Remembering Sunday
Chapter 21
*Jacks POV*
"Jack you ready to go?" Alex asked me when he walked into the room wearing his station dress uniform. It was navy blue dress pants, a sky blue long sleeve button up with all his metals on it, black tie and black dress shoes.
"Almost." I said straightening my dark purple bow tie and smoothing out my black button up shirt.
Alex placed his head on my shoulder and gently kissed my neck. "It's okay" He whispered in my ear, hugging me around my waist.
"It's going to be hard." I whispered walking away from him grabbing his guitar and slinging it over my shoulder.
"I know babe. But you can do this. I believe in you. Now let's go pick up everybody else."
I nodded and we walked to his truck and drove off to pick up Larissa, Heaven, Zack, and Rian.
Larissa and Heaven were both dressed in knee length lacy black dresses and Zack and Rian were both dressed in the same thing as Alex. They all gave me sempathetic looks when they got in the truck and Larissa and Heaven each gave me a kiss on the cheek.
The rest of the ride there was silent until we got to the funeral home where her service were to be held.
We walked in and all took a seat on the front row and waited for the pastor to walk up to the front and begin the service. I blanked out cause I really didn't wanna pay attention to anything cause if I even so looked over at her casket I was going to cry. But soon the time came where I had to go up and sing.
"Now if I may take this time to let Mays younger brother Jack sing a song that he wrote just for today. Jack?" The pastor said.
"Jacky baby. Time to go up." Alex said shaking me out of my trance. I nodded and grabbed the guitar walking up to her casket and ran my fingers over the handle.
I sat down on the stool they had up for me and placed the guitar on my lap and ran my fingers up and down the neck.
"This is a song I wrote for May. It's called Lullabies."
I took a deep breath and kept my eyes on Alex for a little bit. He gave me a smile.
"Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye -
it could be for the last time and it's not right.
"Don't let yourself get in over your head," she said.
Alone and far from home we'll find you..."
I sang my heart out not caring that I knew I couldn't sing that great. I saw tears in my families eyes that flew down from Lebanon for the funeral knowing I couldn't come up there for it.
"Forever's never seemed so long as when you're not around
it's like a piece of me is missing.
I could have learned so much from you but what's left now?
Don't you realize you shot this family a world of pain?
Can't you see there should have been a happy ending we let go?"
I looked up and saw Alex with tears in his eyes holding onto his sister tightly like she was a gift. Probably cherishing her like he couldn't imagining losing her. I couldn't blame him.
I neared the end of my song and took a deep breath knowing this was a hard part for me.
"Sing me to sleep, I'll see you in my dreams,
waiting to say, "I miss you. I'm so sorry." "
I looked down as a teardrop fell onto Alex's guitar and I slowly stood up and walked back to my seat next to Alex and cried into his chest not caring anymore about hiding my emotions for the remainder of the service.
When it was over, people were taking turns going up to her casket and saying their goodbyes.
"Jack do you want me to go up with you?" Alex asked and I nodded.
Walking up Alex got a few handshakes and 'thank you's' from some people probably cause he was in uniform and knew about our house fire.
When I got up, I didn't care who the fuck thought it was weird, I bent down and kissed her cheek and gently hugging her whispering "I love you." Before walking away.
Zack, Rian, Heaven, and Larissa looked at May quickly and walked back down the aisle with us and we stayed back and ate with everybody. I wasn't really hungry so I snuck away from everybody and sat in the rain and let out my tears. I started shivering after a while and saw Heaven walk outside with an umbrella and put it under me.
"I know you don't want to talk but I thought you'd want an umbrella. Don't worry I do this too when I'm upset. I love you Jack." And she kissed my cheek and walked back inside.
I don't know how I'm going to survive now that I lost one of the people I was closest to but I knew I had to stay strong for Alex.
"Jack you ready to go?" Alex asked me when he walked into the room wearing his station dress uniform. It was navy blue dress pants, a sky blue long sleeve button up with all his metals on it, black tie and black dress shoes.
"Almost." I said straightening my dark purple bow tie and smoothing out my black button up shirt.
Alex placed his head on my shoulder and gently kissed my neck. "It's okay" He whispered in my ear, hugging me around my waist.
"It's going to be hard." I whispered walking away from him grabbing his guitar and slinging it over my shoulder.
"I know babe. But you can do this. I believe in you. Now let's go pick up everybody else."
I nodded and we walked to his truck and drove off to pick up Larissa, Heaven, Zack, and Rian.
Larissa and Heaven were both dressed in knee length lacy black dresses and Zack and Rian were both dressed in the same thing as Alex. They all gave me sempathetic looks when they got in the truck and Larissa and Heaven each gave me a kiss on the cheek.
The rest of the ride there was silent until we got to the funeral home where her service were to be held.
We walked in and all took a seat on the front row and waited for the pastor to walk up to the front and begin the service. I blanked out cause I really didn't wanna pay attention to anything cause if I even so looked over at her casket I was going to cry. But soon the time came where I had to go up and sing.
"Now if I may take this time to let Mays younger brother Jack sing a song that he wrote just for today. Jack?" The pastor said.
"Jacky baby. Time to go up." Alex said shaking me out of my trance. I nodded and grabbed the guitar walking up to her casket and ran my fingers over the handle.
I sat down on the stool they had up for me and placed the guitar on my lap and ran my fingers up and down the neck.
"This is a song I wrote for May. It's called Lullabies."
I took a deep breath and kept my eyes on Alex for a little bit. He gave me a smile.
"Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye -
it could be for the last time and it's not right.
"Don't let yourself get in over your head," she said.
Alone and far from home we'll find you..."
I sang my heart out not caring that I knew I couldn't sing that great. I saw tears in my families eyes that flew down from Lebanon for the funeral knowing I couldn't come up there for it.
"Forever's never seemed so long as when you're not around
it's like a piece of me is missing.
I could have learned so much from you but what's left now?
Don't you realize you shot this family a world of pain?
Can't you see there should have been a happy ending we let go?"
I looked up and saw Alex with tears in his eyes holding onto his sister tightly like she was a gift. Probably cherishing her like he couldn't imagining losing her. I couldn't blame him.
I neared the end of my song and took a deep breath knowing this was a hard part for me.
"Sing me to sleep, I'll see you in my dreams,
waiting to say, "I miss you. I'm so sorry." "
I looked down as a teardrop fell onto Alex's guitar and I slowly stood up and walked back to my seat next to Alex and cried into his chest not caring anymore about hiding my emotions for the remainder of the service.
When it was over, people were taking turns going up to her casket and saying their goodbyes.
"Jack do you want me to go up with you?" Alex asked and I nodded.
Walking up Alex got a few handshakes and 'thank you's' from some people probably cause he was in uniform and knew about our house fire.
When I got up, I didn't care who the fuck thought it was weird, I bent down and kissed her cheek and gently hugging her whispering "I love you." Before walking away.
Zack, Rian, Heaven, and Larissa looked at May quickly and walked back down the aisle with us and we stayed back and ate with everybody. I wasn't really hungry so I snuck away from everybody and sat in the rain and let out my tears. I started shivering after a while and saw Heaven walk outside with an umbrella and put it under me.
"I know you don't want to talk but I thought you'd want an umbrella. Don't worry I do this too when I'm upset. I love you Jack." And she kissed my cheek and walked back inside.
I don't know how I'm going to survive now that I lost one of the people I was closest to but I knew I had to stay strong for Alex.
Notes
pretty sure i've showed y'all this picture but that's the uniform alex, rian, and zack were wearing.https://fbcdn-sphotos-b-a.akamaihd.net/hphotos-ak-ash2/531077_3905087633679_1083750964_n.jpg
sorry it's so short :c
@trottablogga
No problem, and that's great. I can tell you're close, that's great, kind of jelous. Haha, but yeah, he sound like a good guy too!
Oh! By the way, when it played 'For your entertainment' by Adam Lambert..I started fangirling. Haha!
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