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All This Madness

Going Down Swinging.

"I'm leaving."


I stopped dead in my tracks, my shirt slipping down the rest of my body by itself. The hair on the back of my neck stood up as I slowly spun around, my eyes finding Rian, though he was blurred by the tears that were already forming. My breath hitched in my throat and my head was spinning.


Just like anyone else in this world, I understood wanting to have a greater purpose. I was lucky enough to have my baby sister here to keep me sane. What I couldn't understand was why everyone wanted to break from the group. It would have been easier to put the gun in my hand and ask me to pull the trigger for them. At least then I'd know for sure they were dead. When they haunted my dreams, I'd know it was for a purpose, not a longing that could never be filled again.


"Now don't go getting all emotional on me, Riot. I have to do this. I have to see if they're out there."


"Who? Your family? Your friends? Look around you, Rian, everyone is dead!"


"Not everyone. For all we know, Jack and Alex could have found Lisa, maybe even the rest of their family. It's not easy for the rest of us like it is for you."


"Easy? You think this is easy? I killed my own mother!"


A hand touched the small of back, which sent chills down my spine. I knew it was Matt, there was no reason for me to turn around. He must have finally gotten Tori to sleep. We'd stopped here to rest because there weren't many undead around. The few that were here were dying of hunger, so we selected an open, empty field to park the bus in. Of course, someone would take watch, but it was calming. We could see far out in all directions, so if danger came we'd get away before it got to us, but we were free to step off of the bus, smell the chilly night air and feel human for even just a second.


I never expected the night to end like this.


"Look, Riot, we know there's no way you could ever understand," Zack frowned as he loaded a gun, a small bag of supplies hanging from his shoulder, "but we can't just sit here and not do anything. You know what happened to your mother. Your sister is right here with you. We were on tour when all of this shit happened. We've completely lost contact with anyone that ever mattered to us. If they're out there fighting for their lives and we don't do anything about it.. That's on us. You're lucky, whether you can see it or not."


"We're going into town to get a few supplies after we eat. It'd be wrong to take too much from you guys, since you've got Tori to care for."


It was slowly starting to hit me that, once Zack and Rian left, the only two people on the face of the Earth I'd have left would be Matt and Tori. That's not necessarily a bad thing.. I'd just gotten so attached to everyone else. It was hard enough not having Jack and Alex around anymore. I couldn't imagine how hard it'd be to keep fighting this war with two more of our men gone.


This life was war and that's the only way to describe it. I knew I'd spend the rest of my life fighting for my survival the night mama turned. The fear that ran through my veins as Tori and I ran for the car, the sadness that consumed us as we pulled away from the only place we'd ever known. Losing mama wasn't some kind of hidden blessing. Rian and Zack - They don't even know what they're talking about.


When I killed mama, it was just proof that nothing mattered anymore. Keeping Tori alive was the only thing I had left, at least, until they came along. Do they really think I don't understand what it's like to have other people out there? Daddy's out there somewhere. With his new wife and their two kids - My half-brother and sister. My grandparents, my cousins, my aunts and uncles. Yet Tori and I haven't made a fuss about finding them, not even Daddy. Because we know we'd spend too much time searching for something that isn't there and we'd be let down when we realized we'd never find him. Even our siblings, of course we were never very close to them, but they're still family. Twins, four-years-old.


So why are they running off when I'm still right here?


Is it because I have at least one connection to my old life and they don't?


Well, that's bullshit. They had each other. Now they have us and we have them. They made promises to their lost friends to protect Tori. They can't do that when they're miles away, running from the creatures who want to rip their flesh off.


A new rage filled my gut as I watched the two of them sit down and dig into their cans of food. They were so calm, so collected, so ready to walk away from the new life we'd built together. It wasn't much, but it was enough. I blinked through the tears forming in my eyes and grabbed my gun from the table. Matt attempted to grab my shirt to hold me back, but I was too pissed off to care. I threw the door open and stepped off of the bus, slamming it behind me.


The night air was cold, but the breeze made the weeds and uncut grass dance around me. From this far out, the stars seemed even bigger, the sky seemed even wider. It was a beautiful sight but I couldn't bring myself to enjoy it. Not like this.


My feet carried me to the edge of the bus, where I considered stopping to breathe, though I didn't. I kept walking until I was a good twenty feet from the bus. I sank to my knees in the grass and placed my gun gently beside me. I couldn't hear any growls so there was no sign of danger. Relaxing a bit, I buried my head in my hands and let my tears fall.


Perhaps it shouldn't be such a big deal, for Rian and Zack to leave. I'd still have my sister and the man she loves most. Still, something was driving me insane. I can try to tell myself it's the same fear I have with Alex and Jack, that they'd die out there, scream for my help and I'd never hear them, but I don't think that's true. I just don't want to lose anyone else. I've watched too many people die, killed too many people I love. Enough is enough.


About an hour passed before something in the distance caught my eye. It was rapid movement under the moonlight. For a moment, I actually thought it may have been livestock. And that's when I realized, there was no livestock left. No, those things in the distance, quickly moving toward the light up bus, they were undead. My heart skipped a beat and my mouth went dry. With my eyes still locked on the monster, I let my fingers feel around in the grass until I found my gun. As quietly as I could, I stood up and backed very slowly toward the bus. I was about fifteen feet away when I heard the click of the door, then a tiny voice calling my name. The undead heard it, too, and they were hot on her ass.


"Riot, please come inside!"


"Tori," my voice shook as I gripped my gun tighter. I didn't want to yell and cause more of the undead to come, but they were so close now I could hear their grunts and growls. "Get back in the bus."


"Come on, Riot!"


More tears. They just wouldn't stop coming. I don't know how Tori wasn't seeing the infected. They were so close I could almost smell them. She stepped off of the bus and let out a small 'burr' then a giggle. She didn't even realize she was in danger until she heard the gunshot.


"Tori? Riot?"


I should have backed further towards the bus. Should have shoved Tori into Matt's arms so I could get my footing and get on the bus with them.


But I didn't.


I fired of a few more rounds in the heads of the infected and listened to Matt pulling my sister back onto the bus. He was screaming my name, telling me to run to the door, but I was frozen. It was a moment of weakness. One where I realized this was it for me. Tori was safe, but now there was a battle to be had with these monsters. I don't know where my mind went, though I do know my common sense went with it. The infected were closing in around me and I mentally welcomed them.


Everything was finally catching up to me and I was ready to face my demons.


"Zack, get her back on the bus! Get her back on the fucking bus right now!"


"Shit!" There was swearing beside me and then there were gun shots. Zack had taken it upon himself to join me in the battle. "Riot, we have to go. Now."


But they were everywhere. Coming at us from all directions. No matter which way we went now, going back to the bus would only put our friends and family at risk. I exhaled a deep breath and fired off my last shot as I heard the bus come to life. Panic formed in Zack's eyes as he realized what he'd gotten himself into.


I could hear my baby sister screaming my name, bawling to the top of her lungs as the bus was put into gear. I felt myself scream back as the bus pulled away, leaving Zack and I alone in the moonlit field in a sea of infected.


We would never survive this.. But maybe it was better this way.


If my journey has to end, at least I'm going down swinging.

Notes

So! This is the end.
If you want a sequel, just comment below and let me know. I'm not sure if I want to write one yet, but the ending was a little cruel to you guys, mwahaha! I love you all so much and thank you for reading. <3.

Comments

@BreakingJessie_x
Hell yeah!

Nevin.R Nevin.R
1/16/14

@Nevin.R
So you're in favor of a sequel?

this is so good! love it :D

Nevin.R Nevin.R
1/15/14

@shadybabii
I may or may not be working on one. ;]

omg sequal her and zack can't end there

shadybabii shadybabii
1/13/14