Jack’s POV
"So then she's like 'I thought you loved me.' Yet she's the one who cheated on me..." I sit at the lunch table beside Alex, listening to him rant about his stupid ex girlfriend. Zack and Rian are across from us pretending to care. "So after all that I just walked away." The bell rang signalling the end of lunch. I got up and threw the tray of food that I never touched into the garbage. "Great story Alex," Rian started. "Can't wait for the next break up story next week." He said sarcastically. Alex gave his a look but shrugged it off. I sighed. "See you guys later." I said.

They all went their separate ways, except for me and Alex. We had this class together. "Come on Jack-o, why so sad?" I shrugged, mumbling something incoherent. "What?" I barged into our English class, sitting down. Alex sat beside me. "I said 'I'm not sad'." Alex huffed. "Well you sure looked it. Whatever you say Jacky."

I sighed to myself at the nickname. It's true, I wasn't sad. Well, maybe a little bit. But I was angry. Every fucking week Alex has a new girlfriend, each of them always cheating on Alex, or using him for sex; whereas I, wouldn't hurt a damn hair on his head. I would never. But he's Alex, the popular straight boy. Of course he doesn't notice my feelings for him. Though I do hide them pretty well.

I looked over to my left, staring at the way his small smile lit up his whole face. How was he smiling in English class? I watched his nose scrunch up the tiniest bit, something he does out of habit when he's confused. His bushy eyebrows that I find perfect knit together, his smile leaving as he pursed his lips. He sighed, putting his pen down and leaned back on his chair. He yawned and reached his hand up to play with his hair. I smiled at how cute he was.

"Jack, please pay attention in my class. I asked you a question." My head snapped to the teacher. His hands were on his hips and he waited for my answer. "Oh uh...7." Everyone laughed and Mr. Anderson threw his papers on his desk. "Mr. Barakat! This is English class, this is not math. Pay attention. If this happens again, you're going to the office."

I felt someone's eyes on me and I knew they belonged to Alex. I looked over at him slowly. He smirked at me, punching my arm lightly. As if him just sitting close to me wasn't enough, he had to throw me his sexy smirk, too. I laughed the thought off and turned my attention back to front of the class. Man, this was going to be a long class.

When the bell rang and class was over, I quickly got out of my seat and made for the door. I got into the hallway and felt someone grab my hand, linking their fingers with mine. I turned around to see Alex. I sighed. "Jack, what's up with you?" I shook my head. "Nothing I just... Really have to go pee." He paused for a second and shrugged. "Oh. Okay well let's go then." He dragged me to the bathroom, still having a good grip on my hand.

Once we got in there I huffed. "I can pee by myself, Lex. You don't need to hold my hand anymore, or help me." Alex blushed, retracting his hand. "Shit I didn't even know I was holding it." I ignored the cute expression on his face and went into the stall. When I was done, I washed my hands. "So," Alex said, standing too close to me as I dried my hands. "School is over. What do you wanna do?" I grabbed my backpack and faced him. "I don't know, we can play some video games." He smiled. "Sure!" He grabbed the sleeve of my shirt and dragged me all the way to his car.

I unlocked my door and threw my bag and shoes by the door. Alex did the same and followed me into my living room. "So, which video game?" I ask as I sat down on the carpet. He sat down and rested his head on my shoulder. "I don't know, I feel like some Mario Kart." I scoffed. "Whatever you say." I turned on the Wii and grabbed the wheels.

"Oh! I'm totally Princess Peach." I say, clicking the arrows. He looked over and me, eyebrows raised. "Gay." He said, picking his character. I laughed. "That I am." We sat there and played Mario Kart for an hour until he got bored.

"Jacky..." He cooed, leaning over to me, placing his nose against my now burning cheek. "Let's do something else." I gulped. "L-like what?" I asked. He pulled away and stood up, dragging me with him. "What's up with you? Anyway, let’s go to your room." We walk up to my room and sit on my bed, facing each other.

"So, any girls you're interested in?" I ask. He shrugs. "Maybe. Our school has so many pretty girls, but it's not just about their looks. I want someone real. Every relationship I had went to shit. I'm sick of stuck up bitches." I nod. "Yeah, you deserve so much better." He smiled. "So, Jack-o. Got your eye on anybody recently?" I pouted. "Why would it matter anyway? I'm the only one in the whole school that gay. Or, openly." He scooted closer, placing his hand on my knee. "You never know, Jay. There's probably someone in our school, admiring you from afar, afraid of their feelings."

I breathe in slowly as he leans in closer, touching his nose to mine, lips almost touching mine. "W-what are you d-doing?" I ask. He just smiles. "Can't I hug my best friend?" He asks as he grabs me and hugs me. He pulls away and I glare at him. "I think it's time you go, I have homework. So uh... Yeah." He pouts. "But Jack, can't I stay for dinner?" I shake my head. "My mom isn't going to be hole until late. But I-I'll text you, yeah?" He gets up and goes to the door. "Okay. See you tomorrow, love you."

When I hear his car leave the driveway I flop down into a laying position and sigh. He always does this, he plays with my emotions. And the thing is, he doesn't know he's doing it. And when he isn't playing with me, he's still acting close. That there, that was playing with me. He wasn’t just going to hug me. We're naturally really close, holding hands, kissing each other’s cheeks. But sometimes he goes outside of the comfort zone, and plays with me. It's not often, I'll give you that. But when it does happen, I can't help but get so fucking angry.

I lie on my pillow and feel the tears start to flow. Sometimes I just want to suffocate myself. This pillow seems very inviting right now, and not to sleep on. But I know I can't. Because even though he hurts me numerous times, I could never hurt him in any way possible. I could never hurt the one I love.

Notes

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