Take Me, Show Me
Chapter 3
Jack’s POV
In the morning, my mood was in the ditch. I don't even know why. And not even seeing Alex put a smile on my face. Probably because I knew that today wouldn't go my way at all; and I was right. I walked up to Alex at his locker. "Hey Lex." He frowned. "You okay? Wait, are you still sick? You should be at home!" He put his hand to my forehead. Over the night I caught a little bug, but it was gone now. "No! No I'm fine just... Not in the mood today. I'm feeling kinda down." He trailed his hand down to my cheek. "Why?" It was so simple. Why... "No reason. Drop it please." Alex dropped his hand and continued to talk. "I said drop it, the conversation I meant. Not drop your hand and continue talking." He pouted. "Fine Mr. Grumpy pants. I have to meet Maeve. See you in Math."
Well, he couldn't stay with me for 5 minutes, walk me to class? He always does. I frown. So my day just got worse. I walked up to my Math class and sat in my seat. Alex walked in with Maeve hot on his trail. I waited for him to take his seat beside me but he never did. I looked over to see him sitting with Maeve far away from me. He looked over at me and smiled, waving. I ignored him. Why would he do that all of a sudden? I spent the rest of Math class ignoring Alex and Maeve and when class ended, I made my way to business class, ignoring Alex as he yelled for me.
At lunch, I ignored everybody, including Rian. I just really didn't care about what they had to say. "Jacky, what's up with you?" I shrugged. "I told you this morning I wasn't in the mood for anything. That includes talking, and that includes you." Rian gasped and I glared at him. He motioned towards Alex and I turned my head towards him. His bottom lip was trembling and his eyes were glossy. Fucking great. "Lexi, I didn't mean that, I'm sorry. Please don't cry. I don't know what's wrong with me today, okay?" I lied. I did know what was wrong; Maeve. But I couldn't tell Alex that. Alex's lip stopped trembling as a tear fell out of his left eye. He wiped it away quickly and nodded. "It's okay Jack." He leaned in and kissed my cheek and turned back to his food sadly. I sighed.
Of course I couldn't stay mad at him. I'd never hurt him, it's bad enough I almost made him cry. The bell rang and I got up, leaving for English. I walked into the class and sat in my seat. Alex came in a minute later, sitting beside me. "I think I know what's up." I looked at him, expression dull. I blinked slowly, waiting for him to continue. "Well, you like someone. That's why you're in a bad mood." I didn't want this conversation to go on so I nodded. "Yup. Sorry I didn't tell you." He didn't leave it alone. "So who is he?" I shook my head. "Not ready to say." He nodded and turned to the front.
Near the end of the class, Alex turned to me. "Uh, Maeve and I were going to hang today. I know we need to do our assignment, but do you mind if she's with us?" Yes. "No, it's cool." I mentally shot myself. "Great." He smiled.
It was after school and we were at Alex's. Alex and I were on his bed while Maeve was sitting at the computer desk. "We have to agree on something Jack." Alex said to me. "I know. But what are we going to write about?" Alex shrugged. "We could do our opinions. It doesn't have to be a tory or poem. Sir said today that we could just state our opinions on something." I thought about it for a few seconds before Maeve spoke. "What about love? Talk about that." I rolled my eyes at her, but didn't let anyone see. Alex smiled. "Yeah! What about that Jack?" I nodded. "Sure."
"Okay cool. Well, uh... Maeve and I wanna hang now so...You should leave." I got up and went to the door. "Right. See you tomorrow to start this then." He nodded and I left. He didn't even say goodbye. I walked down the street to my house, tears falling. I cried silently as the cool Fall wind blew against my face, giving me chills. I walked into my house to my room, kicking my shoes off. I plopped down on my bed and sniffed. I grabbed my cell phone from my pocket and texted Rian.
Rian, please come over. I need you.
What's up?
He told me to leave so he could be with Maeve. No please, no goodbye. Nothing.
On my way.
15 minutes later, the doorbell rang. I made my way to the door. "Hey Ri." I said as I opened the door. He walked in, getting rid of his shoes. I closed the door and we walked past the living room into my bedroom. We sat on my bed and he sighed. "Jack, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what you're feeling, but trust me. They're not going to last. And I know he hurt you today, but he does that all the time with new girlfriends. It will wear off soon." I shook my head. "No, Rian. He never did this to me before. He's done similar, but not this."
Rian stood up and put his phone to his ear. "What are you doing? " I ask. "Calling Zack. You need to tell him, you need more support than just me- yeah head Zack, come down to Jack's right now, no buts." I sighed. "I can't tell him Ri." He laughed. "Yes you can. He won't judge you. Plus, he told me recently that he had a crush on a guy." My mouth hung open. "No way." He nodded enthusiastically. The doorbell rang and Rian went to go get it.
Zack came into my room and smiled. "Where's Rian?" I asked. He sat down across from me. "He said you had to talk to me, so he's in the kitchen." I nodded. "What's up bro?" I felt my body start to shake. "Hey, hey Jack. What the fuck is up?" He placed his hand on my knee. "I-I love Alex, Zack. I'm in love with him and he's straight and has a girlfriend who is pretty, and I fucking hate myself every day and I can’t fucking handle it." I said in one breath. Zack hugged me tightly as I cried, soaking his shirt. "And today, he told me to leave so he could be with Maeve. He didn't ask, he demanded. No please and no goodbye." Zack sighed, bringing me closer.
"Oh my god Jack. You have to tell him. He will keep treating you like this, thinking it’s nothing." I shake my head against his chest. "N-no I can't. He's happy Zee. I can't hurt him." Zack rubbed my back. "Okay, okay. It's fine. Calm down Jay." I pulled away slowly and looked into his eyes. He wiped my tears away and smiled. "Thanks Zack." He smiled wider.
I don't know why it happened, but I started to lean in closer. I watched his eyes flick down to my lips as he leaned in too. He placed his hands on my cheeks and I closed the gap, pressing my lips to his. He moved his hands to my neck, pulling me closer. He ran his to the along my top lip before sucking on it. "Zack." I whispered against his lips. He pulled away. "Oh shit, I'm so sorry." I shook my head. "It's my fault Zack. It's just the emotions." Zack laughed. "It's okay, but I like someone else so, let’s try not to do that again, yeah?" I nod. "Thanks for being here." He smiled. "No problem."
In the morning, my mood was in the ditch. I don't even know why. And not even seeing Alex put a smile on my face. Probably because I knew that today wouldn't go my way at all; and I was right. I walked up to Alex at his locker. "Hey Lex." He frowned. "You okay? Wait, are you still sick? You should be at home!" He put his hand to my forehead. Over the night I caught a little bug, but it was gone now. "No! No I'm fine just... Not in the mood today. I'm feeling kinda down." He trailed his hand down to my cheek. "Why?" It was so simple. Why... "No reason. Drop it please." Alex dropped his hand and continued to talk. "I said drop it, the conversation I meant. Not drop your hand and continue talking." He pouted. "Fine Mr. Grumpy pants. I have to meet Maeve. See you in Math."
Well, he couldn't stay with me for 5 minutes, walk me to class? He always does. I frown. So my day just got worse. I walked up to my Math class and sat in my seat. Alex walked in with Maeve hot on his trail. I waited for him to take his seat beside me but he never did. I looked over to see him sitting with Maeve far away from me. He looked over at me and smiled, waving. I ignored him. Why would he do that all of a sudden? I spent the rest of Math class ignoring Alex and Maeve and when class ended, I made my way to business class, ignoring Alex as he yelled for me.
At lunch, I ignored everybody, including Rian. I just really didn't care about what they had to say. "Jacky, what's up with you?" I shrugged. "I told you this morning I wasn't in the mood for anything. That includes talking, and that includes you." Rian gasped and I glared at him. He motioned towards Alex and I turned my head towards him. His bottom lip was trembling and his eyes were glossy. Fucking great. "Lexi, I didn't mean that, I'm sorry. Please don't cry. I don't know what's wrong with me today, okay?" I lied. I did know what was wrong; Maeve. But I couldn't tell Alex that. Alex's lip stopped trembling as a tear fell out of his left eye. He wiped it away quickly and nodded. "It's okay Jack." He leaned in and kissed my cheek and turned back to his food sadly. I sighed.
Of course I couldn't stay mad at him. I'd never hurt him, it's bad enough I almost made him cry. The bell rang and I got up, leaving for English. I walked into the class and sat in my seat. Alex came in a minute later, sitting beside me. "I think I know what's up." I looked at him, expression dull. I blinked slowly, waiting for him to continue. "Well, you like someone. That's why you're in a bad mood." I didn't want this conversation to go on so I nodded. "Yup. Sorry I didn't tell you." He didn't leave it alone. "So who is he?" I shook my head. "Not ready to say." He nodded and turned to the front.
Near the end of the class, Alex turned to me. "Uh, Maeve and I were going to hang today. I know we need to do our assignment, but do you mind if she's with us?" Yes. "No, it's cool." I mentally shot myself. "Great." He smiled.
It was after school and we were at Alex's. Alex and I were on his bed while Maeve was sitting at the computer desk. "We have to agree on something Jack." Alex said to me. "I know. But what are we going to write about?" Alex shrugged. "We could do our opinions. It doesn't have to be a tory or poem. Sir said today that we could just state our opinions on something." I thought about it for a few seconds before Maeve spoke. "What about love? Talk about that." I rolled my eyes at her, but didn't let anyone see. Alex smiled. "Yeah! What about that Jack?" I nodded. "Sure."
"Okay cool. Well, uh... Maeve and I wanna hang now so...You should leave." I got up and went to the door. "Right. See you tomorrow to start this then." He nodded and I left. He didn't even say goodbye. I walked down the street to my house, tears falling. I cried silently as the cool Fall wind blew against my face, giving me chills. I walked into my house to my room, kicking my shoes off. I plopped down on my bed and sniffed. I grabbed my cell phone from my pocket and texted Rian.
Rian, please come over. I need you.
What's up?
He told me to leave so he could be with Maeve. No please, no goodbye. Nothing.
On my way.
15 minutes later, the doorbell rang. I made my way to the door. "Hey Ri." I said as I opened the door. He walked in, getting rid of his shoes. I closed the door and we walked past the living room into my bedroom. We sat on my bed and he sighed. "Jack, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what you're feeling, but trust me. They're not going to last. And I know he hurt you today, but he does that all the time with new girlfriends. It will wear off soon." I shook my head. "No, Rian. He never did this to me before. He's done similar, but not this."
Rian stood up and put his phone to his ear. "What are you doing? " I ask. "Calling Zack. You need to tell him, you need more support than just me- yeah head Zack, come down to Jack's right now, no buts." I sighed. "I can't tell him Ri." He laughed. "Yes you can. He won't judge you. Plus, he told me recently that he had a crush on a guy." My mouth hung open. "No way." He nodded enthusiastically. The doorbell rang and Rian went to go get it.
Zack came into my room and smiled. "Where's Rian?" I asked. He sat down across from me. "He said you had to talk to me, so he's in the kitchen." I nodded. "What's up bro?" I felt my body start to shake. "Hey, hey Jack. What the fuck is up?" He placed his hand on my knee. "I-I love Alex, Zack. I'm in love with him and he's straight and has a girlfriend who is pretty, and I fucking hate myself every day and I can’t fucking handle it." I said in one breath. Zack hugged me tightly as I cried, soaking his shirt. "And today, he told me to leave so he could be with Maeve. He didn't ask, he demanded. No please and no goodbye." Zack sighed, bringing me closer.
"Oh my god Jack. You have to tell him. He will keep treating you like this, thinking it’s nothing." I shake my head against his chest. "N-no I can't. He's happy Zee. I can't hurt him." Zack rubbed my back. "Okay, okay. It's fine. Calm down Jay." I pulled away slowly and looked into his eyes. He wiped my tears away and smiled. "Thanks Zack." He smiled wider.
I don't know why it happened, but I started to lean in closer. I watched his eyes flick down to my lips as he leaned in too. He placed his hands on my cheeks and I closed the gap, pressing my lips to his. He moved his hands to my neck, pulling me closer. He ran his to the along my top lip before sucking on it. "Zack." I whispered against his lips. He pulled away. "Oh shit, I'm so sorry." I shook my head. "It's my fault Zack. It's just the emotions." Zack laughed. "It's okay, but I like someone else so, let’s try not to do that again, yeah?" I nod. "Thanks for being here." He smiled. "No problem."
AND THE FACT THAT IT WAS JALEX ASDFGHJKL;
I LOVE YOU AND I'M SAD THAT IT'S OVER
BUT I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO WHATEVER YOU WRITE NEXT~
3/31/13