Maybe It's Not My Weekend, But It's Gonna Be My Year

Summer's POV
'Summer!' I heard Alex yell behind me. I turned around to look at him. 'I want you to meet someone!'
I turned back to Rian, and rolled my eyes.
'Thanks for hearing me out Rian, I appreciate it' I said with a smile. 'I'll be right back'
He nodded. I upped and walked towards Alex and his bleach blonde slut.
'Summer, this is Maria' Alex said.
I couldn't control it anymore. Probably because I had drank too much.
'You know what Alex, I don't give a shit' I replied. 'You're making a mistake here. What makes you think that you and her would make a good couple? And then you're just gonna replace me with this bleach blonde slut and you're just gonna ignore me, until she finds someone else to mess with, and she breaks your heart. When she does, I suddenly am good enough for you and you come crawling back to me, and I can cheer you up after you haven't spoken to me for weeks, and you know what? I'm sick of it!' I yelled. 'I don't want to meet this slut, and do you honestly believe that her name really is Maria and that she isn't lying to you? Because I don't!'
I paused. All my thoughts were just coming out in a random order.
'When did you become so shallow, Alex? You used to fall for nice and pure girls, you used to be picky when it came to girls! Now you would probably date anyone Jack would tell you to date!'
I paused again, and I saw the shocked look on Alex's face. He didn't see that coming. At least I said it now. I turned around and looked at Rian. He shrugged. I looked back at Alex.
'I won't let you replace me every time you find some other slut, and I won't let you come crawling back every time she breaks your heart anymore. This has happened so many times and you just don't seem to learn from it, and I'm done with it! I'm done with this, Alex! I'm done with you! You can go find some other girl who doesn't mind being used by you, I'm sure there are plenty of them out there!'
I turned around and walked towards the door, leaving Alex speechless. Actually, they were all speechless. Rian was the only one who I had ever told this to. Besides that, I didn't get mad that often, not like this.
'Summer!' I heard Rian yell behind me but I kept on walking. I heard footsteps behind me, and they were probably his. I guessed he didn't want me to get lost like Alex did. I got out of the bus, but left the door open since I expected Rian to come after me and it wouldn’t be very nice to slam the door in his face. I started walking to the exit of the parking lot but Rian caught up on me before I got there.
'Are you okay?' he asked me.
I halted. 'I don't know' I replied.
'Well, at least you said what you had to say now' Rian said. 'Alex now knows how you feel...'
'Yeah, I hope that that's a good thing' I replied. 'I don't know if he's gonna get mad, or if he's actually gonna see that I'm right'
'Well, you'll find out soon enough since we have to go back eventually' Rian said.
'I know, but not yet' I said.
We heard the door of the bus opening.
'Please, don't let it be Alex' I said softly. I was standing with my back towards the bus.
'It isn't' Rian said. 'It's Zack'
I turned around, and waited till Zack had reached us.
'Whoa, what was that all about? Are you okay?' Zack asked me worried.
I shrugged. 'I don't know' I replied with teary eyes.
'Come here' Zack said and he hugged me.
I was glad at least Zack and Rian weren't mad at me. I didn't know about Alex and Jack, but Zack and Rian had grown to be just as important to me as Alex and Jack. At least I would have someone.
Zack then let go of me, wiped away my tears and stepped back.
'So where is this all suddenly coming from?' Zack then asked me.
'It's not suddenly coming from somewhere' I replied. 'I've felt this way for years, but I never had the guts to talk about it with Alex. Before Alex asked me to come and meet that girl, I was talking about it with Rian. I guess it all just reached a boiling point, with that girl and Luke and the alcohol'
We then heard the door of the bus open again.
'Who is it?' I asked, looking the other way.
'Uhm, it's Maria I think' Zack replied.
'Yeah, and that Lindsay-girl' Rian added. 'It seems as if they're leaving, and Alex isn't with them... Seems like your words did have impact, We Are The In Crowd and the crew members are now leaving as well.'

Alex's POV
I was staring at the table. Did I really do everything Summer just accused me of? Did I really use her? I hardly noticed Jack asking everyone to leave. Everybody left pretty quickly and Jack sat down next to me.
'Are you okay, man?' he asked me.
'I don't know' I replied. 'Did I really do all those things to her? You should know'
'No, I don't know, I don't understand girls, but it did sound serious...' Jack replied.
'Where did she go?' I asked.
'Again, I don't know, but Zack and Rian followed her so they'll make sure she won't get lost'
I thought about the previous relationships I have had. Did I really replace Summer with those girls?
'I do have to say that, when you have a girlfriend you don't have nearly as much contact with Summer as when you don't have a girlfriend... Even I have more contact with her when you have a girlfriend' Jack said carefully. 'I do remember telling you to call Summer a few times, because she asked me if you were still alive... You always said you were too busy to call her, or that you would call her tomorrow'.
God, Jack was right... I really was a horrible best friend.
'And did my choice of girls change?' I asked Jack.
'Well, yeah it did, but I wouldn't necessarily say that it changed for the worse...'
'Except that it did... Summer really is right... I used to fall for interesting complex girls... Now I just fall for easy girls' I said. 'I messed up, didn't I?'
'Well yeah, I guess you could say that' Jack replied. 'But talking about it with me doesn't make it better, does it? You should go find her and make this right'
'Yeah, you're right' I said and I grabbed my phone out of my pocket.
'I'm sorry for convincing you to ask Maria's number and to invite her' Jack said.
I looked at him.
'Don't worry about it man, this isn't your fault. This has obviously been bothering her for a very long time and it just came to a boiling point' I replied. 'Do you think she's right? About Maria not being her real name?'
'I don't know man, just call her... Summer, I mean' Jack replied.
'Yeah that's not gonna work, she wouldn't answer anyway. I'll just call Zack'
I dialed Zack's number and asked where they were. I then hung up.
'They're just outside on the parking lot' I told Jack.
'Do you want me to come?' Jack asked.
'Yeah, I don't know how mad she still is' I said.
'If she's mad, Zack would be more useful than me' Jack warned me.
'Yeah, but Zack will be there too, so it's fine' I said.
We upped and walked out of the bus. We saw Zack, Rian and Summer standing on the other side of the parking lot and walked towards them. Rian saw us, and then said something to Zack and Summer who both turned around. Summer still looked angry.
'I don't dare to come any closer' Jack whispered. 'Summer looks scary'
'Shut up' I replied.
We halted when we were standing in front of them. I didn't know what to say, but Summer kept looking at me and I knew she wanted me to say something before she would.
'I'm sorry Sum, I had no idea you felt that way...' was the only thing that came to mind.
Judging by the look on her face and the fact that she still wouldn't say anything, I figured it wasn't good enough. I had to come up with something better. But what?
'I guess I never really thought about how it made you feel' I said.
'How what made me feel?' she asked calmly, but with a voice that was clearly full of anger.
I was glad she said something, but I didn't know how to reply to her question.
'I don't know, that I made you feel like a second choice whenever I had a girlfriend I guess' I said doubtfully. What did she want to hear?
'A second choice?' she asked me. 'I wish I was a second choice, Alex. But no, you had a girlfriend who was your first choice, and then you had all of her slutty friends who came with it. You would call them more often than you would call me, and don't say that's not true, because I've heard it from Zack, Rian and Jack. I would be on the phone with one of them, and they would tell me you were “too busy” to call me, while you were just on the phone with some slut. I have never been your second choice, Alex. When you were single, I was your first choice, but as soon as you got a girlfriend, I was pushed back to being like the 20th choice'
I didn't know what to say. I knew she was right.
'Look Summer, you're right. You're right about everything, but I don't know what you want to hear from me. I never meant to hurt you, and I never realized I did until now. Why didn't you tell me this before?' I asked her.
'Oh really?' she asked. 'You're gonna blame this on me now?'
I could hear the anger in her voice grow. This wasn't going so well.
'No, of course not!' I said quickly. 'But I want you to feel like you can talk about these things with me. I don't want you to feel like this without telling me.'
'I shouldn't have to tell you, Alex. You're my best friend and if only you would talk to me, you would notice that something was wrong. But you didn't. Until a girl broke up with you, but then you were too self-absorbed to even notice I was mad. Then things would go fine for a few weeks, just because I would forgive you. I would forgive you because I was so happy you talked to me again that I didn't want to mess that up, but I now realize I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have pretended to be fine, just to keep you in my life. I shouldn't have to, and as my best friend, you should have looked right through my pretending. But you didn't. If you cared Alex, you would have known that something was going on' she said.
I didn't know how to reply to this.
'I really don't know how to reply to this right now Sum, but I will make this up to you' I said desperately.
'What makes you think I would give you the chance to make this up to me?' she asked coldly.
I looked at her, and by the look on her face I could tell she was serious about this.
'What do you mean?' I asked her softly. 'Are you going home?'
'Home? No of course not, you would just show up at my house then' she said.
'Summer, please don't leave' I begged her. I looked at Zack, Jack and Rian, who didn't seem to know how to convince her to stay either.
'Give me one reason to stay' she said.
'What do you want me to say? I'd do anything' I said. 'But please, don't leave'.
Summer looked at Zack, Rian and Jack.
'Please don't go Sum...' Zack started. 'You and Alex will figure this out, and until then or if not, we'll still be there for you. At least I'll be.'
Zack looked like a lost puppy. He was so happy when Summer agreed to come with us on tour. He saw her way too little, and I knew that even though Summer broke his heart he still didn't want her to leave.
'Yeah Summer, we don't want you to leave either' Jack said. 'Just because Alex is being a jerk doesn't mean we have to pay for it'
'Well, thanks a lot, Jack' I said.
'Look man, you're my best friend, but you can't deny that you handled this all wrong' Jack said.
'I know, and I don't! I just want to know how to make it right' I said desperately. I felt like my eyes started to tear up, and I could tell Summer noticed it too.
'Alex, please don't cry' she said. Her voice sounded more friendly then it did before. 'You know that it will make me stay, but that just isn't the right thing to do for me right now. For now, I feel like we have to go separate ways, and who knows, maybe our ways will cross again.'
I looked at her shocked. Was this a goodbye? Was she planning on leaving for good?
'Are you saying you're leaving for good?' I asked her.
'Right now, I don't know. I just know that I can't take this anymore' she replied vaguely.
She then turned around and started walking towards the bus. I didn't know if I had to follow her.
'Why do I feel like she just broke up with me?' I asked Zack, Rian and Jack.
'I think you feel much worse than that' Zack replied. 'Your best friend just told you that she thinks you should go separate ways. That hurts a lot more than being dumped.'
I could tell by his face that he felt just as bad as I did. Although I still thought it felt like she just broke up with me. I had felt that way so many times I lost count. I then decided to follow Summer. I had to do whatever it took to convince her to stay. I walked past Jack, and then started running. I jumped into the tour bus since the door was still opened.
'Summer, please don't do this' I yelled as I entered the bus. 'You may feel like I don't right now, but I really do need you in my life.'
I walked up to Summer who was packing her bags. She stopped packing and stood right. She looked at me.
'All I need is one reason to stay, Alex' she said.
I could tell by the look in her eyes that she didn't want to leave, but felt like she had to. I looked in her eyes.
'Because... I love you' I said.
I had told her that I loved her so many times, but we both felt it was different this time.
'You love...' she started talking, but I couldn't let her finish her sentence. I pressed my lips on hers. I didn't know why, but it just felt right. I was praying Zack wouldn't enter the bus right now, and I had no idea what was gonna happen if he did, or after this kiss at all, but right now, it seemed like the right thing to do. The kiss seemed to last like hours, but after a few minutes, I stepped back. We looked at each other.
'What was that?' Summer asked me.
I couldn't tell what she was thinking right now, but she did kiss me back...
'A kiss' I said. I wasn't even being a smart ass, it was just the only thing I could say.
'After all this time?' Summer asked me.
She had been in love with me for a long time after high school, while I was just messing around with girls. She told me about this when she had finally found a nice boyfriend and after we had just released So Wrong It's Right. I told her I wasn't in love with her back then, to make sure that she wouldn't break up with that guy for me. He was better for her. He could give her what she deserved. I was always on tour. I couldn't be there for her. He ended up breaking her heart anyway, but still, my intentions were good. My feelings for her never changed though. I now still thought Zack was better for her though.
I nodded. 'Always. I lied to you back then, Summer' I said. 'I was in love with you, but I didn't feel like I could give you what you deserved'.
'What makes you think you can now?' she asked me softly.
'I don't. All I know is that I don't want to lose you' I whispered.
'Look, I know I should be jumping into your arms right now or something, but we can't just get together like this, even though I'm still in love with you' she said. 'Zack is one of my best friends and you and I both know how much us being together would hurt him...'
I nodded. 'I know... Maybe we should just talk about it with him' I said. 'But you would want to be with me?'
'I don't know Alex, I need to think this over' she replied.
'Are you still leaving?' I asked her.
She shrugged. 'I don't know. Look, I'll stay here tonight and we'll figure this out tomorrow, okay?' she suggested.
I nodded. 'Okay'
She then lend over to me and kissed my lips quickly. 'I love you too' she whispered.
We then heard the door open, and Summer stepped back. I turned around, and saw Jack, Zack and Rian enter.
'Summer is staying tonight, and we'll talk tomorrow' I told them. That was all they needed to know right now.
'Thank god' Jack said.
They all walked towards us.
'Group hug!' Jack yelled, pulling us all into a group hug.
I looked at Zack. Kissing Summer suddenly felt so wrong when I saw the relief on his face when he heard she was staying. How was I going to tell one of my best friends that I was in love with the same girl he had been in love with for years? How was I going to tell him that she chose me over him? How could I do this to one of my best friends? I really was a crappy friend, I thought.
Jack then let go of us.
'We should go to bed' Rian said. 'It's getting late'
We all agreed and we quickly went to bed. I couldn't sleep though.

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