You Have My Heart, At Least For The Most Part
Twenty-seven
Jack's p.o.v
I got out of the toilette and dragged my self to the couch. I still had to wait for Rian to come and pick me up. He had made me come back home for a while, but he drived me here so I couldn’t go back until he wanted me to do so.
He said that I can’t stay there forever. That I have to, at least, come and grab my things. Eat real food.
I plopped myself on the couch and tried to watch a movie. I couldn’t quite focus, my mind kept driffting off to Cassadee.
I sighed as I heard my phone ringing. Alex. Again. He had called and texted me every second of the past week. I threw my phone to the other side of the room, in an attempt to shut it up.
“Hey, I really think you should stop ignoring him. It isn’t his fault.” Rian’s voice came out of nowhere, startling me.
“Mind your own business, Rian. I won’t call him. I’m not in the mood.”
“Don’t take this on him, Jack. The por kid hasn’t done anything wrong. He hasn’t seen you in a week and you don’t answer his calls. The last time he saw you, you were about to have a nervous breakdown. Alex is worried.”
“I don’t care. If Cass can’t be happy, then I won’t be either.”
Rian stared at me, wide eyed. “Dude, you really need to calm down. Don’t take it on Alex.”
“For what you are saying, it seems that I’m the only one who really worries about Cass.”
And that was it.
“You are the only one who worries about Cass?” Rian couldn’t help but laugh. “Excuse me, Jack, but if you don’t remember, my girlfriend is the one dying. I understand that she is your best friend and all, but she is the love of my life. Cassadee is the reason I wake up every morning, the reason I am still alive. You think I don’t worry about her? That all of this is some kind of joke for me? Because, in that case, is not.”
“I jus-“
“No, Jack. No. I don’t want to hear it. And, you know why I told you all of that? Because Alex is a great kid. He doesn’t have to deal with your fucking bullshit, but he does. And I don’t want to see him like this because of you.” Rian made a small pause. “Do you know that he came everyday to the hospital to see how Cass was? To see how you and I were dealing with it? Probably not. You were too busy ignoring his calls and texts while locking yourself in your stupid bubble to do it.” He sat in front of me and looked at me straight in the eye. “Do you know why you are doing this? Because you are scared. You are scared to like him, to let him in. He’s not her, Barakat. Stop worrying so much. He won’t harm you.”
“How do you know that?”
Rian smiled. “Because of the way he looks at you.”
I got out of the toilette and dragged my self to the couch. I still had to wait for Rian to come and pick me up. He had made me come back home for a while, but he drived me here so I couldn’t go back until he wanted me to do so.
He said that I can’t stay there forever. That I have to, at least, come and grab my things. Eat real food.
I plopped myself on the couch and tried to watch a movie. I couldn’t quite focus, my mind kept driffting off to Cassadee.
I sighed as I heard my phone ringing. Alex. Again. He had called and texted me every second of the past week. I threw my phone to the other side of the room, in an attempt to shut it up.
“Hey, I really think you should stop ignoring him. It isn’t his fault.” Rian’s voice came out of nowhere, startling me.
“Mind your own business, Rian. I won’t call him. I’m not in the mood.”
“Don’t take this on him, Jack. The por kid hasn’t done anything wrong. He hasn’t seen you in a week and you don’t answer his calls. The last time he saw you, you were about to have a nervous breakdown. Alex is worried.”
“I don’t care. If Cass can’t be happy, then I won’t be either.”
Rian stared at me, wide eyed. “Dude, you really need to calm down. Don’t take it on Alex.”
“For what you are saying, it seems that I’m the only one who really worries about Cass.”
And that was it.
“You are the only one who worries about Cass?” Rian couldn’t help but laugh. “Excuse me, Jack, but if you don’t remember, my girlfriend is the one dying. I understand that she is your best friend and all, but she is the love of my life. Cassadee is the reason I wake up every morning, the reason I am still alive. You think I don’t worry about her? That all of this is some kind of joke for me? Because, in that case, is not.”
“I jus-“
“No, Jack. No. I don’t want to hear it. And, you know why I told you all of that? Because Alex is a great kid. He doesn’t have to deal with your fucking bullshit, but he does. And I don’t want to see him like this because of you.” Rian made a small pause. “Do you know that he came everyday to the hospital to see how Cass was? To see how you and I were dealing with it? Probably not. You were too busy ignoring his calls and texts while locking yourself in your stupid bubble to do it.” He sat in front of me and looked at me straight in the eye. “Do you know why you are doing this? Because you are scared. You are scared to like him, to let him in. He’s not her, Barakat. Stop worrying so much. He won’t harm you.”
“How do you know that?”
Rian smiled. “Because of the way he looks at you.”
Notes
Hey there beautifuls! This is shorter than it was supposed to be and it's mostly dialogue than anything else, but idk, I kind of like it.
I love youu! Thanks for reading, commenting and suscribing <33
(Rian said meaner things to Jack in my draft, I was angry at him >:c)
Awh good guy Rian
12/4/14