A Life of the Plain and the Simple
Twenty-Seven
Stella, my poor sister. I know she's hurting inside after what happened two weeks ago. It's really good news that the girls can be touched soon, but it bums me out to see in improvement in my sister. I was worried about her mind, I was afraid that this had broken her. I knew that we have anxiety in our family, our dad has and I've seen Stella have it on occasion too when we first started touring.
"Stella, why don't you hold Xander," I held my son out to my sister as we sat on her couch. Aubree and I wanted to visit her and Jack to spend time with them.
"I don't want to hold him," Stella refused, "I'm afraid to hurt him, like I did to my daughters."
"Stella that wasn't your fault and you know that," Aubree told her as Jack took Xander from me.
"Stell, sometimes these things happen. It's no one's fault that Lacey and Lily were early. It just happens. You need to see that they are getting better and everything is going to improve from here on out," I wrapped my arms around my twin, "I promise you things are going to get better."
"I miss them," she sobbed as she clung to me tightly, "I wish I could have changed how everything happened. I wish they were still inside me, waiting until they were fully to come. Tommy, I'm so scared for them."
"I know you are, Stell," I started to stroke her hair as Aubree followed Jack out of the living room, "Just breathe, Stella. You need to relax and breathe. Nothing is going to happen to Lacey, Lily, Jack, or Izzy. Not even Mom, Dad, Liam, Noelle, Aubree, myself, or Xander are in danger. Everything is okay."
"I'm worried about my sister and her mental health," I commented as Aubree fed Xander before we'd put him down for the night.
"I'm worried too," Aubree replied as she burped Xander over her shoulder, "But Jack is doing everything he can to help her."
"I feel like Izzy should be with her, to help lift her spirits, not be bouncing around between Uncle Jack and my dad," I threw myself back onto my pillows, "I am really close to being forceful and scaring Stella straight. She needs to see that she needs to wake up and understand Lacey and Lily are perfectly fine, they just need extra care right now."
"Tom, being harsh isn't going to help her," Aubree laid Xander down on her lap, supporting his little head, "Being hard on her will make her build a shell around herself. Let Stella and Jack work it out. Maybe talk to Jack about having Izzy come home. She needs to be home where she belongs, not with her grandfathers. Stella needs to still be a mother, even if it's just to Isabelle for the time being."
Aubree was right. Stella can't be forced to get better. Maybe with Izzy going back home to be with Jack and Stella was the best option. Stella may get better when Lacey and Lily finally get released and are able to sleep in the two cribs waiting for them. I know I will rest even easier when my nieces are home with their parents, all three of them. Right now, I can only hope Stella will get better while I enjoy the simple pleasures of being a new dad to my little man.
"Stella, why don't you hold Xander," I held my son out to my sister as we sat on her couch. Aubree and I wanted to visit her and Jack to spend time with them.
"I don't want to hold him," Stella refused, "I'm afraid to hurt him, like I did to my daughters."
"Stella that wasn't your fault and you know that," Aubree told her as Jack took Xander from me.
"Stell, sometimes these things happen. It's no one's fault that Lacey and Lily were early. It just happens. You need to see that they are getting better and everything is going to improve from here on out," I wrapped my arms around my twin, "I promise you things are going to get better."
"I miss them," she sobbed as she clung to me tightly, "I wish I could have changed how everything happened. I wish they were still inside me, waiting until they were fully to come. Tommy, I'm so scared for them."
"I know you are, Stell," I started to stroke her hair as Aubree followed Jack out of the living room, "Just breathe, Stella. You need to relax and breathe. Nothing is going to happen to Lacey, Lily, Jack, or Izzy. Not even Mom, Dad, Liam, Noelle, Aubree, myself, or Xander are in danger. Everything is okay."
"I'm worried about my sister and her mental health," I commented as Aubree fed Xander before we'd put him down for the night.
"I'm worried too," Aubree replied as she burped Xander over her shoulder, "But Jack is doing everything he can to help her."
"I feel like Izzy should be with her, to help lift her spirits, not be bouncing around between Uncle Jack and my dad," I threw myself back onto my pillows, "I am really close to being forceful and scaring Stella straight. She needs to see that she needs to wake up and understand Lacey and Lily are perfectly fine, they just need extra care right now."
"Tom, being harsh isn't going to help her," Aubree laid Xander down on her lap, supporting his little head, "Being hard on her will make her build a shell around herself. Let Stella and Jack work it out. Maybe talk to Jack about having Izzy come home. She needs to be home where she belongs, not with her grandfathers. Stella needs to still be a mother, even if it's just to Isabelle for the time being."
Aubree was right. Stella can't be forced to get better. Maybe with Izzy going back home to be with Jack and Stella was the best option. Stella may get better when Lacey and Lily finally get released and are able to sleep in the two cribs waiting for them. I know I will rest even easier when my nieces are home with their parents, all three of them. Right now, I can only hope Stella will get better while I enjoy the simple pleasures of being a new dad to my little man.
10/23/13