A Life of the Plain and the Simple
Thirty-Three
Life's gotten better for me. I'm writing again; I was picking up my guitar and singing again. I missed hearing my own voice flying through the air, like it was before I had Lily and Lacey.
I was also being the wife I was supposed to be again. I was smiling and laughing at Jack being his goofy self. I was always lacing my fingers with his whenever I could. I kissed him and told him how much I loved throughout the day at every moment I could.
Plus I was being the mother I needed to be to my three little girls. I played with Izzy and her stuffed animals every chance I could. I was nuturing and playing with Lily and Lacey whenever they needed me. I played tummy time with my super duo. I was so amazed by these two little newborns; they were so small, but yet they were so strong.
Now with Lacey and Lily being officially two months old I'm seeing that they are in fact identical twins. They both have Jack's dark eyes, his lips, and his smile. They took after their father with his Barakat family jet black hair. From me, the girls got my nose and my long slender and very nimble fingers I got from their grandfather, and the eyebrows and forehead I got from their grandmother.
"Mommy, come play," Izzy demanded in her adorable way while I was holding Lacey. She was crying earlier for attention and I was the only one home with out three kids since Tom had dragged Jack off to do grocery shopping.
"I can't Izzy," I told her, "Lacey needs me right now. Maybe later okay."
"No come play now, Mommy," she protested. She was so stubborn like me sometimes.
"Isabelle I can't come play right now," I told her, putting my foot down. I know I was being a little harsh with her. She's only been around the twins for a month now and she ha no idea on what it's like to be a sibling let alone an older one.
"No one ever plays with me no mores," she whined, I could see she was fighting her tears as a tantrum was about to surface, another trait she got from me; "No one plays with me. Only with Lacey and Lily."
"You know that's not true Izzy," I told her, "Come and sit by me I need to talk to you."
Izzy didn't say another word and she sat down on the floor next to the rocking chair that was once in her room but Jack moved to the twins' room. I knew how hard it was on her to know she'd no longer be the sole center of our world and that she'd have to share it with her sisters. I never really had the only child thing that she had, Jack did. But I did have the center of attention shift when Liam was born; Tom and I may have been twins, but we had thought we were the most important kids in the Gaskarth family until Liam came into the picture soon followed by Noelle.
"Now Izzy Unlce Liam is a few years younger than Uncle Tommy and I," I started, "I was just around your age when he was born. Both Uncle Tommy and I had a hard time getting used to a new baby in the house. Grandpa Alex didn't sing to me as much after Uncle Liam was born, and he would sing mostly to Uncle Liam. I began to cause all sorts of trouble and I had a very bad attitude with him and Grandma Juli that got me lots of time outs. But I got over it when Grandpa Alex sat me down and told me that just because Uncle Liam was getting a lot of attention it didn't mean he had forgotten about Uncle Tommy and I," I saw a confusing look on her face, meaning she was processing everything still, "What I'm telling you is that babies, like Lacey and Lily, need constant care. Your sisters can't do anything by themselves yet like you can, Izzy. I want you to promise to be on you rbes behavior while Daddy and I help your little sisters grow up so they can be just like you, okay."
"Okay Mommy," Izzy sighed in defeat.
"You are still my princess, Izzy," I told her as I moved Lacey to resr her against my chest as I signaled for Izzy to climb into my lap, "But you are not the only princess in this castle anymore. You have to share it with Lacey and Lily. Maybe one day in the future with a little brother or another sister."
"So how was your day with the girls," Jack asked as he came into the bedroom. I was lounging in bed with Izzy's head laying in my lap as she took her afternoon nap.
"Fairly easy," I replied, "Lacey and Lily were barely fussy today. I had the big sister talk with this one. She was about to have a Gaskarth fit when I couldn't play with her."
"Did she take it well," he asked, "I mean I know you never had the only child feeling like I did. I had a phase like Izzy has since I was the only child before Oli came around."
"She took it rather well. I told her that I had a similar thing like she has where I acted out to get noticed," I told him, "But I explained to her my experience was different since I was a twin and she wasn't."
"I'm glad that you had managed to handle everything today," he smiled and kissed my forehead, "How has your anxiety been?"
"It was a rough day," I told him, "I nearly had an attack when I set Izzy to play outside while I made her lunch. But I managed to regain control and took my rescue meds."
"Soon you won't need anything to keep you calm," he sighed as he ran his fingers through my hair, "One day your anxiety will go away and you can control it on your own."
"I talked to my dad over the phone," I told him, "I asked is he ever had severe issues with his anxiety. He told me that he always had to fight his anxiety when he was teenager up until he was around my age now. Only when he met my mother did he find the strength to fight it back and get off the medication he was taking to control his anxiety. Once Tom and I were born, his anxiety came back and he had to start taking medication again, but it was only one pill a day. He's still taking his meds to this day, but it's a much smaller dose than when he started taking his medication again."
"I think you'll do better than him," Jack replied, "You are so much stronger than him because you learned from him how to fight back what scares you. But I will love you always and forever, regardless of you needing to be on medication or not. You will always be the strong, brave, and fearless Gaskarth I fell in love with and grew up with. Nothing will change that. Ever."
I was also being the wife I was supposed to be again. I was smiling and laughing at Jack being his goofy self. I was always lacing my fingers with his whenever I could. I kissed him and told him how much I loved throughout the day at every moment I could.
Plus I was being the mother I needed to be to my three little girls. I played with Izzy and her stuffed animals every chance I could. I was nuturing and playing with Lily and Lacey whenever they needed me. I played tummy time with my super duo. I was so amazed by these two little newborns; they were so small, but yet they were so strong.
Now with Lacey and Lily being officially two months old I'm seeing that they are in fact identical twins. They both have Jack's dark eyes, his lips, and his smile. They took after their father with his Barakat family jet black hair. From me, the girls got my nose and my long slender and very nimble fingers I got from their grandfather, and the eyebrows and forehead I got from their grandmother.
"Mommy, come play," Izzy demanded in her adorable way while I was holding Lacey. She was crying earlier for attention and I was the only one home with out three kids since Tom had dragged Jack off to do grocery shopping.
"I can't Izzy," I told her, "Lacey needs me right now. Maybe later okay."
"No come play now, Mommy," she protested. She was so stubborn like me sometimes.
"Isabelle I can't come play right now," I told her, putting my foot down. I know I was being a little harsh with her. She's only been around the twins for a month now and she ha no idea on what it's like to be a sibling let alone an older one.
"No one ever plays with me no mores," she whined, I could see she was fighting her tears as a tantrum was about to surface, another trait she got from me; "No one plays with me. Only with Lacey and Lily."
"You know that's not true Izzy," I told her, "Come and sit by me I need to talk to you."
Izzy didn't say another word and she sat down on the floor next to the rocking chair that was once in her room but Jack moved to the twins' room. I knew how hard it was on her to know she'd no longer be the sole center of our world and that she'd have to share it with her sisters. I never really had the only child thing that she had, Jack did. But I did have the center of attention shift when Liam was born; Tom and I may have been twins, but we had thought we were the most important kids in the Gaskarth family until Liam came into the picture soon followed by Noelle.
"Now Izzy Unlce Liam is a few years younger than Uncle Tommy and I," I started, "I was just around your age when he was born. Both Uncle Tommy and I had a hard time getting used to a new baby in the house. Grandpa Alex didn't sing to me as much after Uncle Liam was born, and he would sing mostly to Uncle Liam. I began to cause all sorts of trouble and I had a very bad attitude with him and Grandma Juli that got me lots of time outs. But I got over it when Grandpa Alex sat me down and told me that just because Uncle Liam was getting a lot of attention it didn't mean he had forgotten about Uncle Tommy and I," I saw a confusing look on her face, meaning she was processing everything still, "What I'm telling you is that babies, like Lacey and Lily, need constant care. Your sisters can't do anything by themselves yet like you can, Izzy. I want you to promise to be on you rbes behavior while Daddy and I help your little sisters grow up so they can be just like you, okay."
"Okay Mommy," Izzy sighed in defeat.
"You are still my princess, Izzy," I told her as I moved Lacey to resr her against my chest as I signaled for Izzy to climb into my lap, "But you are not the only princess in this castle anymore. You have to share it with Lacey and Lily. Maybe one day in the future with a little brother or another sister."
"So how was your day with the girls," Jack asked as he came into the bedroom. I was lounging in bed with Izzy's head laying in my lap as she took her afternoon nap.
"Fairly easy," I replied, "Lacey and Lily were barely fussy today. I had the big sister talk with this one. She was about to have a Gaskarth fit when I couldn't play with her."
"Did she take it well," he asked, "I mean I know you never had the only child feeling like I did. I had a phase like Izzy has since I was the only child before Oli came around."
"She took it rather well. I told her that I had a similar thing like she has where I acted out to get noticed," I told him, "But I explained to her my experience was different since I was a twin and she wasn't."
"I'm glad that you had managed to handle everything today," he smiled and kissed my forehead, "How has your anxiety been?"
"It was a rough day," I told him, "I nearly had an attack when I set Izzy to play outside while I made her lunch. But I managed to regain control and took my rescue meds."
"Soon you won't need anything to keep you calm," he sighed as he ran his fingers through my hair, "One day your anxiety will go away and you can control it on your own."
"I talked to my dad over the phone," I told him, "I asked is he ever had severe issues with his anxiety. He told me that he always had to fight his anxiety when he was teenager up until he was around my age now. Only when he met my mother did he find the strength to fight it back and get off the medication he was taking to control his anxiety. Once Tom and I were born, his anxiety came back and he had to start taking medication again, but it was only one pill a day. He's still taking his meds to this day, but it's a much smaller dose than when he started taking his medication again."
"I think you'll do better than him," Jack replied, "You are so much stronger than him because you learned from him how to fight back what scares you. But I will love you always and forever, regardless of you needing to be on medication or not. You will always be the strong, brave, and fearless Gaskarth I fell in love with and grew up with. Nothing will change that. Ever."
Notes
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10/23/13