The Flavor Of Your Lips Is Enough To Keep You Here
I have feelings for you
Alex Pov
I heard a knock at the door “I’ll get it I shouted”
“Hey Oli, Hey Josh” I greeted them “Do you want to follow me down to the cellar?”
“Yea sure” When we were safely in the cellar.
“Umm this is kind of difficult but I I think I have feelings for Jack “I stammered “But I still love Tay I dunno how to feel and I can’t really speak to Tom. I feel so confused can you give me some advice please. I dunno how or what I’m feeling”
“Well that’s kind of how I and Oli felt before we got together; we both had girlfriends who we still thought we had feelings for. But then we started spending more time together we realized that the feelings we had for each other were true and well it just kind of happened. We haven’t told anyone but you guys because well you know what Toms like”
“Yeah unfortunately we I’m sad to say he’s my brother. Mum and dad hate the fact he’s so homophobic. I know why he’s so homophobic its Mark he wasn’t so homophobic until he met him”
“Yeah we know”
“Well you know why I didn’t want to discuss this matter with Tom I mean he would just pick on Jack more perhaps even batter him because *he passed gay on to me* I mean know that you can’t catch it but Tom seems to have got it stuck in his head that you can. He also thinks that all girls are useful for are making babies, shagging and cooking and cleaning. I know they’re not I dunno how he got that idea into his head. It’s all really rather annoying to be honest. Do you think I should tell Jack how I feel about him? I Dunno I’m scared what if he doesn’t see me that way? What if he only sees me as a friend? What if I make things awkward between us? Sorry I just bombarded you with questions “
“Its fine Alex don’t worry” They assured me “We don’t mind it’s easier to speak to someone whos been through it as they know your feelings. We will be with you all the way no matter what decision you make we will advise and support”
“Thanks so much guys you have been a big help”
“Bye” unfoutuatly Tom caught us on the way out”
“Eww what you been talking to the fag for. He hasn’t passed it on to you has he or am I going to have to beat some sense into you”
“Of course he hasn’t passed it on “Okay well at least I know I can’t tell Tom although I will tell my parents. I walked up to the living room where my parents were watching telly so I walked in.
“Mum, dad can I talk to you for a moment please”
“Yes of course you can Alex honey” They said as they turned off the telly.
“Before I tell you can you promise me something?”
“Yes anything Alex”
“Can you please not tell Tom what I’m about to tell you “
“Sure Alex”
“I have or think I have feelings for Jack although I think I still love Tay as well I dunno how I feel but I don’t want to discuss this with Tom you know what he’s like. He will just batter the shit out of Jack because he will assume that Jack passed gay on to me “
“Alex honey we understand you can’t help who you have feelings for how long do you think you’ve had feelings for Jack”
“Since about a week ago or longer”
“Have you ever had feelings for another boy or is it just Jack” My dad quizzed
“Just Jack”
“Have you told him how you feel, maybe he feels the same way”
“But what if he doesn’t then I will just feel silly and awkward”
“Alex if he’s your friend he won’t mind if you want we can take Tom out for a couple of hours so that you can have Jack over and speak to him without him interrupting and making rude comments we can go now if you want”
“Yeah sure why not, I’ll give him a text now”
Hey Jack can you come over to mine. I need to talk to you
He rapidly text back
Yeah sure I will be over in 10
I then heard a knock at the door I knew it would be Jack so I went and answered it by this point my parents had taken Tom out.
“Hey Jack, how are you?”
“I’m fine thank you. What about you”
“Good thanks. I wanted to talk to you. I mean there’s no easy way of putting this but I think I like you as in like I just dunno how I feel or if you would feel the same way but mum and dad said it would be best to just talk to you”
“Well funny you should mention that Alex cause I have feelings for you to. I just didn’t know how to tell you, do you mind if we finish this at my house as I’m supposed to babysit May as mom is going out”
“Yeah that’s fine” We ended up snuggling on Jacks sofa which involved my head in Jacks lap.
I must have fallen asleep at Jacks house. As I awoke the next morning with my head on Jacks chest and Jacks arm around my waist. Don’t get me wrong I wasn’t complaining.
I heard a knock at the door “I’ll get it I shouted”
“Hey Oli, Hey Josh” I greeted them “Do you want to follow me down to the cellar?”
“Yea sure” When we were safely in the cellar.
“Umm this is kind of difficult but I I think I have feelings for Jack “I stammered “But I still love Tay I dunno how to feel and I can’t really speak to Tom. I feel so confused can you give me some advice please. I dunno how or what I’m feeling”
“Well that’s kind of how I and Oli felt before we got together; we both had girlfriends who we still thought we had feelings for. But then we started spending more time together we realized that the feelings we had for each other were true and well it just kind of happened. We haven’t told anyone but you guys because well you know what Toms like”
“Yeah unfortunately we I’m sad to say he’s my brother. Mum and dad hate the fact he’s so homophobic. I know why he’s so homophobic its Mark he wasn’t so homophobic until he met him”
“Yeah we know”
“Well you know why I didn’t want to discuss this matter with Tom I mean he would just pick on Jack more perhaps even batter him because *he passed gay on to me* I mean know that you can’t catch it but Tom seems to have got it stuck in his head that you can. He also thinks that all girls are useful for are making babies, shagging and cooking and cleaning. I know they’re not I dunno how he got that idea into his head. It’s all really rather annoying to be honest. Do you think I should tell Jack how I feel about him? I Dunno I’m scared what if he doesn’t see me that way? What if he only sees me as a friend? What if I make things awkward between us? Sorry I just bombarded you with questions “
“Its fine Alex don’t worry” They assured me “We don’t mind it’s easier to speak to someone whos been through it as they know your feelings. We will be with you all the way no matter what decision you make we will advise and support”
“Thanks so much guys you have been a big help”
“Bye” unfoutuatly Tom caught us on the way out”
“Eww what you been talking to the fag for. He hasn’t passed it on to you has he or am I going to have to beat some sense into you”
“Of course he hasn’t passed it on “Okay well at least I know I can’t tell Tom although I will tell my parents. I walked up to the living room where my parents were watching telly so I walked in.
“Mum, dad can I talk to you for a moment please”
“Yes of course you can Alex honey” They said as they turned off the telly.
“Before I tell you can you promise me something?”
“Yes anything Alex”
“Can you please not tell Tom what I’m about to tell you “
“Sure Alex”
“I have or think I have feelings for Jack although I think I still love Tay as well I dunno how I feel but I don’t want to discuss this with Tom you know what he’s like. He will just batter the shit out of Jack because he will assume that Jack passed gay on to me “
“Alex honey we understand you can’t help who you have feelings for how long do you think you’ve had feelings for Jack”
“Since about a week ago or longer”
“Have you ever had feelings for another boy or is it just Jack” My dad quizzed
“Just Jack”
“Have you told him how you feel, maybe he feels the same way”
“But what if he doesn’t then I will just feel silly and awkward”
“Alex if he’s your friend he won’t mind if you want we can take Tom out for a couple of hours so that you can have Jack over and speak to him without him interrupting and making rude comments we can go now if you want”
“Yeah sure why not, I’ll give him a text now”
Hey Jack can you come over to mine. I need to talk to you
He rapidly text back
Yeah sure I will be over in 10
I then heard a knock at the door I knew it would be Jack so I went and answered it by this point my parents had taken Tom out.
“Hey Jack, how are you?”
“I’m fine thank you. What about you”
“Good thanks. I wanted to talk to you. I mean there’s no easy way of putting this but I think I like you as in like I just dunno how I feel or if you would feel the same way but mum and dad said it would be best to just talk to you”
“Well funny you should mention that Alex cause I have feelings for you to. I just didn’t know how to tell you, do you mind if we finish this at my house as I’m supposed to babysit May as mom is going out”
“Yeah that’s fine” We ended up snuggling on Jacks sofa which involved my head in Jacks lap.
I must have fallen asleep at Jacks house. As I awoke the next morning with my head on Jacks chest and Jacks arm around my waist. Don’t get me wrong I wasn’t complaining.
5/31/13