Mange Me, I'm A Mess
Wake up and let go
Kassi Lynn
Today was the day Alex came back onto tour, and I wasn't ready to face him to say the least. His fans were attacking me on every social media site I owned. If I went outside fans would scream at me. It was out of control. Hell, i'm out of control. My self harm came back stronger than ever. The guys haven't caught me in action, thank god.
"Kass?" I heard Alex's voice call out. The guys went to pick up Alex while I stayed on the bus. I know, i'm a horrible girlfriend. I heard his footsteps get louder as he approached my bunk, pulling back the curtain. When he saw me he automatically grabbed me into a tight hug. My arms hung at my sides, waiting for him to let go. "Get dressed, were going out." He frowned, pulling on my hand to get me up.
"A-alex I don't think that's a good idea." I muttered, looking down at my hands.
"Just trust me." He said, kissing my cheek and walking away. I sighed as I grabbed a Glamour Kills tee along with some black skinny jeans. I picked up a random pair of vans and headed out, not really even caring about makeup or hair. All I did to my hair was brush it, so at least it's okay there. Alex smiled when I came out of the bus, grabbing my hand. No fans were in sight, so that was good news on my part. We walked a couple blocks until we reached a carnival?
"What are we doing here?" I asked, taking a look around.
"Do you trust me?" Alex asked, looking me in the eyes. I nodded as he pulled my hand into the crazy mirror house. When we entered he made me stand in front of the mirror that made me fat.
"This is what you think you look like." He turned me around to face him with a hand mirror in his hand. "This is what you actually look like." He smiled, turning me around. He repeated the process with different mirrors. "You are beautiful Kass. Don't let anyone tell you different." I hugged him, tears coming out of my eyes. This was the best thing someone could of ever done for me.
"T-thank you." I choked out while he held me. He put a finger under my chin, making me look at him in the eyes. He planted a kiss on my lips, making me smile into the kiss.
"You're beautiful." He whispered into my ear, making me shiver.
"I believe it now, thanks to you."
Today was the day Alex came back onto tour, and I wasn't ready to face him to say the least. His fans were attacking me on every social media site I owned. If I went outside fans would scream at me. It was out of control. Hell, i'm out of control. My self harm came back stronger than ever. The guys haven't caught me in action, thank god.
"Kass?" I heard Alex's voice call out. The guys went to pick up Alex while I stayed on the bus. I know, i'm a horrible girlfriend. I heard his footsteps get louder as he approached my bunk, pulling back the curtain. When he saw me he automatically grabbed me into a tight hug. My arms hung at my sides, waiting for him to let go. "Get dressed, were going out." He frowned, pulling on my hand to get me up.
"A-alex I don't think that's a good idea." I muttered, looking down at my hands.
"Just trust me." He said, kissing my cheek and walking away. I sighed as I grabbed a Glamour Kills tee along with some black skinny jeans. I picked up a random pair of vans and headed out, not really even caring about makeup or hair. All I did to my hair was brush it, so at least it's okay there. Alex smiled when I came out of the bus, grabbing my hand. No fans were in sight, so that was good news on my part. We walked a couple blocks until we reached a carnival?
"What are we doing here?" I asked, taking a look around.
"Do you trust me?" Alex asked, looking me in the eyes. I nodded as he pulled my hand into the crazy mirror house. When we entered he made me stand in front of the mirror that made me fat.
"This is what you think you look like." He turned me around to face him with a hand mirror in his hand. "This is what you actually look like." He smiled, turning me around. He repeated the process with different mirrors. "You are beautiful Kass. Don't let anyone tell you different." I hugged him, tears coming out of my eyes. This was the best thing someone could of ever done for me.
"T-thank you." I choked out while he held me. He put a finger under my chin, making me look at him in the eyes. He planted a kiss on my lips, making me smile into the kiss.
"You're beautiful." He whispered into my ear, making me shiver.
"I believe it now, thanks to you."
8/20/13