Nothing was said for a few minutes while they both tried to take in what they were seeing and what I had just done. Alex was the first one to speak,

“Why the fuck did you bring him here Charlie?”

“I thought that you two needed to have a chat. So, because you two wouldn’t talk to each other at school I decided to make you talk to each other here” I stared at Alex who looked like he was getting really irritated. Then Jack spoke,

“I don’t think that this was a good idea Charlie, he won’t talk to me. So just leave it, I’ll go” He turned round to walk out of the room. I quickly jumped ahead of him and stood in front of the door.

“No. I refuse to let either one of you two out of this room until you have kissed and made up” Alex got up and sat on my bed and Jack went and sat cross legged on the floor nearby to him while I just stood, leaning against the door.

“I don’t know what to say” Jack said as he looked at the floor awkwardly

“What can you say? You kissed my girlfriend Jack!” Alex was nearly shouting.

“I know Alex I know, and I understand why you’re mad at me...but I guess I just have feelings for her”

“Mad at you? I’m fucking furious. You know she doesn’t like you like that back so I don’t understand why
you did it!?”

“It just happened. I guess I just wanted to see if she felt the same way, if there was a spark or something. I’m sorry.”

“There are other ways of finding out whether someone likes you, like for example, SEE IF THEY’RE IN A HAPPY FUCKING RELATIONSHIP and you already knew that we were going out. That was the whole reason she came to your house to talk to you” Alex jumped off of my bed and was staring down at Jack.

“Alex I know I shouldn’t have done it” Jack slowly got up. I felt like I was going to throw up with nervousness so I went and sat down in the corner of my room and carried on watching them.

“Too right you do! I mean what the fuck were you thinking Jack?”

“I guess I wasn’t thinking, was I?” Alex just stood thoughtful for a while. I just sat watching, hoping that the argument would end soon.

“Obviously not. Jack, I thought we were best friends...” Jack started to look hurt

“We are, aren’t we?” Alex shook his head

“Would a best friend try and make out with their best friends girlfriend? I don’t think so”

“Alex, c’mon...”

“No Jack you c’mon. I thought you were my best friend and you wouldn’t do something like this to me clearly I was completely wrong.” Jack stared at the ground looking as if he was about to burst into tears.

“I...I...Don’t know what to say to make you believe that I’m really sorry” Alex sat back down on the bed

“There’s not much you can say, is there?”

I couldn’t handle it so I just got up and went out of the room slamming the door shut behind me. Tears started streaming down my face. What the fuck have I done? I’ve ruined a perfect friendship between two amazing guys. What is wrong with me? I slowly slipped downwards until I was sitting leaning up against my bedroom door and buried my head in my hands. Then I heard them talking to each other,

“Now look what you’ve done” I heard Jack mumble quietly

“What I’ve done you’re the one that started this whole mess, if you hadn’t of kissed her none of this would be happening!”

“Yeah and if you would accept my apology then this would be over and done with! I promise I will not try anything again”

“And what if you break that promise eh? Am I supposed to just ignore it and carry on like you’re telling me to do now?” There was a muffle and then Alex carried on “Jack, I love this girl she’s the best thing that has ever happened to me and I don’t want to lose her especially not over some stupid, stupid kiss that should never have happened.”

“You won’t lose her, I can tell she loves you a lot otherwise she wouldn’t have tried to get us to be friends again”

“Yeah well you kissing her could make her think twice about staying with me. For all I know she could want to be with you right now but she just wants to keep me happy. How do you think that makes me feel?”

“Why don’t you talk to her Alex? That way you’d know the truth and this whole mess that I’ve created can be cleared up.”

“I guess”

I just sat there and cried throughout the whole time they were talking. I loved them both but I only love Jack as a friend I don’t understand why Alex would think that I liked anyone else. I slowly got up and steadied myself. I could feel my eyes throbbing with the amount of crying I had done. I wiped them and opened the door. Both Alex and Jack were sitting on my bed talking but when I came in they both looked up and their facial expression told me that I must have looked horrifying. Alex came running over to me and gave me a hug which just started me off crying again as I hugged him back tighter,

“You know I love you Alex, I would never want anyone else” I said through sobs. Alex just kissed the top of my head and took a step backward

“But how do you know that?” I looked puzzled

“What do you mean?”

“How do you know that you don’t like anyone else? You didn’t feel anything with Jack, at all?” He was looking dead into my eyes which made me doubt what I was saying. I glanced over to Jack who was just sitting on my bed staring at Alex and me.

“Of course I love you Alex, I mean I don’t know if I felt anything with Jack but I feel a lot more, and I mean a lot more, with you” Fuck. I probably shouldn’t have said that.

“Wait, so you did feel something with Jack?” Alex had completely let go of me and was just staring at me in shock.

“No” I took and unsteady breath “Alex I love you and no-one else, okay?” I stared at him trying to make him understand but he just looked away “Alex?”

“What?”

“You don’t believe me do you?”

“How can I? How do I even know if it was only a kiss and you two didn’t do more together?”

“Because I love you and I have already told you that that’s all we did and that even with that kiss I didn’t even kiss him back. It was an empty, meaningless kiss.” I saw Jack get upset by what I said but I couldn’t lie to them.

“Yeah, that kiss is changing our whole relationship” I forgot how to breathe and just stood there, shaking.

“What do you mean changing?”

“I just don’t know about us anymore” I began to shake even more and I felt light headed as I collapsed to the floor. As I fell I heard both Alex and Jack scream my name and run over to me.

When I opened my eyes I noticed that I wasn’t in my room anymore. In fact, I wasn’t even in my house. I looked around and suddenly realised that I was in Alex’s bed in Alex’s bedroom. I sat up and tried to contain myself. I then got out of Alex’s bed and walked down the stairs and into the front room.

Alex, Jack, Isobel and Peter were all sitting on the sofas watching tv. As I entered the room they all turned round Isobel got up and walked over to me with Alex and Jack following close behind,

“Are you okay Charlie?” She asked

“Yeah I don’t have a clue about what just happened but I’m okay, how long was I out for?”

“About three hours” She said worryingly

“Oh god, I’m sorry” I felt so guilty she didn’t need me to be a burden to them.

“Don’t be sorry we’re all just glad that you’re okay anyway do you want a coffee?” She asked

“Ummm yeah sure, thank you” I smiled at her as she walked round into the kitchen then Alex walked over to me and said,

“Hey, are you sure you’re okay?”

“I’ll be fine, I just need a coffee and a sit down, are we okay?” He looked at the floor then “I take that as a
no...I guess we’ll talk about it later” Alex just nodded

“Hey you two, I need to go my mum’s wondering where the hell I am so I’ll talk to you tomorrow or something.” Alex just agreed and Jack danced out of the door.

“So you two are talking now or?” I asked when the door had shut behind Jack.

“Yeah we’re getting along better now I guess, thank you”

“Don’t thank me I was the one who created that mess and the mess that we’re in now” Alex just stared at me

“You didn’t create the mess between Jack and I me and him alone did that, you just helped up get back on track. It’s just us we need to sort out now” Then Isobel coughed from behind me and I turned round and saw her with a coffee mug in her hand.

“Thank you, you’re too nice to me” I said as I took the mug from her.

“You’re too lovely not to be nice too” She said as she walked away to go and sit down with Peter. Alex and I both walked up to Alex’s room to talk about things.

When we got into his bedroom I could see it more clearly and I noticed a blow up bed in the corner and a load of bedding with it.

“So...” I said as I sat down next to him on his bed.

“Yeah...Charlie, are you sure that you don’t have any feeling for Jack whatsoever?”

“Alex how many times do I need to tell you before you believe me? I love you and no-one else could ever change that I don’t understand why you’re so reluctant to believe me. Have you done anything...?” I started to worry then. Maybe he was just trying to cover up for something that he did himself.

“No, Charlie I haven’t even properly looked at another girl since I’ve been with you”

“Then why do you insist on believing that I’m falling in love with someone else?” I finished my coffee and put it down on his bed side table so I could sit cross legged facing him on his bed.

“Because, I don’t think that I’m good enough for you. I’m scared that one day you’ll just leave me for someone much better than me” I could see him getting really upset.

“Alex, look at me” We looked at each other dead in the eyes “I love you and no-one else I’m surprised that you’re even going out with me to be honest I’m nothing compared to you and losing you would be the worst possible thing that I think could happen to me. I know that sounded ridiculously cheesy but shush”

“I’m sorry” Alex closed his eyes and lent against my shoulder

“Don’t be sorry, we all have our insecurities” I ruffled his hair “Anyways it’s quite late and I don’t have anything to stay at yours. That’s if I’m still staying round yours?”

“Of course you can stay round mine” He said as he slowly started to get up.

He reached his hands out in front of him towards me so I grabbed them and hauled myself up and staggered into his arms. We stood hugging each other for a while until I ruined the mood by sneezing then made our way downstairs and told Alex’s parents we’d be back in a bit. Neither of us said a word to each other as we walked to Alex’s car. While Alex was driving I said,

“So what’s happening with you and Jack?” Alex quickly glanced over to me then replied

“We’re okayish now I think”

“Okayish?”

“Yeah, we aren’t perfect but we’ll get there. We just need to work on the whole trust thing” I nodded in agreement

“You don’t understand how sorry I am for separating you two”

“Charlie, you’re saying this as if we were going out to begin with” I just laughed

“You two had the closest friendship I have ever seen in two guys and I’ve seen a lot of close friendships,
trust me”

“We were pretty darn close I’ll give you that”

We arrived at my house and Alex shut off the engine. The house looked dark horrible and scary at night so Alex and I both walked towards it as if it was a scary house mansion at a fair ground. We walked down to my room and I handed Alex a huge bag to hold and started piling clothes into it. He then followed me to the bathroom while I continued to throw things that I needed into the bag. Once I thought I had everything we made our way to the front room to try and close the bag and make ourselves a coffee. Alex ended up sitting on the top of the bag to try and get it to zip up while I laughed at how stupid he looked. Once we had finished our coffee’s we made our way back to the car. I quickly glanced at the clock in the car and saw that it was half three already

“Shiiieeet that’s the time already?” I exclaimed

“Fuck errm we might be wanting to get back home and get some sleep at some point” Alex replied as we
drove back to his house.

When we got back into Alex’s house both of his parents had gone to bed and we could hear Peter snoring.

We laughed as Alex hauled my bag through the house and up to his bedroom.

“You didn’t need to do that”

“Do what?”

“Lug my bag in from the car”

“Yeah well you’re a girl so I was being a gentleman” I couldn’t do anything but laugh at that remark

“C’mon we best be getting to bed” I said as Alex started to dose off fully clothed on his bed.

“Yeah that might be a good idea” he muttered.

I took my bag and wondered to the bathroom to get changed. I got into black leggings and a tight fitting short sleeved purple top, brushed my teeth and the wandered back into Alex’s room. Alex was still fully clothed and laying in the same position on top of the covers exactly the same as when I had gone to get changed. I sighed and started to take his clothes off for him but then he half woke up and helped me. Once he was only wearing his boxers he got into his covers and started to fall asleep again so I quickly turned off the light and jumped into bed with him. I cuddled into his chest and heard him sigh in happiness while he drifted off to sleep.