Don't Let This Memory Fade Away.
Chapter 6
Alex and Jack had been hanging out for 2 weeks after they first kissed. Jack first held Alex’s hand a week ago, and Alex asked him on a date for Saturday. Today was Friday, and he was stressing out extremely bad. What would he wear? How would he style his hair?
Everything kept going through his head. He hoped his day wouldn’t completely suck today.
But it did.
“Alexander, come down here for a second son.” Isobell called from downstairs.
Alex traipsed out of his room and down the stairs, and to his mother standing in the kitchen. “What’s up mum?”
“Tomorrow you’re going to hangout with Lisa. She’s been asking about you, so I set up a little date for you two tomorrow.” Shit no…
“Mum I cant, I have plans already for tomorrow… sorry.”
“Yeah. Those plans are hanging out with Lisa. It’s been forever since you guys have hung out. Be a gentlemen, will you?”
“Mum are you being serious!? I don’t want to hangout with that crack whore!” Alex yelled back.
“Alexander William Gaskarth you watch your mouth! Now you are going to see Lisa tomorrow, and that’s final.” Isobell walked away with a stern look.
Fuck. This is not fair at all. I was supposed to go on my date with Jack… What do I say to him now?
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Alex called Jack after his talk with his mom.
“Jack, we have to talk about tomorrow.”
Shit. What was Alex going to say? He sounded a bit…off.
“What is it Lex?”
“My mom is making me hangout with Lisa tomorrow. She is a total bitch and I hate her. She always tries to hook up with me. I tried to get my mom to let me go with you tomorrow, but she yelled at me. I’m really, really sorry. I promise, another time.” Alex sighed with his sentence.
“O-oh…yeah its fine… have fun. I’ll call you tomorrow…Bye Lex.” Jack dropped his head and ended the call after they exchanged their goodbyes.
This is just great. He was really looking forward to being with Alex tomorrow. But now he can’t… And he only had one thing that could make him feel a bit better. Jack traipsed into his room, grabbing something from the back of his dresser, and walking down the hall to the restroom. He locked the door, and pulled up his shirt. Staring in the mirror at faded cuts, He sighed deeply. “Why do I always come back to you…” Jack took the small object out of his pocket. He started to run the sink, and sat down on the ledge of the bathtub. He took the shiny little object to his skin, and slowly added pressure to it. Sliding it across his hip, and running a finger over the opened wound. It was addicting, seeing the blood on his fingers, and watching it slowly spill from the cut. He added the razor back to his hip, and slid it across with even more pressure, getting a deeper cut. He loved the pain, the sting. It made him feel like he was in reality, and not so numb. He felt very regretful for cutting because of Alex, but it wasn’t him. It was Lisa… Jack slid the razor across his skin with even more pressure just thinking about the slut trying to get on Alex. He cut a little to deep, and started dripping blood onto the floor. His hip was mauled up. He never told Alex about his self harm problems. This was his first act since he had met him. Alex made him very happy. He didn’t make him feel useless anymore… and with that thought, Jack stopped the small object from going any deeper, and removed it. Alex wouldn’t want him cutting himself. He cleaned up the floor and his hip with a wet paper towel, and put band aids over the new wounds.
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It was 8:57pm. And Jack was just desperate to see Alex. He called the older boy, and he answered.
“Hey Jack. Whats going on?” Alex questioned.
“I need to see you. Please Lex…”
“Is everything alright?” Alex was getting worried now.
“Yeah…well no. I need to see you.”
“Alright just calm down. Ill be over in 10.”
Jack aimlessly walked around the kitchen, waiting for Alex to get to the door. He jumped when the door bell rang. Jack walked up to the door, and opened in slowly, gesturing Alex to come in. Once inside, Jack pulled Alex into a tight hug. “I missed you.” Jack whispered into Alex’s neck, a tear streaming down his face. He didn’t quite know why he was being to emotional, But he knew Alex was the cure. “Shhhh, its okay, Jack…Its okay baby…” Alex just called him Baby. Jack smiled a little, but tears still streamed down his cheeks.
“Are you going to tell me whats wrong?” Alex asked.
“I messed up, Lex. It hurts. It hurts so badly. I’m sorry… I just needed to see you. I’m scared of myself.” Jack managed to slip out of his sobs.
“What hurts?”
Jack lifted up his shirt to reveal cuts being covered by multiple band aids. Alex took a deep breath and leant down to look closer. “Why did you do this Jack?” Alex worried.
“It started freshman year, when I came out as Bi. I stopped a couple weeks ago when I met you. But it was all I had tonight… I’m so sorry, Lex.” Jack started to tear up again.
“Shhh it’s okay. Don’t be sorry to me. There is nothing to be sorry to me about. I just don’t want you hurting yourself anymore, okay? For me?” Alex looked up and cupped jacks cheeks in his palms. Jack nodded his head, and leant down to kiss Alex softly. Alex smiled into the kiss, and kissed back harder. They started moving around to the couch and Alex layed down first, letting Jack crawl over him. They continued the kiss, and started to tangle their tongues together. It was getting a little more heated and intimate, and Alex removed his shirt, while Jack removed his. He smiled at Alex’s body, and went down to kiss across his chest, and nip at his collar bones. This definantly paid back for tomorrow. Alex pulled Jack up to re-connect their lips, and ran his fingers through his raven locks. Jack started unbuckling his jeans, and got them off. This started on Alex’s. He went down and kissed his belly, then was eye level with his waistband. He undid his belt, and started to pull down his pants. They were now both in boxers only, and staring at each other. Jack leant forward and kissed back up Alexs stomach, and worked at his neck. He then whispered in his ear.
“Lets get to sleep. We can continue this some other time, when im not in pain.” Jack glided his fingers over Alexs inner thigh.
“Youre such a tease.” Alex giggled.
They made their way upstairs into Jack bedroom, and cuddled underneath the sheets after turning off the lights.
“Im not going tomorrow. I hate Lisa anyways. I rather stay here with you.” Alex whispered.
“Good. I’m really glad that you’re here, ya know. I really missed you.” Jack responded, kissing Alex’s nose.
“I missed you, too.”
The two boys drifted off to sleep together. It seemed easier to sleep with each other in their presence.
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Alex woke up, with his arm draped around the younger boy’s waist. He didn’t want to want to get up, really. He just sort of sat there and layed next to Jack. He didn’t want to wake the boy, because he looked so peaceful. So he decided to slidefrom the other boy, and get up on his feet. He did a stretch, and yawned, then traipsed out into the hall to the nearest restroom. Alex was at Jacks house, so he didn’t quite know where anything was. But he found the restroom, and locked the door. He took a look at himself In the mirror, and grabbed a brush from the counter. His hair was a mess, but he easily flattend it with the brush, and walked over to use the toilet. He did his business, and watch his hands. He grabbed a towel from the side of the wall, and noticed it had been stained red. Jack… he had cut himself yesterday. It kind of scared Alex, seeing it. He was falling for the younger boy, and he wanted to keep him safe.
Alex unlocked the door, and stepped out of the restroom. He traipsed back over to peek into Jacks room, and saw the younger boy still sleeping. Alex slightly giggled, and closed the door. He decided that he was hungry, so he walked down the stairs and entered the kitchen, seeing a woman standing there.
“Jack, im off to work in about a half hour…” She turned around. “O-oh! Sorry I thought you were Jack. You are…Alex? Am I right?”
“Uum yes, Hi.” I guess Jack had mentioned Alex before.
“Im Jacks mom. You can call me Joyce.”
“Well, good morning Joyce.” Alex said with a smile.
“Goodmorning Alex.” Joyce leant over to grab her purse. “So, are you being good to my son? Ive noticed you mean a lot to him.” He meant a lot to Jack? Wow.
“He says that about me? And yes. Im doing my best.” Alex responded with a slight grin.
“He speaks about you all the time. I’m starting to think he likes you quite a bit. Do me a favor, and don’t hurt him. He struggled with some stuff in school the past couple years, and coming out as Bi-sexual. He’s been a lot happier since he met you, I’ve noticed significantly.”
“I promise Joyce. I won’t hurt him. He means too much to me to even think about that.” Alex blushed slightly.
“Well great! I should be on my way now. I’m going to pick up some coffee and bagels for a friend, then I’m off to work. Please tell Jack that there is some money on the counter for lunch. Ill be home later. Goodbye, Alex.” Joyce waved as she made her way out of the door.
“Jack likes me…and he talks about me a lot…” Alex smiled wider and his face was bright red. He went back up to Jacks room, and decided to wake the boy. He ran and hoped onto the younger, and Jack was instantly startled. Jack yelped, and Alex laughed, falling over next to Jack.
“You’re full of shit, you know.” Jack sighed and he giggled a little.
“I know. But you love it.” Alex leaned over and kissed the boys cheek. Jack turned his face and connected their lips, and Alex slowly crawled on top of the younger boy. Their lips moving in sync with each others, Jacks hand made its way to Alexs hips, pushing down a little. Alex smiled into the kiss, and grinded down his hips. Jack gasped with the action, and pushed Alex off from his side.
“Oh my god, I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to…” Alex had hit Jacks waist, where the fresh wounds were. They were stinging, but Jack couldn’t care less. It just surprised him a bit.
“It’s alright Lex. Come here.” Jack gestured Alex back on top of him, and started kissing down his neck. He grinded his hips up at Alex’s, and the older boy returned the action. Alex's hand started to search up and down jacks body, and down to his thigh. He was stroking Jacks inner thigh, and the boys hormones started acting up. Jack started to get harder with every stroke Alex made. The older boy caught that, since he was obviously underneath him, and grinded his hips down with a little more pressure. Jack let out a little moan, and Alex moved his hand up closer to his crotch.
“A-alex, stop teasing.” Jack moaned. Alex grinned widely and nipped his teeth at Jacks collar bones, then made his way lower to kiss at his stomach. He lifted his shirt, and left small pecks over each cut on Jacks hip. “I can make it feel better.” Alex said, looking up at Jack through his eyelashes. Jack pulled Alex up to his level, and kissed his lips.
“I’m starting to fall for you, really hard.”
“Me too Jack. Me too.” Alex kissed his forehead, and they layed next to each other, Jack resting his head on Alex’s chest. “Thank you Lex. For being here for me.”
“You’re welcome.”
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Alex and Jack went through the day, just being lazy. And Jack was thinking about something. He really, really liked Alex. And he wanted to show him how much he cared about him.
He wanted to ask him a question. But he needed the right time and place.
They spent about 15 more minutes making out with each other, and broke apart to catch their breaths. Alex rested his head on Jack's shoulder, and closed his eyes, breathing in his sweet scent. There was a buzzing on the table near the bed, and Alex noticed it was his phone. He reached over and grabbed it, seeing he was getting a call. It was his mom.
"Alexander William Gaskarth, where the hell are you? Lisa has been waiting here for a good hour. Where did you go last night!? Get your little arse home right this instant." She screamed over the phone. He couldn't just tell her that he went over to Jacks house because he was having a mental breakdown, and they ended up hooking up and he spent the night there. She would not take that too lightly.
"I went over to a friends. Sorry, Lisa is going to have to come over another time." Alex sighed with that. 'A friends.'
Alex and Jack weren't just friends...They didn't know what they were.
"You are so disrespectful. I cannot believe you would do thi..." Alex hung up the phone. He didn't want to deal with his moms shit this morning.
He just wanted to be with Jack. (in more ways than just this.)
Everything kept going through his head. He hoped his day wouldn’t completely suck today.
But it did.
“Alexander, come down here for a second son.” Isobell called from downstairs.
Alex traipsed out of his room and down the stairs, and to his mother standing in the kitchen. “What’s up mum?”
“Tomorrow you’re going to hangout with Lisa. She’s been asking about you, so I set up a little date for you two tomorrow.” Shit no…
“Mum I cant, I have plans already for tomorrow… sorry.”
“Yeah. Those plans are hanging out with Lisa. It’s been forever since you guys have hung out. Be a gentlemen, will you?”
“Mum are you being serious!? I don’t want to hangout with that crack whore!” Alex yelled back.
“Alexander William Gaskarth you watch your mouth! Now you are going to see Lisa tomorrow, and that’s final.” Isobell walked away with a stern look.
Fuck. This is not fair at all. I was supposed to go on my date with Jack… What do I say to him now?
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Alex called Jack after his talk with his mom.
“Jack, we have to talk about tomorrow.”
Shit. What was Alex going to say? He sounded a bit…off.
“What is it Lex?”
“My mom is making me hangout with Lisa tomorrow. She is a total bitch and I hate her. She always tries to hook up with me. I tried to get my mom to let me go with you tomorrow, but she yelled at me. I’m really, really sorry. I promise, another time.” Alex sighed with his sentence.
“O-oh…yeah its fine… have fun. I’ll call you tomorrow…Bye Lex.” Jack dropped his head and ended the call after they exchanged their goodbyes.
This is just great. He was really looking forward to being with Alex tomorrow. But now he can’t… And he only had one thing that could make him feel a bit better. Jack traipsed into his room, grabbing something from the back of his dresser, and walking down the hall to the restroom. He locked the door, and pulled up his shirt. Staring in the mirror at faded cuts, He sighed deeply. “Why do I always come back to you…” Jack took the small object out of his pocket. He started to run the sink, and sat down on the ledge of the bathtub. He took the shiny little object to his skin, and slowly added pressure to it. Sliding it across his hip, and running a finger over the opened wound. It was addicting, seeing the blood on his fingers, and watching it slowly spill from the cut. He added the razor back to his hip, and slid it across with even more pressure, getting a deeper cut. He loved the pain, the sting. It made him feel like he was in reality, and not so numb. He felt very regretful for cutting because of Alex, but it wasn’t him. It was Lisa… Jack slid the razor across his skin with even more pressure just thinking about the slut trying to get on Alex. He cut a little to deep, and started dripping blood onto the floor. His hip was mauled up. He never told Alex about his self harm problems. This was his first act since he had met him. Alex made him very happy. He didn’t make him feel useless anymore… and with that thought, Jack stopped the small object from going any deeper, and removed it. Alex wouldn’t want him cutting himself. He cleaned up the floor and his hip with a wet paper towel, and put band aids over the new wounds.
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It was 8:57pm. And Jack was just desperate to see Alex. He called the older boy, and he answered.
“Hey Jack. Whats going on?” Alex questioned.
“I need to see you. Please Lex…”
“Is everything alright?” Alex was getting worried now.
“Yeah…well no. I need to see you.”
“Alright just calm down. Ill be over in 10.”
Jack aimlessly walked around the kitchen, waiting for Alex to get to the door. He jumped when the door bell rang. Jack walked up to the door, and opened in slowly, gesturing Alex to come in. Once inside, Jack pulled Alex into a tight hug. “I missed you.” Jack whispered into Alex’s neck, a tear streaming down his face. He didn’t quite know why he was being to emotional, But he knew Alex was the cure. “Shhhh, its okay, Jack…Its okay baby…” Alex just called him Baby. Jack smiled a little, but tears still streamed down his cheeks.
“Are you going to tell me whats wrong?” Alex asked.
“I messed up, Lex. It hurts. It hurts so badly. I’m sorry… I just needed to see you. I’m scared of myself.” Jack managed to slip out of his sobs.
“What hurts?”
Jack lifted up his shirt to reveal cuts being covered by multiple band aids. Alex took a deep breath and leant down to look closer. “Why did you do this Jack?” Alex worried.
“It started freshman year, when I came out as Bi. I stopped a couple weeks ago when I met you. But it was all I had tonight… I’m so sorry, Lex.” Jack started to tear up again.
“Shhh it’s okay. Don’t be sorry to me. There is nothing to be sorry to me about. I just don’t want you hurting yourself anymore, okay? For me?” Alex looked up and cupped jacks cheeks in his palms. Jack nodded his head, and leant down to kiss Alex softly. Alex smiled into the kiss, and kissed back harder. They started moving around to the couch and Alex layed down first, letting Jack crawl over him. They continued the kiss, and started to tangle their tongues together. It was getting a little more heated and intimate, and Alex removed his shirt, while Jack removed his. He smiled at Alex’s body, and went down to kiss across his chest, and nip at his collar bones. This definantly paid back for tomorrow. Alex pulled Jack up to re-connect their lips, and ran his fingers through his raven locks. Jack started unbuckling his jeans, and got them off. This started on Alex’s. He went down and kissed his belly, then was eye level with his waistband. He undid his belt, and started to pull down his pants. They were now both in boxers only, and staring at each other. Jack leant forward and kissed back up Alexs stomach, and worked at his neck. He then whispered in his ear.
“Lets get to sleep. We can continue this some other time, when im not in pain.” Jack glided his fingers over Alexs inner thigh.
“Youre such a tease.” Alex giggled.
They made their way upstairs into Jack bedroom, and cuddled underneath the sheets after turning off the lights.
“Im not going tomorrow. I hate Lisa anyways. I rather stay here with you.” Alex whispered.
“Good. I’m really glad that you’re here, ya know. I really missed you.” Jack responded, kissing Alex’s nose.
“I missed you, too.”
The two boys drifted off to sleep together. It seemed easier to sleep with each other in their presence.
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Alex woke up, with his arm draped around the younger boy’s waist. He didn’t want to want to get up, really. He just sort of sat there and layed next to Jack. He didn’t want to wake the boy, because he looked so peaceful. So he decided to slidefrom the other boy, and get up on his feet. He did a stretch, and yawned, then traipsed out into the hall to the nearest restroom. Alex was at Jacks house, so he didn’t quite know where anything was. But he found the restroom, and locked the door. He took a look at himself In the mirror, and grabbed a brush from the counter. His hair was a mess, but he easily flattend it with the brush, and walked over to use the toilet. He did his business, and watch his hands. He grabbed a towel from the side of the wall, and noticed it had been stained red. Jack… he had cut himself yesterday. It kind of scared Alex, seeing it. He was falling for the younger boy, and he wanted to keep him safe.
Alex unlocked the door, and stepped out of the restroom. He traipsed back over to peek into Jacks room, and saw the younger boy still sleeping. Alex slightly giggled, and closed the door. He decided that he was hungry, so he walked down the stairs and entered the kitchen, seeing a woman standing there.
“Jack, im off to work in about a half hour…” She turned around. “O-oh! Sorry I thought you were Jack. You are…Alex? Am I right?”
“Uum yes, Hi.” I guess Jack had mentioned Alex before.
“Im Jacks mom. You can call me Joyce.”
“Well, good morning Joyce.” Alex said with a smile.
“Goodmorning Alex.” Joyce leant over to grab her purse. “So, are you being good to my son? Ive noticed you mean a lot to him.” He meant a lot to Jack? Wow.
“He says that about me? And yes. Im doing my best.” Alex responded with a slight grin.
“He speaks about you all the time. I’m starting to think he likes you quite a bit. Do me a favor, and don’t hurt him. He struggled with some stuff in school the past couple years, and coming out as Bi-sexual. He’s been a lot happier since he met you, I’ve noticed significantly.”
“I promise Joyce. I won’t hurt him. He means too much to me to even think about that.” Alex blushed slightly.
“Well great! I should be on my way now. I’m going to pick up some coffee and bagels for a friend, then I’m off to work. Please tell Jack that there is some money on the counter for lunch. Ill be home later. Goodbye, Alex.” Joyce waved as she made her way out of the door.
“Jack likes me…and he talks about me a lot…” Alex smiled wider and his face was bright red. He went back up to Jacks room, and decided to wake the boy. He ran and hoped onto the younger, and Jack was instantly startled. Jack yelped, and Alex laughed, falling over next to Jack.
“You’re full of shit, you know.” Jack sighed and he giggled a little.
“I know. But you love it.” Alex leaned over and kissed the boys cheek. Jack turned his face and connected their lips, and Alex slowly crawled on top of the younger boy. Their lips moving in sync with each others, Jacks hand made its way to Alexs hips, pushing down a little. Alex smiled into the kiss, and grinded down his hips. Jack gasped with the action, and pushed Alex off from his side.
“Oh my god, I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to…” Alex had hit Jacks waist, where the fresh wounds were. They were stinging, but Jack couldn’t care less. It just surprised him a bit.
“It’s alright Lex. Come here.” Jack gestured Alex back on top of him, and started kissing down his neck. He grinded his hips up at Alex’s, and the older boy returned the action. Alex's hand started to search up and down jacks body, and down to his thigh. He was stroking Jacks inner thigh, and the boys hormones started acting up. Jack started to get harder with every stroke Alex made. The older boy caught that, since he was obviously underneath him, and grinded his hips down with a little more pressure. Jack let out a little moan, and Alex moved his hand up closer to his crotch.
“A-alex, stop teasing.” Jack moaned. Alex grinned widely and nipped his teeth at Jacks collar bones, then made his way lower to kiss at his stomach. He lifted his shirt, and left small pecks over each cut on Jacks hip. “I can make it feel better.” Alex said, looking up at Jack through his eyelashes. Jack pulled Alex up to his level, and kissed his lips.
“I’m starting to fall for you, really hard.”
“Me too Jack. Me too.” Alex kissed his forehead, and they layed next to each other, Jack resting his head on Alex’s chest. “Thank you Lex. For being here for me.”
“You’re welcome.”
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Alex and Jack went through the day, just being lazy. And Jack was thinking about something. He really, really liked Alex. And he wanted to show him how much he cared about him.
He wanted to ask him a question. But he needed the right time and place.
They spent about 15 more minutes making out with each other, and broke apart to catch their breaths. Alex rested his head on Jack's shoulder, and closed his eyes, breathing in his sweet scent. There was a buzzing on the table near the bed, and Alex noticed it was his phone. He reached over and grabbed it, seeing he was getting a call. It was his mom.
"Alexander William Gaskarth, where the hell are you? Lisa has been waiting here for a good hour. Where did you go last night!? Get your little arse home right this instant." She screamed over the phone. He couldn't just tell her that he went over to Jacks house because he was having a mental breakdown, and they ended up hooking up and he spent the night there. She would not take that too lightly.
"I went over to a friends. Sorry, Lisa is going to have to come over another time." Alex sighed with that. 'A friends.'
Alex and Jack weren't just friends...They didn't know what they were.
"You are so disrespectful. I cannot believe you would do thi..." Alex hung up the phone. He didn't want to deal with his moms shit this morning.
He just wanted to be with Jack. (in more ways than just this.)
Thank you (: it's going on a small hiatus, I'm very busy with school and relationships ect.
10/8/13