Fake It For Me
One.
Some people are meant to live fairytale lives, find love and live happily ever after. I was not blessed with the fortune of being one of these people. Instead, my life is like a bad romance movie in which I, the strong female lead, get myself into a string of failed relationships. Any normal person of course would take this as a sign to steer clear of relationships, at least for a while. Not me. I am not normal and for some reason, I can’t stay away from bad romances. But this is me. I am Fallon Danes and I fell disastrously and hopelessly in love with Alex Gaskarth, only because I just couldn’t stay away.
…
“I don’t know if I should leave you here alone.” Kelsey, my best friend since birth, says standing in the middle of my room, worry written all over her face.
I understand her worry. I mean, I’ve been faking an extreme cold for the weekend just so that I don’t have to leave my room and pretend that I’m okay. I’ve been waiting for this day because I knew that I would be able to send Kelsey off to the concert and I could stay home and drown in my own self pity.
“Fallon, you’re making me feel like a bad friend.”
I sigh and plaster a weak smile onto my face. “God Kelsey, I’ll be fine. You have to go. If you don’t go then no one will be the designated driver and then they will all die. Do you want that?”
Kelsey finally smiles and stands up shaking her head. “You’re completely insane.”
“But you love me.”
She doesn’t reply. Instead, she pulls me into a hug, her flowery perfume filling my nose. I sigh again, this time in relief after she leaves and swing my feet over my bed and drag my pajama clad self over to the freezer for my hidden tub of comfort, vanilla ice cream.
Phone in hand, I trudge back to my room while scrolling through my contacts. My finger hovers over Daniel’s name, just as it has been for the past two weeks, and again I’m tempted to call him and beg him to take me back.
But I don’t, realizing how stupid and desperate I would be calling the boy who for the most part of our relationship had been cheating on me. Instead, I push a movie into the DVD player and wait for Kelsey to come home.
…
By the time I hear the front door open I’m watching my third round of Finding Nemo and I’m sobbing, loudly.
“Fallon?” I hear her call my name quietly from the kitchen.
I try to calm myself down, but I can’t. The tears I keep wiping away, return forcefully like a waterfall and my shoulder are shaking violently. I’ve pulled my knees up against my chest and the fact that I can’t even see the screen because of my blurry vision makes it hard for me to even pretend that I’m actually watching the movie.
“Fallon?” Kelsey’s voice is right outside my door and I’m still a mess, no longer trying to figure out how I can get out of this situation.
When the door opens, I don’t turn to see who it is. I hear Kelsey gasp and from the corner of my eye, I see her shaking her head sadly. I try to open my mouth to explain that I’m fine. The same explanation I’d been using for the past two weeks, but my lips are trembling too much for the words to come out. Kelsey cradles me in her arms, when another figure walks through the door. Tall and skinny, with dark, black hair is Jack Barakat. Immediately I untangle myself from Kelsey and throw myself at him sobbing into his shirt. Surprised, he wraps his arms around me protectively.
“Fallon, what’s wrong? What happened?”
I continue crying, knowing that he wouldn’t understand a word I said if I actually tried to talk. He understands and lies down with my on my bed, holding me close until my sobs quiet down.
“Fal, what’s going on?” Jack asks again softly.
I lift my tear stained face from his shirt. “Daniel cheated on me.” I tell him, my voice still trembling. “For two years I wasn’t good enough for him. Two years. He didn’t tell me sooner because he was worried about my feelings.”
Jack shakes his head and I feel his hands bunch up into fists on my back. “You deserve so much better. You always have.”
“But I love him. I need him.” I mumble into his shirt. He doesn’t reply and I’m grateful. All I need at the moment is Jack.
…
“I don’t know if I should leave you here alone.” Kelsey, my best friend since birth, says standing in the middle of my room, worry written all over her face.
I understand her worry. I mean, I’ve been faking an extreme cold for the weekend just so that I don’t have to leave my room and pretend that I’m okay. I’ve been waiting for this day because I knew that I would be able to send Kelsey off to the concert and I could stay home and drown in my own self pity.
“Fallon, you’re making me feel like a bad friend.”
I sigh and plaster a weak smile onto my face. “God Kelsey, I’ll be fine. You have to go. If you don’t go then no one will be the designated driver and then they will all die. Do you want that?”
Kelsey finally smiles and stands up shaking her head. “You’re completely insane.”
“But you love me.”
She doesn’t reply. Instead, she pulls me into a hug, her flowery perfume filling my nose. I sigh again, this time in relief after she leaves and swing my feet over my bed and drag my pajama clad self over to the freezer for my hidden tub of comfort, vanilla ice cream.
Phone in hand, I trudge back to my room while scrolling through my contacts. My finger hovers over Daniel’s name, just as it has been for the past two weeks, and again I’m tempted to call him and beg him to take me back.
But I don’t, realizing how stupid and desperate I would be calling the boy who for the most part of our relationship had been cheating on me. Instead, I push a movie into the DVD player and wait for Kelsey to come home.
…
By the time I hear the front door open I’m watching my third round of Finding Nemo and I’m sobbing, loudly.
“Fallon?” I hear her call my name quietly from the kitchen.
I try to calm myself down, but I can’t. The tears I keep wiping away, return forcefully like a waterfall and my shoulder are shaking violently. I’ve pulled my knees up against my chest and the fact that I can’t even see the screen because of my blurry vision makes it hard for me to even pretend that I’m actually watching the movie.
“Fallon?” Kelsey’s voice is right outside my door and I’m still a mess, no longer trying to figure out how I can get out of this situation.
When the door opens, I don’t turn to see who it is. I hear Kelsey gasp and from the corner of my eye, I see her shaking her head sadly. I try to open my mouth to explain that I’m fine. The same explanation I’d been using for the past two weeks, but my lips are trembling too much for the words to come out. Kelsey cradles me in her arms, when another figure walks through the door. Tall and skinny, with dark, black hair is Jack Barakat. Immediately I untangle myself from Kelsey and throw myself at him sobbing into his shirt. Surprised, he wraps his arms around me protectively.
“Fallon, what’s wrong? What happened?”
I continue crying, knowing that he wouldn’t understand a word I said if I actually tried to talk. He understands and lies down with my on my bed, holding me close until my sobs quiet down.
“Fal, what’s going on?” Jack asks again softly.
I lift my tear stained face from his shirt. “Daniel cheated on me.” I tell him, my voice still trembling. “For two years I wasn’t good enough for him. Two years. He didn’t tell me sooner because he was worried about my feelings.”
Jack shakes his head and I feel his hands bunch up into fists on my back. “You deserve so much better. You always have.”
“But I love him. I need him.” I mumble into his shirt. He doesn’t reply and I’m grateful. All I need at the moment is Jack.
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5/21/17