Sit Back, Gotta Catch My Breath

"Are you sure about this, Alex? Because, I mean, you could always change your mind."
"It's not like I really have a choice. It's just kinda programed into my brain. There isn't anything I can do about it. I'm sorry, Mum."
She sighed. "So this is it, then? I won't get grandchildren?"
I placed a hand on her shoulder. "No, you could still get grandchildren. They just won't be related to you by blood. Just like Jack explained last night."
My mum has been out of the hospital for about a week, now, and last night, we had a family + Jack meeting to discuss my sexual orienation. She's been having kind of a tough time accepting the fact that her only remaining son was gay. She just didn't want to believe it. She's been asking me periodically all day whether or not I was sure about this or if this was just a phase. I figured this would happen. We just had to be patient with her.
But tonight was Jack and I's first official date, and I wasn't about to let my mum's stubborness ruin my good mood. So, I quickly turned away from her and ran back upstairs and to my room to finish getting ready. Jack wouldn't tell me where we were going, but he said to dress casual. So, I was wearing a pair of ripped up black skinnies, a grey Green Day shirt, my grey Dunks, and a black beanie.
I stared at my reflection for about five minutes, making sure every little hair was in place. I don't know why I was stressing this so much. I mean, Jack and I have been dating for seven months, now. And yet, he still gives me butterflies whenever he looks at me and I try my damnedest to look my best for him.
I sighed and put on my jacket before heading back downstairs to find Jack standing in the middle of the living room awkwardly. He smiled when he saw me and crossed the room and held out his arms. I accepted the invitation and hugged him tight. He kissed the top of my head lightly before pulling away from me. We both looked over at my mum who had a scowl on her face. Okay, maybe PDA wasn't a good idea to do around her just yet.
"Isobelle, if you don't mind, could you not say a word about this to my dad?" Jack asked with a hint of pleading in his voice, which I found totally justified. If my dad was like Jack's dad, I wouldn't want him to know, either.
Mum nodded before turning on her heel and going upstairs to her bedroom.
When she was out of sight, I turned to Jack to ask him where he was taking me tonight, but was interrupted by his lips smashing into mine. I kissed him back before he pulled away smiling.
I smiled back at him. "What?"
He chuckled and gave me another quick kiss. "Just admiring how good you look in those jeans."
I felt my cheeks warm up and looked down at me shoes. "Oh..." I looked back up at him, stil smiling. "So, where are you taking me?"
He wrapped an arm around my shoulders and we walked out into the chilly March air. "Well," he said as we got into the car, "I was thinking maybe dinner, and then we could go check out this new club that opened downtown."
I looked over at him as he started the car. "A club?"
He shrugged. "Juliet told me about it. Said it's a pretty cool place."
I looked down at my lap. "I-I don't know, Jack. I don't do very well in situations like that. I don't really fit in."
"It's not a normal club, though. It's a pretty chill place. There's a little bit of dancing, but really it's just a bunch of people sitting around and drinking and hanging out."
"Drinking? Since when do either of us drink?"
He shrugged. "Well, if you don't wanna go, we can go somewhere else."
"Okay. Where else do you have in mind?"
He glanced over at me, and then back at the road. "I don't know. Maybe we could walk around the mall for a little bit. It doesn't close until eleven tonight since it's a Saturday."
I nodded. "I like the sound of that a lot better than going to a club."
He chuckled. "I thought you would say that. It was just an idea."

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"Please try these on, Jacky," I pleaded again, holding the skinnies out to him.
He chuckled and took the jeans from me. "Why do you want me to try these on so bad?"
I shoved my hands into my pockets and looked down at my shoes, a blush forming on my cheeks. "...Because they look tight.."
I heard him chuckle again. "Alright, alright. I'll try them on. Just for you."
I smiled and watched him as he entered the dressing room. When he came back out, I just wanted to jump him right in the middle of the store. Holy fuck, he looked good. The jeans hugged him perfectly in all the right places. When he did a little spin so I could see a whole 360, I whistles. "Damn. Those jeans make your ass look good."
His jaw dropped. "Alexander William Gaskarth, you never say anything like that. What has gotten into you young man?"
I laughed. "Young man? I'm older than you!"
He shrugged. "Whatever. So, should I get them?"
He did another spin and I nodded. "Definitely."
He smiled and returned to the dressing room to change back into his other jeans. A few minutes later, he came back out with the magical jeans in his hands. "Shall we continue shopping?"
I nodded and held my hand out for him to take. "Of course. We could find more tight jeans for you."
He chuckled and took my hand. "You should get some jeans, too, so we can both be sexy bitches."
We went from store to store gathering up jeans for both of us, along with some new band t-shirts from Hot Topic. We left the mall at about 10:30 and headed back to the car. When we got in, Jack handed me a glass bottle. I looked at it and read it.
"Calvin Klein's Eternity for Men?" I looked at him with a questioning look. "What is this?"
He smiled as he turned on the car. "It's collogne. I bought it while you were in the bathroom. I thought it smelled really good, so I got it for you."
I took off the cap and smelled the collogne. Wow. It did smell good. Amazing, actually. Like, get-you-clothes-off-now kinda good. I put the cap back on it and put it in one of my shopping bags.
Jack drove me home and walked me up to the front door. I was about to go in the house before he stopped me. "What?"
He half-smiled at me. "What kinda date would this be if it didn't end with a goodnight kiss?" He pulled me closer to him and leaned down. I met him halfway and pressed my lips to his. He pulled away and smiled at me again. "Goodnight, Lex. I'll see you later." He kissed the top of my head. "I love you."
"I love you, too, Jacky. Goodnight."
I watched as he walked back down the steps and left in his car. Once his car was out of sight, I went inside the house. I kicked off my shoes and began walking down the hall to the stairs. I ran upstairs and straight to my room to set down my bags and change into my PJ's. I went back downstairs to the kitchen and drank a warm glass of milk before going to the bathroom and brushing my teeth and heading to bed.
I laid in my bed for about an hour just thinking about everything. Wondering how long it was going to take my mum to get used to me being gay. And wondering where this relationship was going to go in the future.

Notes

Sorry I haven't been posting near as much as I used to. I really am. But I'm posting as often as possible and writing chapters when I don't have internet.
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-Ryan