She kissed me. She just fucking kissed me. My heart was beating out of control and my mind was in a fog that I couldn't find my way out of. Sober, in public, the way she felt in my arms was just so.. Right. The way she tasted on my lips, even when she pulled away, it just made me hungry for me. Even her nails barely touching my neck sent shivers down my spine. What had this girl done to me? I was under a spell, her spell.


And then she asked the one question that made my heart sink.


"Please tell me you remember this from last night."


"How the fuck could I forget?" I was fighting back my smile. She remembered, but if her memory was so sharp, why did I catch her in bed with Alex this morning? "I freaked out when I saw you with Alex last night and it was stupid. I'm sorry."


She didn't seem to know how to take my words. I could have been apologizing for the kiss, or for the way I reacted when Alex kissed her. Her body felt tense against my own, but now that I had her here, there was no way in Hell I was going to lose her. The heat of her body made me feel content. The entire world melted away and she was the only thing keeping me grounded.


"Jack, you have to believe me. Nothing happened with Alex last night. He came up to check on me and I told him everything.. He's the reason I'm here. He brought me to you."


"Go figure. I make a complete ass of myself and he finally comes through with the best friend card."


Ember shifted her weight, a tiny smile playing on her lips. The moment had gone from romantic to slightly awkward. We both knew there was little to no chance of anyone understanding our relationship. She was my sister, I was her brother, and yet I couldn't stop myself from feeling this way about her.


"What do we do now?"'


"I don't know," I sighed, allowing my fingers to squeeze her sides gently. "I didn't really think this through. I just like you. You get under my skin in the worst possible way, but I can't get enough of it."


"I have an idea," a voice came from behind my back which made me remember why I felt so guilty this morning to begin with. Admittedly, I was still uncomfortable having Alex around Ember because it was apparent that he liked her, too, but he did bring her to me. Still, I wrapped my arms tighter around her frame and rested my head on hers. "You two could stop with your sibling love long enough to decide if you really work in a relationship. I mean, you have to deal with kids at school and your parents. That won't be easy."


Alex Gaskarth - Moment ruiner. But he's right. Being with Ember was a big deal. Even being her friend was a big deal after everything we've been through. I don't know that either of us were ready to deal with the, 'you're fucking your sister/brother' jokes. The truth was, I just wanted to be around Ember. I wanted to kiss her when I felt like it, I wanted to curl up with her at night and I damn sure wanted everyone else to know that she was spoken for. Another incident like last night would send me over the edge.


"Maybe, for now, we should just... Be."


Ember and I needed to talk this out.. Alone. We could ease into this thing, but honestly, I don't know how long I'll be able to be around her and not want to be with her.

Notes

Confused feelings, say whaaat?