I'll Be Your Therapy
Shut up and Listen
*Back on the bus*
Kara
How am I going to tell Alex about the baby? I'm freaking out. Alex is the first guy I've been with since Jordan, and I just don't know. I really loved Jordan, we were so close and I just can't even deal with it. Alex also doesn't know everything about me but we're still in love. I need to tell him everything. I can't have the relationship I had before. I was lied to and cheated. Everything has to come out. Fuck. How the hell am I supposed to do this?! I don't even want to know that it happened let alone have to tell other people. Hell other people, they weren't Alex. It was so easy to tell Alex everything but so hard at the same time. Telling him the truth, could mean I risk losing him. This is really going to be hard. What am I going to do?! I'm going to tell him but how. I just have to tell him everything. Okay. I sighed, all frustrated when Alex walked in. "What's wrong boo?" He asked. I just sighed and layed down. He held my hand. "What the fuck are these?!" He asked looking incredibly worried at my wrists. "Oh. Theyre nothing." I said trying to hide my wrists. He grabbed my arm and kissed every single scar. "They're not nothing. Baby, you're perfect, you're beautiful, and I love you no matter what." I smiled. "No matter what?" I questioned, I knew now was the time I had to tell him. He nodded and kissed my forehead. "I need to talk to you. It's important." Alex sat next to me and intently looked into my eyes worried. "You know how we're together." Alex nodded. "That's not going to change is it?" He asked looking sad. "I hope not, that depends on you. When we were first together, that first night we..." I looked down and blushed. He put his thumb and first finger on my chin and lifted my lips to his. "I remember." He smiled. "Well, something happened. Something that can be bad for us and good for us." I looked down. Why was this so hard to say? "What happened?" Alex asked. He seemed so worried. "I really am trying to tell you I'm just so scared." I said, I started to cry. "Please don't cry, and please don't be scared. Baby I love you no matter what." I smiled. I was still crying, but I smiled. "You're, going to see a little person that is similar to me and similar to you in about nine months." Alex looked confused. "What? Similar to me and similar to you? Baby I don't get it." I rolled my eyes. "Alexander WIlliam Gaskarth.--" he cut me off before I could finish. "It's so hot when you say my full name." I smiled and kissed his cheek. "Shut the fuck up. And let me finish," I poked him playfully, " You're going to be a daddy." I looked up from the ground to see his reaction.
Kara
How am I going to tell Alex about the baby? I'm freaking out. Alex is the first guy I've been with since Jordan, and I just don't know. I really loved Jordan, we were so close and I just can't even deal with it. Alex also doesn't know everything about me but we're still in love. I need to tell him everything. I can't have the relationship I had before. I was lied to and cheated. Everything has to come out. Fuck. How the hell am I supposed to do this?! I don't even want to know that it happened let alone have to tell other people. Hell other people, they weren't Alex. It was so easy to tell Alex everything but so hard at the same time. Telling him the truth, could mean I risk losing him. This is really going to be hard. What am I going to do?! I'm going to tell him but how. I just have to tell him everything. Okay. I sighed, all frustrated when Alex walked in. "What's wrong boo?" He asked. I just sighed and layed down. He held my hand. "What the fuck are these?!" He asked looking incredibly worried at my wrists. "Oh. Theyre nothing." I said trying to hide my wrists. He grabbed my arm and kissed every single scar. "They're not nothing. Baby, you're perfect, you're beautiful, and I love you no matter what." I smiled. "No matter what?" I questioned, I knew now was the time I had to tell him. He nodded and kissed my forehead. "I need to talk to you. It's important." Alex sat next to me and intently looked into my eyes worried. "You know how we're together." Alex nodded. "That's not going to change is it?" He asked looking sad. "I hope not, that depends on you. When we were first together, that first night we..." I looked down and blushed. He put his thumb and first finger on my chin and lifted my lips to his. "I remember." He smiled. "Well, something happened. Something that can be bad for us and good for us." I looked down. Why was this so hard to say? "What happened?" Alex asked. He seemed so worried. "I really am trying to tell you I'm just so scared." I said, I started to cry. "Please don't cry, and please don't be scared. Baby I love you no matter what." I smiled. I was still crying, but I smiled. "You're, going to see a little person that is similar to me and similar to you in about nine months." Alex looked confused. "What? Similar to me and similar to you? Baby I don't get it." I rolled my eyes. "Alexander WIlliam Gaskarth.--" he cut me off before I could finish. "It's so hot when you say my full name." I smiled and kissed his cheek. "Shut the fuck up. And let me finish," I poked him playfully, " You're going to be a daddy." I looked up from the ground to see his reaction.
aw thank you <3
2/27/13