Living With The Guilt... (Jalex/TWIST)
The Last Chapter...
(Alex's POV)
I sat on the cold tile floor as thoughts of death crossed my mind.
"Do it Alex no one loves you and you owe this to Jack." The voice inside my head told me over and over again.
I wanted to do it but I didn't know what was holding me back.
"Come on Alex you can do it." I whispered to myself as I held the pistol in my hands.
After about 20 minutes I got up and walked over to my desk.I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen.
To who really cares,I know this is quite a surprise coming from me.I am truly sorry to leave you alone on this Hell above.The guilt was eating me alive and I couldn't take it anymore.I Killed Jack that kid that Zack and I 'found' by the dock.Him and I were together.I loved him and I killed him.I did it for my own selfish purposes.I wish I could go back in time and make him hate me.Maybe then he would still be alive.I didn't want to do it but by the time I came to my senses he was gone.Zack didn't touch him but he watched.Jack killed Zack for a sign that he was coming for me.I can't wait any longer for the pain of waiting for Jack to murder me won't come soon enough.I am truly sorry to anyone I have ever beat up or bullied because now that I am on the other side I know how it feels and It is terrible.I hope to god no one ever feels the way I am right now.Goodbye everyone... -AWG
I re read it over a few times before setting it on my bed.I then picked the pistol back up and locked my bedroom door.Taking a deep breath I put the barrel of the gun to the side of my head and cocked it.A single tear rolling off my cheek as I whispered my goodbyes and wished for forgiveness from Jack...And with that I pulled the trigger. (BANG)
(Third Person's POV)
Alex awoke with his hair sticking to his forehead from the sweat he had produced in his sleep.He looked down seeing he was completely alive and well.With a puzzled look he got up and got dressed seeing it was a Friday and he had school.Was this whole thing a nightmare? Alex was really confused.As he made it to the school grounds he spotted him.Jack was standing in the middle of the school parking lot.Everyone minding their own business.
"Jack?" He whispered to myself in disbelief.
"JACK!" He shouted louder this time getting his attention and a few other peoples.
Jack looked confused as to why Alex was running towards him with such eagerness to see him.If only he knew what Hell he went through in that nightmare.
"Alex what are-" Jack started but was cut off by Alex's soft lips smashed onto his.
Jack melted into his touch and wrapped his arms around his waist.By now everyone that was around was snapping pictures and shouting.Seeing that boy alive and well made Alex's eyes open up.
"Excuse me." He said getting everyone's attention as he stood on the fountain ledge so he was up higher.
"I have an announcement to make." He said looking at Jack and smiling.
"Well I am sure you all have figured it out by now but well Jack is my better half my everything and he and I have been together since the beginning of last year.At first I tried to hide it not wanting anyone to know but now I can proudly say that Jack Bassam Barakat, The boy of my dreams is my boyfriend and I'm no fortune teller but Jack will one day become my husband because I couldn't live a day without him."
Alex said looking down at Jack to see tears in his eyes.
"I love you so much Lex." He whispered to Alex as his kissed him sweetly.
"I love you too Jack." Alex said and with that they lived forever together in happiness..
I sat on the cold tile floor as thoughts of death crossed my mind.
"Do it Alex no one loves you and you owe this to Jack." The voice inside my head told me over and over again.
I wanted to do it but I didn't know what was holding me back.
"Come on Alex you can do it." I whispered to myself as I held the pistol in my hands.
After about 20 minutes I got up and walked over to my desk.I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen.
To who really cares,I know this is quite a surprise coming from me.I am truly sorry to leave you alone on this Hell above.The guilt was eating me alive and I couldn't take it anymore.I Killed Jack that kid that Zack and I 'found' by the dock.Him and I were together.I loved him and I killed him.I did it for my own selfish purposes.I wish I could go back in time and make him hate me.Maybe then he would still be alive.I didn't want to do it but by the time I came to my senses he was gone.Zack didn't touch him but he watched.Jack killed Zack for a sign that he was coming for me.I can't wait any longer for the pain of waiting for Jack to murder me won't come soon enough.I am truly sorry to anyone I have ever beat up or bullied because now that I am on the other side I know how it feels and It is terrible.I hope to god no one ever feels the way I am right now.Goodbye everyone... -AWG
I re read it over a few times before setting it on my bed.I then picked the pistol back up and locked my bedroom door.Taking a deep breath I put the barrel of the gun to the side of my head and cocked it.A single tear rolling off my cheek as I whispered my goodbyes and wished for forgiveness from Jack...And with that I pulled the trigger. (BANG)
(Third Person's POV)
Alex awoke with his hair sticking to his forehead from the sweat he had produced in his sleep.He looked down seeing he was completely alive and well.With a puzzled look he got up and got dressed seeing it was a Friday and he had school.Was this whole thing a nightmare? Alex was really confused.As he made it to the school grounds he spotted him.Jack was standing in the middle of the school parking lot.Everyone minding their own business.
"Jack?" He whispered to myself in disbelief.
"JACK!" He shouted louder this time getting his attention and a few other peoples.
Jack looked confused as to why Alex was running towards him with such eagerness to see him.If only he knew what Hell he went through in that nightmare.
"Alex what are-" Jack started but was cut off by Alex's soft lips smashed onto his.
Jack melted into his touch and wrapped his arms around his waist.By now everyone that was around was snapping pictures and shouting.Seeing that boy alive and well made Alex's eyes open up.
"Excuse me." He said getting everyone's attention as he stood on the fountain ledge so he was up higher.
"I have an announcement to make." He said looking at Jack and smiling.
"Well I am sure you all have figured it out by now but well Jack is my better half my everything and he and I have been together since the beginning of last year.At first I tried to hide it not wanting anyone to know but now I can proudly say that Jack Bassam Barakat, The boy of my dreams is my boyfriend and I'm no fortune teller but Jack will one day become my husband because I couldn't live a day without him."
Alex said looking down at Jack to see tears in his eyes.
"I love you so much Lex." He whispered to Alex as his kissed him sweetly.
"I love you too Jack." Alex said and with that they lived forever together in happiness..
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9/26/13