Over the next few weeks Alex and I spent more and more time together. Even though we hadn’t really announced it everyone knew that we were a couple. I went to pretty much every band practice after school and on Saturdays we went to the mall to get a Starbucks and occasionally we’d have the money to go shopping. Then on Sundays we’d just stay at either one of our houses and watch films, bake cakes or go to the park to act like we were five again, whichever took our fancy.

There was only one thing bothering me. Jack seemed to become a lot more distant and talked to both me and Alex less. The only time we’d see him was at band practice or in school. In pe he just worked with other people and ignored me completely. This was starting to get to me. What had I done? The only thing that had changed was the fact that Alex and I were together, maybe that’s what‘s bothering him.

Today is Sunday and Alex had the flu so we couldn’t spend today together. I guessed it was quite nice to have the time to myself for once. Not in a bad way just I’d seen Alex pretty much every day for the past few weeks. It was nice to have break.

So, today I took the chance to confront Jack about what was bothering him and why he didn’t like me anymore. I had remembered where Jack lived from the first time I met him when Alex dropped him off at his house. I decided to drive to his and talk to him since over text I knew he’d either ignore me or pretend
everything is fine, in person he couldn’t do that.

Once I got to Jack’s house I waited in the car for ages thinking about what I was going to say. What if he wasn’t home and his mum answered? I guess I could wing it.

I slowly got out of my car and walked up to Jack house and knocked on the front door three times and Jacks mum opened the door,

“Hello” She said sweetly

“Hello, you must be Mrs Barakat?” I asked

“Yes I am and who are you?”

“Oh sorry, I’m Charlie, a friend of Jack’s, is he home?”

“Yeah he is, come in and sit down and I’ll go and get him.” She welcomed me into the house and said I should sit down on the sofa. I sat listening to Jacks mum walk up the stairs just staring at my hands, deep in thought.

I heard Jack’s mum knock rapidly on Jack’s door,

“Jack are you up?” she called

“Go away” he grumbled

“Jack, someone’s here to see you”

“Girl or boy?” I then chuckled ‘typical Jack’ I thought

“A girl, she seems keen to see you”

“Okay I’ll just get dressed gimmie ten minutes”

“Okay” then she started walking down the stairs again. Once she came into the front room and she turned to me and said,

“He’ll be down in a minute; in the meantime would you like a drink?”

“Umm...no thank you” I smiled at her.

“So what brings you here?” She asked at she sat down next to me.

“I just needed to ask him why he’s been ignoring me for a few weeks” Oops. I don’t think I should be telling
her about this, oh well I’ve started now.

“He’s been ignoring you?”

“Yeah ever since I started dating Alex”

“Alex is a lovely young boy” I laughed

“Yeah, he is” We both laughed then as Jack walked into the room. Jack’s mum got up and picked up her car key’s off of the coffee table.

“I’ll go out and leave you two to talk” was the last thing she said before shutting the door behind her. Jack just walked over to the sofa and sat next to me. We were silent for ages.

I was the first one to speak,

“Jack, what have I done wrong?”

“You’ve done nothing wrong” He said as he pulled his knees up to his chest and rested his head on them.

“Well I obviously have, you’ve been ignoring me for weeks now, ever since-”

“Yeah” he paused “ever since you and Alex started going out” We both looked at the floor awkwardly.

“Look Jack I’m sorry I have feelings for him and not you” Jack looked like he was about to cry “I don’t know what I can do to make you talk to both me and Alex again” He just shrugged his shoulders and continued to look at the floor. I leaned over and hugged him. I felt terrible. He lent into the hug and we just sat there.
Jack was quite comfortable to lean on and as I realised this for reasons I cannot explain while I was hugging him I fell asleep. Not just asleep but you’re-never-going-to-wake-me sleep.

I woke up to the kettle boiling in the kitchen. Jack was in the kitchen making himself a coffee. I got up and stretched my limbs since sofas aren’t the best things to sleep on.

“Your awake!” Jack exclaimed, he seemed really happy.

“Yeah” I was still half awake, half asleep “sorry about that” He walked over to me

“Don’t be sorry you looked tired so I just left you there”

“Thanks, I am and have been for days”

“Why’s that” Jack started to look concerned

“I’ve just been spending so much time with Alex and talking to him that I haven’t got much sleep, that’s all”

Jack then put his coffee down on the coffee table and gave me a hug

“Well at least now you’ve had a nap”

“That’s true” I said still cuddling him “How long was I asleep anyway?” I said as I got my phone out of my pocket”

“Urrm about four hours” He said as he sat down, coffee in hand. I sat next to him and saw that I had two missed calls and three messages. One missed call and one text from my mum and one missed call and two texts from Alex. I sighed as I looked through the texts,

Hey Charlie I’m feeling a bit better did you want to come round, we could watch a film if you want to?

Then two hours later

Charlie, what’s happened are you okay? Why didn’t you reply?

They were both from Alex. I then checked the text from my mum,

Hi, Alex is here and he’s wondering where you are he said you’re not retuning his texts and you didn’t answer his phone call. Are you okay?

“Shit.” I said

“What’s happened?” Jack looked confused

“Alex and my mum have been looking for me for three hours” I said as I started getting up, “I’m sorry Jack I have to go and let them know I’m okay” Jack grabbed my hand and pulled himself up off of the sofa. He
stared into my eyes and said,

“I’ll see you tomorrow then” I just stared back. Then he kissed me. Not like an ‘oops my bad’ kiss it was a ‘wow I want you kiss’. Once the kiss was over I stood there in shock for half a minute and then said,

“I guess I better go” and hurried out of the door.

What the fuck was that? I said to myself as I walked to my car. Why did he kiss me? Why did I just stand there? Why didn’t I try and stop him? I love Alex, I didn’t kiss Jack back but I didn’t stop his either. Is that just as bad?

While I was driving home I felt worse and worse about what had happened so to take my mind off things I turned up my Blink 182 cd that was playing quietly in my car. When I got home I saw Alex’s car parked outside my house. I quickly cut the engine, locked the car and hurried into the house.

Alex was sitting on the sofa. When I burst through the door he jumped up and ran up to hug me,

“Where the hell have you been Charlie!?” He said holding my head in his hands. My mouth went dry.

“I just went to Jacks to talk to him about why he’s been ignoring us” I managed to choke out. Alex stared at me for a while.

“But you didn’t return my text’s or my call” I could see the hurt in his eyes

“I fell asleep on the sofa by accident. I was just so tired and the sofa was really comfy and I’m really sorry”

I blurted out. Alex pulled me in for a tight hug. I fought back tears. I felt so bad about everything. I didn’t know what I was doing anymore.

“Charlie it’s fine I’m not going to have a go at you because you fell asleep” He chuckled slightly

“I know I just feel bad. I guess I should have told you I was going to see him” I tried to smile. Alex then took a step back and took my hand.

“I have a plan to make you have fun tonight” He said

“What do you mean?” I stood there confused

“It means that we’re going to go out to a house party tonight” I grinned. I had been to house parties before but I was never really involved in anyway and the last one I went to I got drunk and passed out in the bath.

“Who’s house is it at?” I asked while pulling Alex closer to me.

“Mine, my parents have gone away for the night to go and see some show. I’m not really sure, I wasn’t paying attention” I laughed

“Fair enough”

I said bye to my mum and Alex pulled me out the house and into his car. It was half term so we didn’t have school the next day which was a huge relief. On the way to Alex’s house I kept my hand on his thigh. He just smiled and continued to drive. When we got to his house we saw that a few cars had already parked up. We walked in and saw Zack, Rian and matt all standing in the kitchen with beers in hand. Alex grabbed both me and him one from the fridge and we sat down on the sofa together.

While we laid there the three boys came over and started talking to Alex. This gave me some time to think. What if Jack were to come? Would I tell Alex what happened? How would he react? I shook all of these thoughts away as more and more people started coming into the house. The only thing on my mind once it his nine o’clock was ‘I need to get drunk’.

I spent the whole night walking round with Alex on my arm. He was only drinking beer and was only planning on drinking a few since he wanted to look after me when I was in my drunk state. By the time I was unable to walk without my legs buckling underneath me Alex was carrying me around like he would a child.

“Can I tell you something but you can’t tell Alex because I don’t know how he’ll react” I said looking Alex in the face

“Of course you can” He replied with a sigh

“Well today at Jacks house when I went and saw him about why he’s been ignoring e and Alex he kissed me” Alex just froze in the middle of the kitchen and placed me on the counter.

“What?”

“Oh don’t worry, I didn’t kiss him back, I just ran out the house” Alex had pain on his face I could see it etched on his skin. Then it quickly faded away and he turned to me

“You really did that, I mean you didn’t kiss him back” Alex said holding my hands

“No I didn’t because I love Alex”

“I am Alex silly” He said as he gave me a hug

“I totally knew that” I said clutching onto his hug

“I Love you Alex, I really do” I said nearly crying

“I know you do baby” He said clutching me tighter. I pressed my body as close to him as I could. I started kissing his neck all the way up to his lips. Then I stared into his eyes and he stared back at me.

Suddenly I was being lifted into the air. Alex took me swiftly through the corridors and up the stairs and into his bedroom where he placed me on the bed. He started kissing me roughly and passionately. I grabbed his hair and pulled as close to him as I could get. We started getting out of breath pretty quickly. Alex started to take his clothes off. First his shirt then his trousers while at the same time he was taking off mine.

I woke up the next morning completely naked with Alex hugging me tightly. I quickly tried to remember what had happened last night. Everything slowly started coming to me. I had told Alex about what happened between Jack and I and I had also ended up sleeping with him. The first guy I have ever slept with and I couldn’t think of a more perfect person.

I looked up at his face while he slept. His brown hair was covering his face so I reached up to move it out
the way but as I did Alex pulled me in tighter so that I couldn’t escape. He was doing this subconsciously. So I just let him off and relaxed back into the perfect position in his arms.

I laid in bed for about half an hour before Alex woke up,

“Morning you” I said quite cheerily

“Morning beautiful” He said in his husky morning voice.

“Sleep well?” I smiled as I said this and he just looked and me and chuckled slightly

“Sleep well? It was fantastic” I stretched up and kissed him.

We laid there for another ten minutes before hearing Alex’s parents keys turn in the lock. We heard them announce that they were home before one of them started to make their way upstairs. Then they knocked on the door.

“Alex, it’s your mum”

“Yeeeees” He replied

“Can I come in and talk to you?” Alex and I both looked at each other.

“Mum, Charlie’s in here with me” He said hoping she’d take the hint.

“Oh right, yeah, okay then” She said quickly “I’ll just wait until you’re up properly then talk to you”

“Okay mum” Alex said with a sigh of relief.

“That was close” I said staring up at him.

“Yuhuh” he replied and he kissed the top of my head and then jumped out of bed and starting throwing on
some clothes. That’s when I realised something,

“Alex, I don’t have any clothes with me” I sat up on the bed

“That’s cool you can just wear one of my tops and a pair of my women’s skinny jeans” I laughed as he threw me a blank polo shirt and a pair of black skinny jeans. I threw them on and collected my clothes off of the floor and put them in a carrier bag.

Both Alex and I then made out way slowly down the stairs. Both of his parents were standing at the bottom of the stairs looking rather sternly at us,

“Hey mum, hey dad” Alex said as we reached the bottom of the stairs.

“Morning Alex” Peter said

“Care to explain what has happened to the house?” Isobel looked rather upset and annoyed at the same time.

“I threw a little party, I was gunna clean it up today” Alex said while scanning the room and staring in shock at how much rubbish and beer cans were thrown everywhere. We both sighed as Alex’s parents let us walk past them and handed us black sacks to chuck everything away in. We knew this would take a long time.

But while we were doing this I couldn't help but think about what Alex was going to say to Jack next time he saw him.