Rian St. Dawson
Ch.4: Numb
Rian's POV:
I walk into the apartment that all of us share here in Towson, everyone was watching TV, eating, doing what ever to get their minds off what happened earlier in the day. I still felt numb. My mind and my body.
"Rian!," someone yells and runs up to me. "Its 3am Rian! Where were you!?," it was Jack and he was standing in front of me. "Did you go out drinking!?" "He doesn't smell like he was though," I hear Alex speak up. "Where were you Rian!? We been worried sick!" I slowly look at everyone, I must of looked terrible.
"I'm... I'm just gonna go to bed," I mumble. They let me by and I go to my room. I close the door and lay down on my bed, staring at the ceiling.
"Cassadee, how is this possible?" I stare at her in disbelief, I didn't want to believe it, but I do at the same time. She looked so real. but her touch wasn't.
"Remember how we had our first kiss here?" I smile at the thought, I wanted to freak her out a bit, and kissed her to help her feel more safe, our first kiss. "Its why I'm here. The place where we first started to love each other. Here, we can be with each other." "Can anyone else see you?" "Only if I show myself to them. But your the only person I want to show myself to."
I smile at her and she touches my cheek, it was warm air, but I felt happiness fill inside me. I look at her hand and see the proposal ring, "I still love you Rian, I always will." "I love you to Cassadee."
I stayed there for hours, talking to her in that room. It was where I first kissed her. That place was special to us. Now I understand why her spirit went there.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath. Should I tell the guys? Or keep it to myself? She said she'll only show herself to me, so I'll look and sound crazy if I bring them there. Also, she never mentioned if I could bring them there.
I still felt numb though. I can no longer hold her in my arms. Feel her skin against mine. Her lips against mine. But I can hear her. See her. And if I tried hard enough, I can smell her.
I walk into the apartment that all of us share here in Towson, everyone was watching TV, eating, doing what ever to get their minds off what happened earlier in the day. I still felt numb. My mind and my body.
"Rian!," someone yells and runs up to me. "Its 3am Rian! Where were you!?," it was Jack and he was standing in front of me. "Did you go out drinking!?" "He doesn't smell like he was though," I hear Alex speak up. "Where were you Rian!? We been worried sick!" I slowly look at everyone, I must of looked terrible.
"I'm... I'm just gonna go to bed," I mumble. They let me by and I go to my room. I close the door and lay down on my bed, staring at the ceiling.
"Cassadee, how is this possible?" I stare at her in disbelief, I didn't want to believe it, but I do at the same time. She looked so real. but her touch wasn't.
"Remember how we had our first kiss here?" I smile at the thought, I wanted to freak her out a bit, and kissed her to help her feel more safe, our first kiss. "Its why I'm here. The place where we first started to love each other. Here, we can be with each other." "Can anyone else see you?" "Only if I show myself to them. But your the only person I want to show myself to."
I smile at her and she touches my cheek, it was warm air, but I felt happiness fill inside me. I look at her hand and see the proposal ring, "I still love you Rian, I always will." "I love you to Cassadee."
I stayed there for hours, talking to her in that room. It was where I first kissed her. That place was special to us. Now I understand why her spirit went there.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath. Should I tell the guys? Or keep it to myself? She said she'll only show herself to me, so I'll look and sound crazy if I bring them there. Also, she never mentioned if I could bring them there.
I still felt numb though. I can no longer hold her in my arms. Feel her skin against mine. Her lips against mine. But I can hear her. See her. And if I tried hard enough, I can smell her.
2/21/13