Three Musketeers

My head was in a dizzy state, I slowly opened eyes all I saw was Andy. K outside my room speaking to what look like a Surgeon. They noticed I was awake and walked back in the room. They explained what happened then Andy went back out to sign some papers. About 10 Minutes later Andy walked back in and said I had to stay in for 24hrs. Just for observation.
"Have you told him?" I asked my throat was sore so it came out in a almost whisper.
"Yeah he didn't answer so I tried Jack I told Jack"
"He's not coming is he?" Andy just shook his head, his phone buzzed and he left to answer it. A small part of me hoped it was Alex but I highly doubt it. I swallowed some spit that was stuck in my throat and turned my head towards the window facing outside. Realising that whole scenario was just a dream . Alex wasn't here and I wasn't with him. I will never be with him, I then remembered I had changed my emergency contact when Andy and I split. My life is just full of mistakes and bad decisions. Andy walked back in, Rian and Zack followed him, then Jack behind. They had flowers and chocolates and tropical juice (My favourite). They pulled chairs up to my bed, Feet up like we were at home. I starred at the door waiting for Alex to walk in. I looked over at Jack. he also just shook his head. I look disappointed then smiled because Jack was here.
"I'm sorry J" Jack said leaning over my hand "we all are"
"why Jack?" I asked confused
"We left you when you needed us the most and we didn't see because we were trying too hard to follow Alex's wishes. We turned our back on our best friend of nearly 11 years. We love you so much and I know he does he just doesn't know how go about telling you. You two have been through so much this past year alone. Its hard you both know it. I'm sorry"
I just sat there taking everything, We spoke for a while. It was time for them to leave and play a show in town. I leaned over the table and grabbed. A small part of me wished I would have a message from Alex just checking I was ok, I had a message from a number. Not a saved number. I opened it.
Hey J hope you're ok, Danny told me you were in hospital.
I'll come see you later if you want.
Really Good catching up with you. Missed you Girl!
Love JMDDN
I knew that signature anywhere. My boy Joel Madden was hitting me up, Must of chatted some right shit last night while fucked off my face. I smiled at my phone, It hurt to smile but I didn't care then I realised I actually felt slightly happy. I giggled. Realising my throat was hurt. I saved the number and messaged him back saying I'd rather see him when I could make an effort. I got a reply within minutes.
Fine whatever you say ;)
I'll just have chocolate on my own
I just smiled again, I replied with I have plenty of my own I put my phone down and rolled over to my side to sleep. Just as I closed my eyes I saw the door open and in walked Joel. Pjs pants and slippers on. Red Roses and a big ass box of chocolates. He smiled when he saw me. He put the roses in water and put the chocolates on my lap, then pulled out a laptop. He sent up netflix. Then came and sat on the chair we just got talking. Telling my everything we did the night before. For the first time in a year I laughed and I smiled, it wasn't fake I genuinely laughing and smiling at Joel. For the first time I didn't think about Alex, I didn't feel any pain I felt happy. Joel Madden was my breath of fresh air. The night went on of us just catching up. We used to chill together when I was a 15 yr old stoner.... that was like... Well I'm 25 now so 10 years ago? so he like 26? it sound terrible but we literally just skating stoner friends me him and Benji. It was different between Him and I. He no longer saw me as the awkward 15 year old stoner girl, who was in a half decent band. I don't know what he saw me as now but I sure as hell wanted to know.
"Shit look at the time" Joel said getting his phone out, It 12:50 am. "I better be going" He started to sit up and get his jacket.
I moved to the side of the bed, pulled the blankets down "No you're not" He looked at me and in that moment, I knew what he saw in me now. It wasn't lust it was love. he smiled. Kicked off his shoes and climbed into the hospital bed with me. His arms around me tight. A kiss on the back of my head and I could feel he was asleep already. I opened my eyes to see our reflection in the window and for the first time ever. I see Joels face and not Alex's.

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