-Alex POV-

It had been just under two weeks since I last saw Jack, I thought about texting or calling him so many times but I just couldn't bring myself to do it, I would just browse through all of the photos we'd taken together and feel like someone had punched me in the gut, it was like one of those breakups where you think everything is going fine and then they leave you without explanation.

Christmas was yesterday and even that sucked. I went to my parents house house for the day as I did every year, they kept congratulating me on my music and saying how proud they were and how Tom is looking down on me and smiling, which I really hope he was. We exchanged gifts and had our big roast dinner with all of the trimmings, but it was just a boring day and unfullfilling, I wanted it to be like it was when I was ten, getting up at 6am, not wanting breakfast, the buzz that everyone has and the warming atmosphere.

It felt like forever since Jack left without so much as a goodbye, not that I was expecting anything different really, that was the deal we made, and we had to stick to it. I wasn't myself anymore, I was moping around my place, not eating properly or sleeping...all because of one boy and the ridiculous impact he had one me. I felt empty inside without him here, I missed that lanky idiot more than I thought I would, I realise now that maybe I do like him than more than just a friend....okay, not maybe, definitely. I really wished I didn't though because now he's gone and I'm too much of a moron to even drop him a text, you never know though, now that we're both signed to the same label I might bump into him at the studio. It's unlikely though.

I didn't realise how fast paced the music industry was, I'd barely been there two weeks and I had already recorded my first single that was due to be aired for the first time ever in three days time, it was crazy how fast it was all happening, but I can't really complain.

I dragged myself over to my bed and pulled out my lyric book from under my pillow, flicking to my most recent piece - my fist single.

I wish you could see your face right now
'cause you're grinning like a fool
And we're sitting on your kitchen floor
On a Tuesday afternoon
It doesn't matter when we get back
To doing what we do
'cause right now could last forever
Just as long as I'm with you

'cause you're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you
And I'll keep you a daydream away
Just watch from a safe place
So I never have to lose

We would go out on the weekend
To escape our busy lives
And we'd laugh at all the douche bag guys
Chasing down their desperate wives
I would drink a little too much
You'd offer me a ride
And I would offer you a T-Shirt
And you'd stay another night

But you're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you
And I'll keep you a daydream away
Just watch from a safe place
So I never have to lose

We never stood a chance out there
Shooting love in real time
So we'll take it over ice tonight
With a little salt and a little lime

You're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you
And I'll keep you a daydream away
Just watch from a safe place
So I never have to lose

You're just a daydream away
Wouldn't know what to say if I had you

As I read the last line I felt a tear slide down my face and drop into the paper. Yes this song was clearly about Jack, I really fucking missed him...it pretty much sums up this whole thing - we never stood a chance. I just can't believe I let him walk away so easily.

God dammit Alex you twat.


-Jack POV-

This 'deal' thing we had going on fucking sucks, probably the worst idea I've ever had; even worse than when I slept with my teacher in school to get good grades. I thought it was great at first, but then I had to go and get feelings for Alex, didn't I? Apart from Vic, I'd never had a serious relationship...I was used to one night stands and I was fine with that, it was just who I was, I never really wanted to settle down, I wanted to have fun, experience my body and let others do the same without attachments or strings. That's why it confused me when it came to Lex, I was expecting it to be like any other fling I'd had in the past....we do our thing then forget about it, but something just made me want more and more from him.

I was pinning everything on him getting in touch, but nothing, not a word. He obviously didn't care. He got what he wanted from me and left, not that I could be mad at him for that because I was the one who suggested it. I was just mad at myself.

I knew by stalking his Twitter page that today was his premier of his first single and I was pretty exited to hear it, I wanted to hear that beautiful voice, the one with a gravely tone that makes your heart just melt - his tour videos on YouTube just weren't enough, so I was really looking forward to some new material.

It was 9:55 pm now, which meant 5 minutes before it was played, I had my TV on already, waiting patiently for it to be introduced. I was treating it like the movies, I had my snacks out on front of me, popcorn, chips, gummy bears and a large glass of cola, I felt like a teenager again when you're waiting to hear your favourite band to come on, joy filling your body as you hear the first chords.

I picked up my cell from beside me to see the wallpaper of us on the plane from the day we left Ibiza...the last day I saw him. I smiled at the picture, letting all of the memories come flooding back, all of the....feelings. Him not being here did nothing to subside them, if anything they made them stronger. Putting a piece of the sweet popcorn into my mouth, the current song faded out and a presenter started speaking in his usual cheery tone.

''Okay guys, it that time! Time for a brand new artist and their first ever song! You may remember this guy from the JAGK tour. This, is the very talented Alex Gaskarth with 'Day Dream Away'. ENJOY.

It started playing, the first thing I hear being his acoustic guitar....I always preferred his acoustic stuff if I'm being honest. The lyrics started and that oh so familiar voice of his sounded more beautiful than ever.

The song came to and end far too quickly, the lyrics going round and round in my mind...I felt as though they were wrote with me in mind. Was that even possible? Probably not, we doesn't give a damn....but something kept on nagging at me, what if they were, but he was too scared to say it to my face? I had to take this shot, I had to see him again.

Turning of the TV and unlocking my phone, I went to my contact list. Too scared to phone him personally, I phoned the guy who I knew could help me out, I hit Austin's name on my screen, and after four of five rings, he picked up.

''Hey Austin-'' I started but being cut off straight away.

''Did you tune in and listen to Alex? Dude I'm so glad you brought him to me, he's great!"

''Uhhh, yeah I did, that's what I want to talk to you about actually.'' I sighed.

''Wassup Baraslut?'' He soothed me.

''You know how we used to have those end of year office parties? Well I uhhh, can we have one this year?'' I asked. ''I know it's short notice, but I have my reasons, please dude?''

I told him that we hadn't seen each other since he got signed, he asked why and I just said we fell out, he didn't understand why I cared so much until I told him that I really liked him but was too much of a coward to do anything about it personally.

''I guess I'll see you new years then,'' he smiled down the phone. ''Which is in 4 days or so, good luck man.''

''Thanks, I really appreciate it.''

I hung up the phone and led on my lounge floor. I was seeing Alex, I have to tell him how I feel, he needs to know.

Notes

THEY FINALLY ADMIT IT TO THEMSELVES
'bout time, don't you reckon?

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