

I was in last period & all I could do was think of Brendon. Not in an admiring way, but in a jealous angry way. Brendon is seriously getting my self-esteem down, I feel like the ugliest twink there is. All I could do was think of all the things Brendon is & all the things that I'm not. I couldn't find anything good about me no matter how hard I tried. Before Brendon came along I thought I was the hottest guy ever. Now I think I'm nothing but a dumb, ugly little twink.

Brendon's Pro's: Good hair, skinny, toned, great lips, nice eyes, big butt, perfect legs, amazing voice, funny, good time.

Brendon's Con's: Nothing.

My Pro's: Nothing.

My Con's: Bad hair, fat, fat, thin ugly lips, nothing special about my eyes, flat ass, thick legs, bad singer, dull person, monotonous.


That's all I could do, think of him & me. Comparing. I don't really know if I should let Jack come over today, I'm not feeling good & I honestly just might cry if I don't leave this classroom soon. I'm such a piece of shit.

The bell rang, luckily I got some work done during class but I'm sure whatever it was, I got an F on it. I started walking to where Jack & I always met up. I didn't want to keep him waiting if he was there. I got to the spot but Jack wasn't there yet. I sat down on the ground, waiting for him. After 10 minutes of waiting I started to cry. He probably just decided to stay back with Brendon & hang out with him, & do stuff with him, & just forget about me.

I cried & waited just a little longer to see if he'd be here. After crying so much, my eyes started to hurt, my head hurt, & my hands were shaking.

"I'm not good enough.." I whispered to myself. How could one boy tear me apart so bad?

"Lex...w-why are you crying...babe, what happened?" I heard Jack's voice behind me. I tried to wipe the tears away & look like I was fine but the tears wouldn't stop coming. I wiped them away but more came rushing down. Jack stepped in front of me & I covered my face before he could see. It was enough for him to have to have heard me, I can't let him see it either.

"Lex...baby, why are you crying?" I could feel Jack sit down on the ground next to me.

Jack tried moving my hands away but I wouldn't let him.

"Babe, I'm sorry I took so long, the teacher needed to talk to me....please tell me what's wrong."

I removed my hands from my face, revealing my tear stained red face, & puffy eyes.

"I just can't handle this..." I spoke.

"Can't handle what, babe?" Jack asked, lifting my chin up.

"Brendon.....he has me thinking the worst & feeling the worst....he's just so much better than I am & you'd choose him over me any day. He's almost perfect & I'm nothing but a piece of shit, fucking little twink." I said.

"What? No, no. You're amazing, Alex. Brendon's not perfect. He's not even close to what perfect is. The only perfect person I know is you, the only person I'd want to be with is you, & the only person I love is you." Jack answered.

"But...non of that's true...you know it. You just don't want to admit it."

"Alex, if I was lying I wouldn't be here right now. I would be at home texting Brendon or hanging out with him. But I'm not, I'm here with you, do you really think if I wanted Brendon instead of you that I would still be here at this moment? That I wouldn't have just broken up with you already? I love you, Alex & there's nothing in this world that could change the way I feel about you. No one will take me away from you ever. You're the only one I need." Jack spoke back. He gave me a whole lot of kisses on my lips afterwards. Between each kiss he'd say "I love you" I started crying a little again when I realized how stupid I was being.

"Don't cry, Lex."

"I'm so stupid....Jack, I love you. I don't think I'd ever be able to lose you.." I replied.

"You're not stupid...I'm just being a lousy boyfriend." Jack responded.

"You're perfect, Jack." I kissed his nose & he held his hand out, standing up.

"C'mon, let's go to my house...my mom won't be home till' nine." Jack suggested. I agreed & we started walking towards his house. I was a little thrown off that he wanted to go to his house instead of mine. I've never been to his house. I wonder how it looks.

Notes

Comment|Rate|Subscribe c: