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Mama , I'm In Love With A Criminal (Jalex)

Chapter 4

I can't believe I kissed Jack.

Like really kissed Jack.

Full force he made me weak kind of kiss.

I haven't left my room for days , scarred to face Jack. Just so many question ran threw my mind.

Why did he kiss me? Is he gay? Or is he just trying to get back at the gang? Why did he blush so bad? Why did it last so long? Did he like it? Does he like me? What did the kiss mean to him?

There where so many questions I wanted answers to. So many , and I wanted them , and I was going to get them! Alex , you're in a gang you aren't suppose to be intimidated by anything! Yea , well I don't know if the rule applies to hot guys that I just kissed.

In frustration I ran out of my room and down the hall to Jacks , using whatever little bit of courage I had to push open the door. Jack was on his bed , sitting back to me , slunched over his guitar. Before I could say anything , he started strumming.

"Hey there it's good to see you again,
It never felt right calling this "just friends".
I'm happy, if you're happy, with yourself."

Jack sung to no one but himself , well , and me , lurking in the hall. I've never heard this song before , maybe he wrote it. I haven't seen him for three days.

'Take off your shirt, your shoes,
those skinny jeans I bought for you.
We're diving in, there's nothing left to lose.'


I looked at my shoes and my jeans , weird , they were the ones Jack insisted I use his credit card for when I went shopping the first night here.

'I'm gonna break down these walls, down these walls, I built around myself.
I wanna fall so in love, so in love, with you, and no one else,
Could ever mean half as much, to me as you do now.
Together we'll move on, just don't turn around,
Let the walls break down.'

Jack stopped playing when and sighed. Maybe it was about an ex girlfriend. I walked up to the bed , not wanting to make a sound , but I was busted when I sat and the bed squeaked.

Jack screamed and jumped off the bed , guitar positioned to hit someone if needed. His terrified eyes met mine , when I started laughing he calmed down and laughed with me.

"That was a nice song , did you write it?" I asked , not forgetting the reason I came here.

"Yea , I finished it yesterday , I know I'm not a good singer , but it's whatever." Jack said sitting back down in front of me.

I took him in. He looks like he hasn't slept , his normally amazing hair was now flat , unstyled , and starting to get dirty. A small stumble appeared on his face , making him look like a man. But it's so dark , I wonder if thats his natural hair color. I internally groan , more and more questions about this Barakat character.

"Oh. Well. I have questions , and I want answers. I'm going to be blunt. And so are you." Jack nodded still not leaving eye contact. Damn he was good at this.

"Okay. First , why the Hell did you kiss me back?"

"I like you."

Oh sweet merciful Jesus , he is going to be blunt.

"Okay. Second , are you gay?"

"I am."

What? He can't be gay! He was in the gang , he was the most respected person in the gang , he's not making any sense.

"Umm , yea , kay. Why did you let the kiss linger so long?"

"Because I never wanted it to stop."

Thats it , he has all sides of me pinned to the wall. I have a full blown crush on him. On the man I have to kill!

"Oh." WAs all I could get out around my smile , a stupid dorky , little school girl smile. Alex! You fucktard! You have to kill him! And what about Austin!?

Jack was smiling back at me , he had sense scooted closer , our faces not even a ruled length apart. I wanted to close the space , make him kiss me again , and this time enjoy the sober-itity of it. But I can't. . . Austin.


"What do you mean you kissed Barakat! We had something going Alex!" Austin screamed at me , punching a hole straight threw the wall , which was cement , for sound proofing , holy shit.

"Austin , I told you I was drunk! Please don't be like this!" I took his hand out of the wall and brought it to my chest so I could see him. He looked hurt , I don't want to hurt him. He shouldn't even be having these feelings towards me.

"That's not a good enough reason Alex." Austin was now talking normally , which untensed me a little , but not really.

"Austin... I don't see him that way." Lie. I do , a lot. I don't know what it is about the lanky skunk haired boy , but I like him , even though I have to kill him.

"I think you should go. You have to watch him for another 14 days yet. And in 15 days I'm getting my 'Murder 101'. " Austin muttered under his breath.

Austin was going to kill Jack? I thought I was! I thought I was staying with him so I could do it! If I don't I'll be a rookie forever! Which is something I can't have! The pay isn't good enough as a rookie.

"I thought I was doing. . . The job." I left go of Austin's hand starting to leave.

"Change of plans pretty boy." Austin called as I stormed out of the house.

Notes

I feel like this chapter is really short , sorry. (/_\) Don't hate me.
Oh! And sorry for the late upload too , my friend had like 50 things of Smarties and told em I didn't have the attention span to organize all the colors.
I proved him wrong , but jesus I almost went crazy!
And I'm appy to say I can write smut! Yay! *clap , clap , clap*

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Because Jalex Because Jalex
10/6/13
Omfg yes!!!
wtf jack cant kill oli! :'c
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9/30/13
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Thanks :)
Dear_Maria Dear_Maria
9/24/13
Perfect story.
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9/24/13