Who Said It Was Gonna Be Easy?

I awoke to Jack's scent, a fragrance I had sorely missed. I checked the time on my phone and decided a day off school would be fine. Jack seemed to still be in a deep sleep anyway so he was clearly tired. I looked down at his naked chest and the bits I could see that weren't pressed up against me were covered in dark purple marks, some green around the edges, as were his arms and legs but not as bad. On his hip, I could make out the shape of a boot print from the bruises. I touched them lightly and jack whined, pushing his head into my neck gently. I couldn't believe rian had done this to him. Rian had hurt my baby and I was not okay with that. I knew how it felt of course but, to me, it looked as if jack had gotten it even worse. And that was besides being raped, probably more than once. I dread to think how rough it had been as well. If his general conduct was anything to go by, I was surprised jack was still in one piece.

I stroked his cheek gently with my thumb and jack reached up, closing his hand around it and pulling my hand close to his chest, hugging it to him. I smiled, pulling the blanket back up over us both, tucking him in. Jack looked peaceful, giving me the satisfaction that he was ok enough for me to go to sleep once more. For now, at least, he was happy and that made me happy too.


"Alex, what the fuck! You fucking promised me!" jacks angry voice brought me down from my sleep quickly.

"hm-what?"

"you fucking cut again! You fucking promised me! Why haven't you thrown away your fucking blades yet?! I don't like you doing this. Do you want to cause me pain?! Because that's what you're doing, hurting yourself like this! I just wish you'd fucking stop! I just want you to fucking stop!" he shouted at me. After his little rant, he promptly burst into tears.


"jack? I'm sorry, are you okay? I-I know I promised but..I don't know, I'm sorry"

"ignore me, I'm sorry, I-I..I got a bit of a problem with sleeping tablets and I keep getting mood swings, I'm sorry, don't listen to me, I'm such an idiot, I love you, I'm just doing the same thing you are"

"and what am I doing exactly?"

"finding a way of coping, even if it's bad for you and hurts the ones you love"

"right.."

"what time is it? Am I late for work?"

"yeah, baby. School started two hours ago. Do you need to call in sick?"

"wait, no, no, I forgot I booked a day off yesterday. I had a feeling I wouldn't look too good, I didn't want people asking questions"

"well..seeing as we're both off, wanna do something useful?" I grinned at him.

"what were you thinking?" he rolled us over and straddled me.

"pretty sure the same thing as you"

"I'd be disappointed if you weren't" he said simply before kissing me.

Notes

okay on second thoughts this might drag out a little bit longer than I expected it to when I said it'd probably be drawing to a close soon but you guys don't mind, right?^.^




gonna do a big write up tonight on my ipod so updates should hopefully continue to be daily:)


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