We're All Part Of The Same Sick Little Games
Prologue
The moans elicited by Alex on top of me drive me insane. I should say I’m enjoying this, I really do. But it’s wrong. 7 years of this, and we still haven’t learned our lesson.
Alex was close, his thrusts are getting sloppier and sloppier everytime. I could already feel the familiar sensation in the pit of my stomach. My moans and groans getting louder every second. Not once did Alex fail to find my prostate. He just knows where it is. First thrust in, and he hits it dead on. 7 years of this, he memorized my body, knows it more that I do, every soft spot, every sensation, everything. He just knows it’s there. He even finds places in my body, that makes me fall down on my knees, that I didn’t know exists, when he touches it. When he licks it.
I gasped as Alex grabbed hold of my member, pumping up and down slowly. Pushing mecloser and closer to the edge. Closer. I know I should be disgusted by what we’re doing. Not because we’re both male, no. People have overlooked the fact that homosexuality is a sin. Although some just couldn’t understand the concept of our love. No one could ever understand it. It’s not homosexuality. We’ve came out years ago, to all our fans, to our parents, relatives and band members and crew, friends. Well, at least I came out. Alex denies his sexuality. Says I’m just an exception.
One.
Two.
Three.
And I came, all over Alex’s hand, my stomach, his chest. Everywhere. Not long after Alex came inside me, screaming my name. If I haven’t had my orgasm yet, I would definitely be hard again. Alex’s angelic voice always sends me to an overflowing swirl of ecstasy. It sometimes keeps me sane. It sometimes drove me to the edge of my anger, his yells.
As we came down from our high, Alex pulled himself out of me. Dropping his body beside me, staring straight to my eyes. And I, to his’. Our breathings got slower, heart beats began to feel normal. My eyes are heavy from exhaustion. All the thought about this, our relationship, is bringing tears to my eyes. Stings like a syringe without anesthesia on my skin.
“Are you okay, Jack?” Came the voice I’ve been so used to since I began to appreciate the world. The voice that sings me to sleep when I had a nightmare when I was a kid. Alex. I turned to look at him, his eyes are heavy and I could sense drowsiness in it.
“Yeah, y’know. Just.. Just thinking.” I never trusted my voice in times like this. It’s husky and it cracked, confirming that I had been nervous the whole time.
“Jack, are you still doubting about this whole thing?” He snapped, back at me. I felt the rush of fear overtake my body. He leveled himself up so he was sitting down, looking straight to me. I could feel the tears threatening to fall. I had to fight back.
“This is wrong Alex. All wrong. I know we’ve been doing this for, as long as I can remember, but we both know it’s wrong. You know it. And you’re getting married Alex! For fuck’s sake!” I have had enough of this twisted and tangled relationship of ours. I couldn’t take it anymore if this if I’m only being used for sex. I needed more. I needed love. And I have been inlove with Alex for my whole life. More than I had ever expected. More than I should, and it’s wrong.
“Jack, you I love you. And we can keep this up as long as we can if you just hold on to it. Just hold on to me. I need you Jack. You’ve been with me my whole life. I can’t let you go. I will never let you go.” He started to cry, streams of tears falling from his eyes to his cheeks, to his chin. He lifted me up so I was sitting, hugging me tight like there could be no tomorrow. I felt safe, I felt loved. A different kind of love. I know he loves his fiancée. More than he loves me.
And he whispered in my ears, “I love you Jack. Please. Don’t do this.”
“ You have no idea how much this hurts Alex, to be used, for sex!” I couldn’t control myself anymore. I stood up and put my boxers on. Facing him, maybe for the last time, I started to cry, and all the words that left my mouth had sliced his heart into tiny little pieces, burned in Hell.
“Everytime that we see each other, we never talk, as soon as you step in this house, all we do is have sex! I have loved you my whole life, Alex! And we know you’ve never felt the same for me. It fucking hurts! You have a fiancée that loves you equally, I could never have that! All I could have is your semen in my ass! We could never get married! We are not a normal couple! We’re not in a normal relationship, Alex! Can’t you see that? We’ve been fucking like rabbits for the past seven years! Hell, you didn’t even have to stretch me! The fact that I never had a normal relationship when I was a teen, it’s all because of you! You’re the first person I’ve ever offered my whole heart and probably the only person that broke it. Alex, we need to stop all of this—“ I gestured to the room, my room. Where every little dark secrets we have, has been hidden, behind these damp colorless walls. “-It’s ruining our lives Alex, we can never be public, because what would people say? We would probably go to jail! And I can’t take it anymore, Lex. I just… I can’t.” Those last words fell from my mouth like it’s been locked in it from the very start of this relationship. I fell to the ground, knees shaking, body trembling, chest twitching, my eyes sting and hurt. My body is limp from all the exhaustion, the heartbreak, the failure of this relationship.
“But, I love you Jack-“
“We have the same blood! The same parents! And this… is just… so wrong. We shouldn’t have started this in the first place.” I said before he could even finish what he’s about to say.
“Didn’t you hear what I just said? I said I love you Jack-“
“We’re BROTHERS, Alex! Goddammit!”
Alex was close, his thrusts are getting sloppier and sloppier everytime. I could already feel the familiar sensation in the pit of my stomach. My moans and groans getting louder every second. Not once did Alex fail to find my prostate. He just knows where it is. First thrust in, and he hits it dead on. 7 years of this, he memorized my body, knows it more that I do, every soft spot, every sensation, everything. He just knows it’s there. He even finds places in my body, that makes me fall down on my knees, that I didn’t know exists, when he touches it. When he licks it.
I gasped as Alex grabbed hold of my member, pumping up and down slowly. Pushing mecloser and closer to the edge. Closer. I know I should be disgusted by what we’re doing. Not because we’re both male, no. People have overlooked the fact that homosexuality is a sin. Although some just couldn’t understand the concept of our love. No one could ever understand it. It’s not homosexuality. We’ve came out years ago, to all our fans, to our parents, relatives and band members and crew, friends. Well, at least I came out. Alex denies his sexuality. Says I’m just an exception.
One.
Two.
Three.
And I came, all over Alex’s hand, my stomach, his chest. Everywhere. Not long after Alex came inside me, screaming my name. If I haven’t had my orgasm yet, I would definitely be hard again. Alex’s angelic voice always sends me to an overflowing swirl of ecstasy. It sometimes keeps me sane. It sometimes drove me to the edge of my anger, his yells.
As we came down from our high, Alex pulled himself out of me. Dropping his body beside me, staring straight to my eyes. And I, to his’. Our breathings got slower, heart beats began to feel normal. My eyes are heavy from exhaustion. All the thought about this, our relationship, is bringing tears to my eyes. Stings like a syringe without anesthesia on my skin.
“Are you okay, Jack?” Came the voice I’ve been so used to since I began to appreciate the world. The voice that sings me to sleep when I had a nightmare when I was a kid. Alex. I turned to look at him, his eyes are heavy and I could sense drowsiness in it.
“Yeah, y’know. Just.. Just thinking.” I never trusted my voice in times like this. It’s husky and it cracked, confirming that I had been nervous the whole time.
“Jack, are you still doubting about this whole thing?” He snapped, back at me. I felt the rush of fear overtake my body. He leveled himself up so he was sitting down, looking straight to me. I could feel the tears threatening to fall. I had to fight back.
“This is wrong Alex. All wrong. I know we’ve been doing this for, as long as I can remember, but we both know it’s wrong. You know it. And you’re getting married Alex! For fuck’s sake!” I have had enough of this twisted and tangled relationship of ours. I couldn’t take it anymore if this if I’m only being used for sex. I needed more. I needed love. And I have been inlove with Alex for my whole life. More than I had ever expected. More than I should, and it’s wrong.
“Jack, you I love you. And we can keep this up as long as we can if you just hold on to it. Just hold on to me. I need you Jack. You’ve been with me my whole life. I can’t let you go. I will never let you go.” He started to cry, streams of tears falling from his eyes to his cheeks, to his chin. He lifted me up so I was sitting, hugging me tight like there could be no tomorrow. I felt safe, I felt loved. A different kind of love. I know he loves his fiancée. More than he loves me.
And he whispered in my ears, “I love you Jack. Please. Don’t do this.”
“ You have no idea how much this hurts Alex, to be used, for sex!” I couldn’t control myself anymore. I stood up and put my boxers on. Facing him, maybe for the last time, I started to cry, and all the words that left my mouth had sliced his heart into tiny little pieces, burned in Hell.
“Everytime that we see each other, we never talk, as soon as you step in this house, all we do is have sex! I have loved you my whole life, Alex! And we know you’ve never felt the same for me. It fucking hurts! You have a fiancée that loves you equally, I could never have that! All I could have is your semen in my ass! We could never get married! We are not a normal couple! We’re not in a normal relationship, Alex! Can’t you see that? We’ve been fucking like rabbits for the past seven years! Hell, you didn’t even have to stretch me! The fact that I never had a normal relationship when I was a teen, it’s all because of you! You’re the first person I’ve ever offered my whole heart and probably the only person that broke it. Alex, we need to stop all of this—“ I gestured to the room, my room. Where every little dark secrets we have, has been hidden, behind these damp colorless walls. “-It’s ruining our lives Alex, we can never be public, because what would people say? We would probably go to jail! And I can’t take it anymore, Lex. I just… I can’t.” Those last words fell from my mouth like it’s been locked in it from the very start of this relationship. I fell to the ground, knees shaking, body trembling, chest twitching, my eyes sting and hurt. My body is limp from all the exhaustion, the heartbreak, the failure of this relationship.
“But, I love you Jack-“
“We have the same blood! The same parents! And this… is just… so wrong. We shouldn’t have started this in the first place.” I said before he could even finish what he’s about to say.
“Didn’t you hear what I just said? I said I love you Jack-“
“We’re BROTHERS, Alex! Goddammit!”
you should update this its so good
6/2/14