My mind was racing a mile a minute, I wanted to say so much but nothing was coming out of my mouth. They all stood there silent, waiting for me to give an answer but I was offering none. My mouth ran dry and soon enough Alexs arm was slung around my shoulders pulling me into him. "It's okay Ashley you dont have to answer right away we can let it simmer over the pot a little bit." Alex gave me a reassuring squeeze, taking away some of the pressure for the moment.

The rest of the guys nodded in agreement with Alex, except for Jack who looked sad.

"But I want an answer now!" He complained stomping his feet, he looked to be around the age of five at the moment even though he was around the age of twenty three.

"I will give you an answer tomorrow morning how about that?" I nervously sweeping my foot back and forth on the wooden floor boards and to my surpirse they all chimed out an okay.

Feeling a rush of relief, a sense of peace came over me and I pulled all four of them into a group hug. "I know its only been a couple days but I consider you guys my bestfriends." I whispered into the hug.

"We love you, Ash" The boys all said in unison making my heart swell. I felt so close to these four adult sized children already, they just were everything I needed in my life. I guess you could say I put my faith in them to soon but I had a feeling this was going to stick.

Letting them go my eyes started to water and a couple tears escaped my eyes. "Whats wrong?" Zack came over and wiped the tears falling from my eyes. I looked up and smiled at him, my eyes looking at all them. "I dont need till tomorrow morning, I already made a decision." They huddled around me eagerness dripping from their eyes. All Time Low was amazing and I wanted to learn more about them. "What is it, what is your answer?" Rian asked me, you could tell what they all wanted me to do.

"Im coming with you guys!" I felt eight pairs of arms wrap around my waist all at once and suddenly my feet were no longer on the ground. "Lets celebrate!" Alex shouted, everyone let out a howl in agreement and we made our way out the venue doors onto the busy streets of Portland.

--- We had found a local bar, a neon sign flashed the words open and music was heard from the streets. It looked packed and I was starting to dread going out. I dont do good in situations like this mainly because I'm not as confident as some people.

Flashing my ID at the security guard I walked in only to be submerged into a sea of bodies, the smell of alcohol overtook my senses and the flashing lights blinded me for a moment. "Not used to the party scene?" Alex yelled into my ear, it was barely audible but it was loud enought for me to swallow and nod in reply. My feeling of calm was replaced by anxiety, my hands started to shake but soon they were occupied with a drink.

"Always does the trick" Alex smiled down at me and without a second thought I downed the drink he had given me. The alcohol burned my throat tasting like liquid fire. It seemed to explode once it hit my stomach, giving me a warm feeling.

"More" I wanted more, I wanted to forget about my anxiety for the night and just have fun.

Alex took me to the bar and asked me what I wanted. "Shots, give me ten shots" I told the bar tender, Alex gave me an nervous sideways glance. "Ten shots is a lot Ashley maybe you should take it slow." Ignoring his pleas to slow down I downed the shots as fast as I could.

"Alright if you're drinking that much so will I." Alex ordered ten shots for himself as well.

The room started to spin and my head slumped down onto the bar. A hand grabbed my shoulders and shook me violently. " Ashley? Ashey?" Alexs voice was slurred but laced with concern, he could barely talk with the amount of alcohol he consumed too.

"Im okay! Just give me a beer." My head shot up and I waved over the bartender and ordered a beer, filling my order he slid me a glass.

I twirled it in my hands a little before talking to Alex. "Why dont you go hang with the boys im sure theyre looking for you." I offered, he looked worried.

"But I need to stick with you so-" I smushed my finger to his lips to stop him from speaking anymore, I know he didnt want me to drink to much but truth be told both of us had had a lot to drink and I didnt want to hold him back from having a good time.

"Go" I said pushing he out of the chair and sending him away. He looked at me for a little bit before disappearing into the sea of people. I sat lonely for what seemed like forvever, just drinking the one beer I had ordered however long ago. Some say that getting drunk makes them happy and fun but obviously the alcohol had a negative affect on my mood.

In the corner of my eye I saw someone sit down in the Alex had occupied previously. In a male voice he ordered a drink.

"Ashley right?" The man asked me bringing my attention to him. He looked mighty familiar, his black hair was rugged and his brown eyes stared at me with recognition.

His pink shirt hung on him loosely, how did I know him? I racked my brain for an answer but from all the alcohol I coudnt seem to find one.

"Im johnny? from highschool?" He told me after I didnt answer, I suddenly remebered him bitter memories emerging from my mind.

"What do you want? Last I remember we didnt leave on good terms." I snarled at him, it didnt come out as angry as I had hoped due to the impairment of speech from the alcohol but I could still glare at him though and if looks could kill he would have dropped dead on the spot.

"I know but when I saw you here I wanted to apologize for all the bad things I had done to you, I was immature." sorrow glazed over his face and he out his hand on my thigh, inching up my dress a little bit. I shoved his hand away in disgust and moved one seat down. Not taking my clue he moved one seat closer and tried to reason with me some more.

"Come on Ash it was one night, it couldn't have been that bad. It was probably fun for you anyway." a smirk played on his lips as if he was congratulating himself. I don't know if it was the alcohol that convinced me to do it or my blinding rage but I wound my fist back and socked him in the face knocking him out of the chair and onto the ground.

"Was that fun for you? because that's how much fun I was having when you raped me!" I screamed at him dumping the remainder of my drink on him. I was about to kick him but I felt someone grab me and pull me away.

A bunch of guys must have heard what I yelled because three guys surrounded Johnny. "You raped this poor girl and you thought she had fun!" the tough looking bearded guy covered in tattoos asked Johnny, rage filled his voice. "She was drunk and I thought she was hot." Johnny admitted, I wanted the three guys to hurt him. "If she doesn't give you consent it's not fun." the other guy spat, the third guy punched Johnny in the face again and they walked away.

By now the security guards were next to me asking if I was okay. I told them the story and they went up to Johnny and asked him to leave. Johnny got up and, walking past me gave me a smirk and said, "remember sweetie, history repeats itself." chills went up my spine as those words escaped his mouth.

"Who is that faggot?" jack slurred trying to walk in a straight line but ended up having to be carried by Zack.

"Let me at him, Bunny! Let me at him!" Alex brought his fist up to his face and started punching the air before stopping to look at me.

"Hey guys let's go home bunny needs it" Alex pointed towards the door leaning on me.

"Bunny?" I scoffed trying to hold back the criticism "Because you're as cute as a bunny." Alex shook his arm at me and smiled wide exposing all his teeth. my cheeks turned a rosy pink and my eyes lit up. Alex could be so sweet at times. Even though he was drunk.

"Um, I think after this situation I'm sober enough to drive us home." I suggested taking the keys from Rian.

"I didn't drink anything tonight and last I checked you were slamming shots down like it was water." Zack stole the keys from my hand and after much protest I gave in and let him take us home. Damn merrick, never letting me do anything. He was like the father I never wanted.

I let out a yawn and my eyes became heavy wanting to sleep .On second thought, I would probably crash considering how tired I was.

We walked out me clutching onto Alex and Zack clutching onto Jack. Rian didn't drink as much so he was able to walk by himself. Zack spotted the sleek black car two blocks away from the bar and we all piled in. Zack and I in the front and Jack, Alex, and Rian in the back. Zack being the father figure made sure everyone was buckled in, he also had to put Rian in the middle because Jack and Alex were fighting over whose seat belt went into which buckle.

I liked Zack, he always seemed to care a lot for everyone. He was genuine and sweet. To bad he had to put up with those idiots. An idea popped into my head. "You guys can crash in my apartment if you don't want to drive back to the bus." I felt bad because the venue was half an hour from my house and that's where the bus was. I didn't want Zack driving home at 1 am in a car filled with drunken idiots. "Alright Ash thank you." Zack pulled onto the highway. I slumped back into my chair rubbing my temples trying to forget tonight's events. the last thing I remember is the boys singing 'he's a jolly good fellow' to Zack for getting them home safely. The words 'history repeats itself' circling in my head like a record. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A/n Sorry this is really really short, but I hoped you enjoyed it -Sam