This Love Was Accidental
Chapter 28
P.O.V Alex
I could feel the onsets of a panic attack coming on as me and the nurse made our way to where Jack was in intensive care. I was in a wheel chair as I wasn’t allowed to walk yet, just incase. We reached the room Jack was in and I took a really deep breath before the nurse wheeled me in and put me next to Jacks bed.
‘I will leave you alone with him, okay’, she asked cautiously. I just nodded; I was too busy looking at my baby. He looked awful, he was hooked up to a life support machine and almost all of him was bruised. He also had a huge bandage around his head. Multiple needles were going into him. He looked like if I as much as stroked his hand he would break into multiple pieces.
‘Oh Jack’, I exclaimed letting the tears stream down my cheeks and fall onto his bed. This was all my fault, we should have just gotten the train to the venue or I should have forced him not to drive that night. Why didn’t I just force him not to drive?
‘Jack’, I begged. ‘I need you to wake up for me baby’, I said as I gently took his hands between my own. Since, I knew I may never get the chance to tell him how much I love him again so I decided to just do it tonight in case he died once I left.
‘Jack Barakat’, I whispered. ‘That night I seen you in that bar, I knew I had to have you. You were the most beautiful person there and I wanted you to be mine instantly. Even when I found out you were my teacher, I didn’t want you any less. I only wanted you more because I thought I couldn’t have you. I don’t know who made it so that I was lucky enough to get the chance to be yours, but I am thankful they did. You are so perfect Jack. I wish that this had happened to me and not you. I’m so so sorry, I didn’t force you to not drive that night. I shouldn’t have let you. But I just wanted you to know that I love you so much. I swear that if you die, I will be joining you! Please don’t die, baby. I need you.’
The tears were streaming down my face now, soaking the edge of Jacks bed. He was still just laying there a still as a corpse. I took Jacks hand in mine and prepared myself for a long night of begging him to come back to me.
P.O.V Jack
‘Jack Barakat’, I could hear Alex whisper to me. Tears were landing on my hand. ‘That night I seen you in that bar, I knew I had to have you. You were the most beautiful person there and I wanted you to be mine instantly. Even when I found out you were my teacher, I didn’t want you any less. I only wanted you more because I thought I couldn’t have you. I don’t know who made it so that I was lucky enough to get the chance to be yours, but I am thankful they did. You are so perfect Jack. I wish that this had happened to me and not you. I’m so so sorry, I didn’t force you to not drive that night. I shouldn’t have let you. But I just wanted you to know that I love you so much. I swear that if you die, I will be joining you! Please don’t die, baby. I need you.’
Alex’s words broke my heart but this is the bad thing about this coma. I can hear and I can feel but I can’t reply or move. It’s like being trapped within my own body. I’m trying to get to Alex, I really am but it’s hard. I need to get back to Alex he needs me! I wanted to scream in frustration but I couldn’t do a thing. I kept trying though, Alex’s tears were still wetting my hand and I could hear his strangled sobs and pleads. He was holding my hand, I could feel his soft skin. C’mon Jack, at least move your fingers. C’mon and it worked. My fingers curled around Alex’s.
P.O.V Alex
His fingers curled around mine, oh my god! He’s alive!
‘Jack’, I said. ‘Open your eyes baby!’
Jacks eyes fluttered open momentarily but then went blank again and rolled back into his head as he flatlined. The only noise in the room was the long beep of his heart monitor saying that his heart had stopped.
I could feel the onsets of a panic attack coming on as me and the nurse made our way to where Jack was in intensive care. I was in a wheel chair as I wasn’t allowed to walk yet, just incase. We reached the room Jack was in and I took a really deep breath before the nurse wheeled me in and put me next to Jacks bed.
‘I will leave you alone with him, okay’, she asked cautiously. I just nodded; I was too busy looking at my baby. He looked awful, he was hooked up to a life support machine and almost all of him was bruised. He also had a huge bandage around his head. Multiple needles were going into him. He looked like if I as much as stroked his hand he would break into multiple pieces.
‘Oh Jack’, I exclaimed letting the tears stream down my cheeks and fall onto his bed. This was all my fault, we should have just gotten the train to the venue or I should have forced him not to drive that night. Why didn’t I just force him not to drive?
‘Jack’, I begged. ‘I need you to wake up for me baby’, I said as I gently took his hands between my own. Since, I knew I may never get the chance to tell him how much I love him again so I decided to just do it tonight in case he died once I left.
‘Jack Barakat’, I whispered. ‘That night I seen you in that bar, I knew I had to have you. You were the most beautiful person there and I wanted you to be mine instantly. Even when I found out you were my teacher, I didn’t want you any less. I only wanted you more because I thought I couldn’t have you. I don’t know who made it so that I was lucky enough to get the chance to be yours, but I am thankful they did. You are so perfect Jack. I wish that this had happened to me and not you. I’m so so sorry, I didn’t force you to not drive that night. I shouldn’t have let you. But I just wanted you to know that I love you so much. I swear that if you die, I will be joining you! Please don’t die, baby. I need you.’
The tears were streaming down my face now, soaking the edge of Jacks bed. He was still just laying there a still as a corpse. I took Jacks hand in mine and prepared myself for a long night of begging him to come back to me.
P.O.V Jack
‘Jack Barakat’, I could hear Alex whisper to me. Tears were landing on my hand. ‘That night I seen you in that bar, I knew I had to have you. You were the most beautiful person there and I wanted you to be mine instantly. Even when I found out you were my teacher, I didn’t want you any less. I only wanted you more because I thought I couldn’t have you. I don’t know who made it so that I was lucky enough to get the chance to be yours, but I am thankful they did. You are so perfect Jack. I wish that this had happened to me and not you. I’m so so sorry, I didn’t force you to not drive that night. I shouldn’t have let you. But I just wanted you to know that I love you so much. I swear that if you die, I will be joining you! Please don’t die, baby. I need you.’
Alex’s words broke my heart but this is the bad thing about this coma. I can hear and I can feel but I can’t reply or move. It’s like being trapped within my own body. I’m trying to get to Alex, I really am but it’s hard. I need to get back to Alex he needs me! I wanted to scream in frustration but I couldn’t do a thing. I kept trying though, Alex’s tears were still wetting my hand and I could hear his strangled sobs and pleads. He was holding my hand, I could feel his soft skin. C’mon Jack, at least move your fingers. C’mon and it worked. My fingers curled around Alex’s.
P.O.V Alex
His fingers curled around mine, oh my god! He’s alive!
‘Jack’, I said. ‘Open your eyes baby!’
Jacks eyes fluttered open momentarily but then went blank again and rolled back into his head as he flatlined. The only noise in the room was the long beep of his heart monitor saying that his heart had stopped.
Notes
oooooo...is he gonna die or be okay?sorry for all the feels in one day!
ps. I know i said i was gonna post the rest of this tonight but It would mean rushing this and i dont want to rush these last three chapters! Sorry
10/31/13