I Could Never Lose You

I awoke the next morning in the greatest of moods; and the same smile as when I fell asleep. I decided to get up since the quicker I’m awake and dressed the quicker I get to see Josh; crawling out of my bunk I make my way to the front of the bus. It was quiet and peaceful; no one was awake apart from me. I manage to find where they keep the mugs and coffee.

“Oh yes please.” I hear someone say behind me; it was Alex and his cheeky famous grin.

“You lazy fuck.” I laugh.

Alex comes up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist and resting his chin on my neck.

“Oh but please.” He pouts placing small pecks on my neck.

“Okay, okay! I suppose I will have to. How come you’re up early?” I ask Alex as he takes a seat on the sofa.

“Hmm?”

“I said how come you’re up so early?” I repeat grabbing both mugs before turning to join Alex on the sofa. I sit in the corner facing my back to the arm and draping my legs across his lap.

Alex shrugs taking a sip of the coffee, “Mm this is really good coffee!”

“Well you know how I do.” I fluff my collar. He just rolls his eyes at me.

“No it’s not because I’m amazing I’m a barista.”

“So you professionally make coffee?” He looks at me with wide eyes.

“Uh yeah? Is that a problem?” I slightly tilt my head down.

“Hey...” I felt his finger under my chin lifting it so that we were eye to eye. “There’s nothing wrong with that. It’s a job isn’t it?” He smiled at me; we were still eye level with each other.

“Yeah you’re right.” I return the smile.

“Do you want to go and get breakfast? My treat.” Alex suddenly suggests.

“Yeah I’d like that. I’m just going to get dressed.” I place my mug on the counter side and leave to go and get dressed.

-

“Come on Hayley! I’m a growing boy here!” I hear Alex moan.

“Just a minute!”

I pick up my phone and check to see if Josh had text me; nothing. I’ve got nothing to lose so I text him first.

Hey, are we still on for today? xx
- Hayley

I place my phone in my pocket; meeting Alex in the front lounge.

“You look Gorgeous.” Alex was left breathless.

“Thank you.” I blush.

He takes my hand leading me out the bus, “Now mi’ lady you know this area more than me where should we head?” We continued to walk through the bus park.

“Well I do know this small café in Reading. They’re food is amazing!”

“Then that’s where we are heading.”

-

“This is fucking amazing!” Alex was mind blown about the food.

“I told you so!” I said with a smug look on my face.

Once Alex and I had finished our breakfast we ordered a coffee to talk over.

“So how are you finding Reading?” I ask him.

“Yeah I mean it’s such a great place the atmosphere is fucking amazing, and I met a new friend who I’m never letting go.”

I was about to response but my phone decided I had a text.

“Read it. I’m going to ask the boys if they want anything brought back.” Alex smiled then taking out his own phone.

[New message]

Morning love of course we are. I’m ready whenever you are just let me know xxx
- Josh

“What’s got you smiling?” Alex questioned; I didn’t even realise I was grinning like an idiot.

“Oh nothing.”

“Oh please! Tell me is it a boy? A girl?” He had both of his hands placed under his chin.

“Just someone I’m meeting today.” I didn’t want to say too much since I was already blushing like a tomato.

“Josh?” He tone had changed; it was harsh.

“Uh yeah.”

“Cool.” I didn’t understand what his problem was.

“Are you jealous?” I joked.

“No.” His attitude didn’t budge.

I took a deep breath in; and exhaled. “You should call Lisa.”

His head snapped up in my direction, “What would make you say that?”

“I heard you last night, so I thought you two made up.” I shrug.

“We should head back.” He completely ignored what I had said.

“Yeah.” I just agree; but text Josh back.

Want to meet at 12? Xx
- Hayley

It was already 11:30; it just seemed like a perfect time. Within minutes I had already got a reply.

[New message]

Ok love 12 sounds good xx
- Josh

Just as I’m about to put my phone back it decides to ring; I answer without looking at the caller I.D.

“Hello?” I answer chirpy.

“Oi slag where’s my food?” It was Harry.

“Oh it’s you.” My tone instantly dropped.

“Who did you expect Fransexy?” I hear Jack laugh in the background.

“Whatever.” I hang up not being bothered to have that same conversation; It was a lose, lose situation.

-

The entire journey back was silent; Alex hadn’t said a word, nor even looked at me. I just didn’t understand what his problem was. It was ever since Josh was brought up; even though he brought it up.

I manage to survive through the tension as we arrive back at the bus. Alex instantly climbs on not even holding the door for me.

I walk into the front lounge, “What’s his problem?” Jack asks me.

“What do you mean?” I knew exactly what he meant.

“He just stormed in here threw my food and stormed off to his bunk.”

I just shrug not wanting to get fully into something that was being blown out of proportion.

I’m ready xx
- Hayley

I text Josh I just wanted to get off of this bus.

[New message]

I’m outside love xxx
- Josh

I smile at the thought of Josh Franceschi waiting for me, “Right I’m going out for the day. I’ve got my phone if you need me, try not to need me. Love ya!” I give Jack a kiss on the cheek; which was full of food.

“Be safe kiddies! Love ya pumpkin!” Jack wiggles.

I leave the bus to come face to face with; Josh Franceschi.

He had his famous smile plastered on his face.

“Hello love.” His voice made me weak at the knees.

“Hi.” I shyly say; and then our day began.

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