Chapter inspirations: The Other Side – Tonight Alive & Deathbeds – Bring Me the Horizon

The second she closed her door, Victoria looked up and saw all the guys pushing their bags in a big van. She started walking across the street, catching Jack’s eyes and causing him to run to her, pick her up and twirl her around. “God dammit, I’m gonna miss you, Hammy!”

She wriggled out of his hold and attempted her best laugh. “I’m gonna miss you too, Jack.”

The skunk-haired boy hooked his arm around her shoulder, chatting up about how beautiful California is and how she should visit sometime as they walked to the rest of the band. Victoria wanted to take up the offer, but all she did was nod, because she couldn’t visit them after this.

She saw Alex sprint out of his house from his parents with his bags as she said her goodbyes to Rian and Zack. As soon as he reached Victoria, he picked her up and kissed her lips with a smile, whispering, “Good morning, my beautiful girlfriend.”

He was only making this harder for her.

“Morning,” she said, giving him a small smile as he set her down. “Are you ready?”

“No,” he muttered, kissing her forehead. “Run away with me.”

She looked up at him with wide eyes. He was doing it again, but this time sober. “I can’t, Alex. You know I can’t.”

He closed his eyes and shook his head. “It was worth a shot.”

She needed to just say it. But where does one start? She just needed to― “I need to say something.” There. She said it. But how can she continue it?

He lifted his brow. “Just let me put my bags in the―”

“Alex,” she breathed out, closing her eyes and chewing on her bottom lip. “This is important.”

She led him a little over to the side, catching the boys’ confused faces. “What’s up, babe?” Alex asked, caressing his thumb over their entwined hands. He saw that she was fighting back a sob. “Are you okay?”

“Alex, we can’t continue this.”

She didn’t want to look at him, so she stared down at the ground while he looked at her puzzlingly. “What do you mean?”

“I meant what I said three months ago: you can’t continue a relationship over Skype and phone calls. It won’t work.”

“We can make it work, I swear.” She could hear the pressure in his voice.

“No, we can’t. You deserve someone who can be with you at all times.”

He released their hands. “You can visit, can’t you?! I meant what I said months ago too: I want us to last, Victoria.”

“You’re making this harder than it needs to be.” She finally looked up at him.

“Then don’t make it happen.” Did she spot a tear falling from his eye?

“You knew it was going to happen when you found out about Cali.” She whispered, running her thumb up and down his forearm. “I’m just sorry I let you get that tattoo before it did.”

He came up close to her, right up to her ear so she could feel his breath. “This isn’t a break up. I will come back, and when the time is right, the offer will always be on the table.”

She couldn’t help but blurt out, “Promise?” She was the one who needed to end this, and now she was turning her back on her decision. He really was worse than nicotine to her.

He nodded, bringing his lips to hers and molding them. He leaned away, pushing strands of hair from her wet eyes and kissing her nose. “Tides will bring me back to you …” He whispered.

Her eyes were closed as she nodded. She felt his body slip away from hers and she opened her eyes. The rest of the guys were already in the van, Matt smacking the car while yelling, “C’mon, Alex! We don’t have all day!”

Alex threw his bags in the trunk and opened the van’s door, looking back at her. “We’ll always have tomorrow, Hamilton.” He repeated the words from their first date and jumped in the car, actually making Victoria smile through her tears.

And as the van drove away, all one could hear were the repeated words of a lost lover: “Don’t flatter yourself, Gaskarth.”

Notes

This was kind of badly written because I knew what I wanted to say with this but I couldn't find all the right words..
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