I'll Keep A Secret If You Keep Me Guessing

Jack's p.o.v. "You came onto me..." My breath got caught in my throat, and I felt like my heart stopped. I came onto Alex? But ho- The drinks. Me getting jealous. The shots I had taken. Storming away from Alex. Kissing him at the top of the stairs. Leading him into the bedroom. I remember... "I-I." I couldn't speak. Questions were over-taking my thoughts. Why did I do that? Was it the drinks? Did I like it? What did Alex think of it? My gaze dropped down to my knees as I refused to look at Alex in the eyes. I felt Alex's eyes on me, making me squirm a little. "Jack?" I heard him call my name quietly, and I slowly looked up at him. I bit my lip with nerves, because I had no idea what Alex was gonna say, and to be honest, I was a little scared. He sighed at me, un-wrapping his arms from my waist and gently placing them on the sheets. "Look, this was why I didn't want to tell you. Because you'll think too much and start to upset yourself." Alex sighed again, his fingers drawing weird shapes into the sheets while he looked at me with a sad expression. He was right, I am over-thinking. I will end up being upset and lead myself into a panic attack, or worse, relapsing. "Alex... I-I... I was drunk. I didn't mean to creep you out. I wasn't thinking properly," I had no idea if I wasn't enjoying it or was, because I was drunk. But for some reason, I felt like it wasn't a mistake. I felt like I knew what I was doing, and that's why it frustrated me a little more. "What-what did I do? Y'know, t-to you? Oh my God! Did you tell me stop?! Please tell me you told me to stop. I-" "Jack! You didn't force me, don't worry! Plus, you stopped way before we even got further. I may of let you, um, carry on." Alex said, going very quiet at the end, I only just managed to hear it. Wait...he let me touch him?! My eyes widened a little. Why didn't he push me off? "W-why?" I asked, my stutter coming back. I sat up, turning my confused, frustrated body to face Alex. I saw his cheeks start to darken, making me even more confused. Why is he embarrassed? "Alex?" I asked, confusion lacing through the words. He hasn't said anything for the past five minutes, just staring down at his hands while his cheeks kept getting darker and darker until he managed to look like a tomato. His eyes slowly left his hands and looked up at me, before dropping them back down again. He mumbled something under his breath, but I couldn't hear it. "What?" I became a little more frustrated, but breathed deeply, trying to calm myself down a little more. "Because Ilikedit." He mumbled a little louder, clear enough for me to hear, and I swore my heart began to pace faster. I felt myself begin to blush. I suddenly remembered the bit where I began to palm him, and even though that is creepy as fuck, I think I enjoyed that moment, too. I coughed awkwardly, earning the unexpected attention of Alex. He looked up at me with gloomy eyes, but the embarrassment still on his face. And suddenly, I wanted to feel his body against mine with my lips on his. I stared at him for quite a long time, trying to figure out what exactly I wanted. I knew for certain that I wanted to feel his lips on mine again, and I made it my mission. I moved a little closer to him so our chests were almost touching. Alex looked at me with slight confusion with still painted cheeks. I placed my hand on his, my other to his neck, Even though he said he liked what had happened yesterday, I'm still concerned that I might be creeping him out a bit, so I looked at his face to see if he was getting creped out, but there wasn't any signs of it. In fact, he started leaning in, his face getting closer and closer. "You did?" I suddenly ask, my lips only centimetres away from his. Alex went red, once again. "Um, I-I...yes." He admitted shyly, his breath over my lips. He looked down, and I reached out to tilt his chin up so I could look into his beauitful eyes. "It's okay." I smiled, ducking down and capturing his lips. This was better than the drunken kiss. Way better. I felt the passion and care in the way our lips slid together effectively. Alex began to bite down on my bottom lip, pulling on it gently. Now that whole movement made me suddenly climb on top of him, leg between leg as my fingers curled into his natural brown-ish caramel hair. Breathing. Lips moving. Moaning. Bodies moving. Were the only sounds we were hearing. I moved, discarding my lips from Alex's as I instantly connected them bellow his ear. I sucked on the skin, before biting down on it, a small noise coming from Alex's mouth. One of his hands were in my hair, the other had sneaked under my shirt, onto my chest. His fingers moved slowly all over my torso, dropping down to the bottom of my belly before trailing back up at a steady pace. I relaxed into his touch. I went lower and lower down his neck, stopping at his exposed collar bone. Alex grinded up, and I felt his hard-on rub against me. The feeling was blissful. After l left a pleasant, pink and red mark on Alex's collarbone, I connected our lips again. I never thought I'd be making out with a boy, and leaving marks over his body. As I'm all 'shy' and 'timid', I never really imagined myself being the dominant one. I didn't care anymore, though, because I was too blissed out. "Jack." Alex moaned against my lips, grinding up again. I responded by grinding down on him, getting an moan telling me he approved. His hands went to my ass, gently squeezing it. Only then did I realise he wanted to take it further. But I wanted to say something before I did anything with him. Something that's been on my mind since I met him. I pulled back from the kiss, letting much needed air fill my lungs as I breathed out his name. He hm'ed at me, telling me that he had heard. "Can I ask you something?" I positioned myself so I was sat on his thighs. He bit his lip at me as I moved, making me smirk slyly. He nodded at me. "And please don't freak out," I paused for a couple of seconds, watching his face as I let the words slip out my mouth gently, "Ever since I met you, I couldn't get you out my head. You've been the one to make me feel such feelings nobody has or will. Cheesy, I know. Okay, cut the crap, will you be my boyfriend?" I sucked in a deep breath, ready for rejection. But what I didn't expect was for Alex to gasp and squeal a yes. Shocked was an understatement, because holy shit, Alex Gaskarth is now my boyfriend. My boyfriend. A massive grin spread across my lips as excitement ran throughout my blood. I quickly leaned down, placing my lips on his, but not moving them. I just wanted to stay like this. A real life feeze mode would be nice. But soon enough, our lips started to move, and I was on cloud nine all over again. Alex started pulling my sweatshirt up and over my head, making me slightly cautious about my scars, but I put that to the back of my head. He started feeling my chest again, making me get goosebumps from the coldness of his hands. I felt uncomfortable being the only one half naked, so I placed my fingers at the bottom of Alex's top, tugging on the soft fabric before lifting it over his head. And fuck, when his muscles moved as he took it off himself made me nearly come in my pants. Dammit was Alex hot. We soon connected lips again, and Alex immediately bucked his hips up, letting a moan of satisfaction escape. My fingers played all over his chest, digging my nails into his skin at some parts. Soon enough, Alex had switched places with me, pushing me down on the bed as his leg slipped against my thigh. I smirked as his lips came crashing down with mine, sending little fuzzy feelings to run inside my belly. I knotted my fingers in his hair, and he starts moving his hips. I felt him move his lips and bite down on my neck as he began to pant quietly. I decided this was too much, and pushed him so he landed on his back at the other side of the bed. I set my fingers on his sweatpants and boxers, beginning to pull them down. Alex wasn't showing any signs of disapproval, so I pulled them all the way down and off his feet. And God, was Alex big. A smirk made it's way to my mouth as I realised he was throbbing. A little teasing won't hurt, surly. I straddled him again, my fingers moving up his inside thigh as I connected our lips again. Our lips moved roughly due to Alex's impatientness, as he kept whining my name inbetween kisses. I just carried on kissing him, pulling his bottom lip with my teeth. But when he groped my crotch, I let out a gasp, successfully disconnecting our lips. My eyes fell shut as he started palming me through my boxers, and I forced my hips forwards. And holy shit, did this feel good. "Alex." I breathed out as he palmed me harder. He then let go, making my hips stutter slightly. What the fuck? "Teasing's a bitch, isn't it?" Alex smirked at me, obviously noticing the shock on my face. "Dick." I mumbled. Honestly, I thought teasing was fun, but not when it's being done to you. "Mm, y'know, you're sexy when you're frustrated." Alex smirked at me, rubbing his hand up and down my inside thigh. "Shut up." I mumbled, leaning down to kiss him while my cheeks shined red. He made some adorable noise when my lips connected with his, making my heart melt. He's so cute. He smiled into the kiss, running his hands through my hair. It was going innocent until Alex got inpatient again. I just settled on giving him what he wanted. I trailed kisses down his body, leaving marks there and now, before reaching the base of his cock, making his eyes fall shut. And all in one great movement, I had his dick in my mouth, which, might I add, didn't taste as nice as I thought. Alex let out a quiet moan as I started moving my head up and down, tongue flat against him. He started moving his hips up and down, basically fucking my mouth. God, him and his damn  fucking hips. (A/N: well that sentence made sense. Okay, I'll stop with the a/n's) I wasn't complaining, as all I wanted was for Alex to feel great, so I went down more on him, successfully deep-throating him. "Shit." He let out as a whisper - moan, and fuck, was it sexy. Everything about Alex is sexy. I began bobbing my head faster, my tongue swirling around his head, making Alex let out the loudest moan yet. I was gonna tell him to keep quiet because his mum, but yeah, I can't. My hands ran up and down his thighs, looking up at him through my eyelashes. His mouth was open slightly, eyes shut. "Jack, close." He moaned out, tugging at my hair to try and get me to go faster, so I obeyed. Soon enough, he moaned my name, filling my mouth. And I swallowed, even though it didn't taste so good. This was my first time giving head, of course, so I wasn't really used to it. I was brought out my thoughts by Alex tugging my boxers down, not even pulling them off before he wrapped his hand around my cock. I fell into his touch, letting a very quiet moan escape my lips. "Fuck, Alex." I bucked my hips up as he began pumping me faster. Fuck, this was better than my own hand. As he ran his thumb over my slit, I felt a familiar burning in the pit of my belly. "Oh. Alex." Seconds later, I came. I was panting as I rolled off Alex, laying next to him as my forearm went to my forehead, feeling the sweat and heat. I felt the weight lift off beside me,making me turn my attention to Alex. He was bending down, naked, right in front of me, wiping his hand on a shirt. The sight nearly made me hard again, but Alex had bent back up. He had noticed me staring, blushing as he went over to get some clean boxers for us both. He put his on, then tossed me mine. He then came back into bed, snuggling up to me side and pressing his head into the crook of my neck. I grinned down at him, pulling my arm around him and kissed his cheek.

Notes

While you all laugh at how bad that smut is, I have bad news.

MakeMeLoveATL has left this story (And The Blink Show) because of some personal reasons that I won't go into. I want to say thank you to her for helping me along this story. Every time she updated, I'd always be amazed by her chapter. I love you, and I hope you well. I know everyone will miss you, because you're truly amazing and a big part of this story. This isn't much of a thank you and goodbye note, but then again, I'm not very good at them. Thanks MakeMeLoveATL, my beautiful watermelon.

~ Chloe