I'll Keep A Secret If You Keep Me Guessing

Alex's p.o.v

I plopped my headphones in and ran into school, desperate for a cigarette to calm my growing stress. I was getting all stressed over Jack. I was annoyed by the fact I was so called to him. He's just a new kid in an old block. Why did I care? Also, he has been giving me these weird kind of feelings. I can't explain the feelings, but they weren't something I have experienced before, only with girls, wait what? Urg see. Also I swore I saw about two deep cuts on his arms covered around with scars? I don't know, I could of been seeing things. I mean, he can't do something like that to himself can he? Wait, what if he didn't do them? What if it's not what it looks like? But why else would he have a hoodie on in this weather like me?
I shook my head as I walked out a different door from school. The door that lead me to 'my' smoking area. I kinda felt bad for leaving Jack back there. From what I remember, I'm his only friend. But I couldn't have him around when all my questions and thoughts are 99.9% about him.
I walked the corner and was surprised to see Rian there.
"What the hell do you think you're doing here, little fuckface?" I snarled. I really wasn't in the mood. Rian will be lucky if I don't hit him, because I sure feel like doing it because my mood.
"Get away from my face, I swear to God." I shouted. That's when Zack came around the corner.
"Well, who do we have here? Mr Potato Rian?" Zack laughed. I laughed along with him. This will calm me down. I looked over to Rian and gave him my best death glare before walking to him. He kept stepping back, gulping until his back was up against the brick wall. I was no little then 10cm from his face.
"And who said you could be here?" I smiled, grabbing the cigarette; I surpisly didn't smoke, from Zack the other day
"Hey? You gonna answer, or are you gonna be a fucking pussy?" I asked, grabbing my lighter from my hoodie pocket. I gently placed it between my lips. I put my hand over my lighter before flicking it to light my cig. I instantly sucked the deathstick in, before releasing it right into Rian's face. I watched as he coughed.
"A-Alex... Please. Just let m-me go." He choked. I looked over to Zack as he stood there, smirking. I smirked back before looking down to Rian's top. It was a vest-type shirt; no sleeves. Suddenly an idea popped into my head, and it wasn't a nice one either. I took my cigarette in, before releasing it back out. I then took it out my mouth and quickly placed it hard on Rian's arm. Sure, that will leave a mark. I smirked as he yelled in pain. I placed the cigarette back onto my lips. I smiled proudly at the burn mark on Rian's arm.
"That'll teach you, cunt," I saw as he holded his arm and tears started to scar the back of his eyes. "You tell anyone I did that, I'll fucking kill you next time." I snarled.
"Alex that-" Zack started before I interrupted him.
"Off you go. Don't ever come back." Rian quickly ran around my side before dashing away. I smiled at the wall before turning around to Zack to see he didn't really approve. I shrugged before starting to walk back to school. Well stomping to class. Zack soon caught up.
"Alex, don't you think that was a bit harsh? I mean, you could of really hurt-" I cut him off with a angry death glare. He soon shut up and actually moved a bit away from me. He knows not to talk to me when I'm angry.
I stormed into class, Zack following shortly behind. People were already here, and they all gave me looks. I sighed as I saw Jack sat at the back, one seat empty next to him. I was debating on: should I sit with him, or not? I decided not because this class (Citizen) and Geography were the only classes I had with Zack. I sat down on the other side of the room from Jack. After Zack stopped having a quick chat with the girls, he made his way to me and sat down next to me. I smiled at him before tilting my chair back and looking out the window.
Birds were flying around, wings spreaded out perfectly. Imagine what it would be like to be a bird. You could be free. You could be high up in the sky and not be scared of falling because your trustworthy wings are always there for you. It would be amazing! The tree branches where dancing along with the slow wind. The sky was crystal blue, little clouds dotted everywhere.
I was snapped out my daydreaming by Zack carefully asking me a question.
"Are you okay, dude?" I removed my head from the beautiful scene and looked at Zack. He looked a little scared. I wouldn't blame him to be honest. I nodded slowly at him, then looked towards the front but my eyes stopped before they even left Zack. It was stopped by a peculiar boy...Jack. He had his head in his arms. His hair flopped over his arm a little. I bit my lip, worried and confused. Was he okay? Clearly not. Maybe he's tired? I looked down him a little to see his leg bouncing up and down and his fingers tapping rapidly to the metal bit near his belly. No... He's not having one now... When I saw both of his legs bouncing, I leaned forward, pushing my chair down, got up and quickly made my way to him.
I bent down the side of Jack. I leaned forward and whispered carefully into his ear, lips kinda nearly touching it. I didn't want to panic him anymore, "Jack? Jack are you okay?" I asked. I could hear his breath now. They were very short. He infact, was having an panic attack.
I smuggled into his head, telling him I'm no threat. I then lifted his head a little and moved it to the side so it was facing me. I lifted a little more and saw tears running down from his eyes. His cheeks were red and his breathing was getting worse.
"Come on." I softly said, getting up and grabbed his hand. I grabbed his bag with my spare hand. I never barely took mine off. I pulled him up from his chair carefully. He ducked his head really low. I was going to tell him to lift it up so he could breathes easier, but he was obviously embarrassed by crying. Once he was up, I intertwined our fingers together, billions of butterflies flying in through my skin...well dragons. I blushed a little before walked carefully to the front. On the way, peoples' faces were in awe. I blushed even more before leading Jack out the door. I asked him to stay there and keep breathing, and ran back into the class room to the teacher. He gave me a disgusted because he really disliked me, but it went when I very quickly explained what was happening. He let me go and I ran very quickly to Jack who had his hands in his head.
I quickly grabbed his hands and lead him outside telling him over and over to breathe in and out. Once we were outside, I grabbed Jack's other hand away from his face.
"No, Jack. You need to let air in. Come on baby, breathe in and out, in and out." I said calmly. Hang on a second... Did I just say baby? Oh my god!
'Shut up Alex, and help Jack' I looked at Jack as he had his head back down. His tears had stopped, but his breathing was still quite bad. I tilted his head back up and starred into his eyes. He looked back.
"Keep looking in to my eyes and copy my actions," I softly commanded. He did what I said and I breathed loudly in before breathing out my mouth, "In...out...in..out." I said with each breath.
Jack's breathing became a little bit better.
"Come on, Jack. You can do it." I calmly said. I knew what it's like to have panic attacks. Having panic attacks is horrible!
As I stopped doing the breathing thing, I could hear Jack's breathing was back to normal. I smiled widely before hugging him-not so tightly. I felt him smile and he smuggled his head into my neck.
"T-thank you, so much." I heard him cry a little against my neck. I hitched abit when I felt his lips brush my lips by accident.
"It's okay, Jack. Everything is okay now." I smoothed, hands rubbing his back. Then it got me. Why was I so kind to Jack? Why did I check if he was okay? I never have done that to anymore. I was actually kind to someone! Someone who is highly confusing, but amazing. Amazing? Perfect! Perfect? What? Urg.
I released the hug before I looked at Jack. He looked so much better now. Well, his cheeks where newly red and wet. But I could see in his eyes he was better. He cracked a smile, which I returned.

"Ready for next class?"

Notes

*-* oooohhh.
Is Jalex slightly creeping up?
:D I swear we are on the popular page,guys. Or maybe I'm seeing things o.o Oh my god! I'm so happy. Thank you guys and ladicorns and @MakeMeLoveATL you guys are so awesome!